I can feel it again, I can feel it moving inside of me, how I ever ignored it, is beyond me. I need...I need to feed I need to feed it and then maybe it will shut up. I look behind me as I see how far I've ran. Max is behind me now, his nothing but a distant memory. That's all... I speed walk to the park, the same park that all my memories lay. I shake my head once more trying to think about other, more important things.

I see a young girl, about my age, running through the park, stupid foolish girl, I think to myself. I smile as I linger in the shadows, hunting my prey. I see her blonde curls bouncing up and down.

I look at her closely and then I give a bigger smile as I realize who it is. I'm going to enjoy killing her, I think to myself. Im going to kill her ever so slowly and when I do, she wont even be able to dig herself out of her grave, I smile to myself.

I look around and slowly follow her with my eyes. As I do so, I think to myself how easy this is going to be. I slowly walk within the shadows, she heard me, I see her turning her neck around to see who it is. It's to late for a surprised attack so instead I run at her and high kick her in the stomach.

"Li..Liz?" she questions

"What, did you think I wouldn't come for my revenge?" I ask her beyond frustrated.

She slowly gets up and just stares at me, she looks as blonde as ever, I think to myself, I have to hold back a laugh. I then punch her in the stomach as I have the pleasure of watching her double over in pain once again.

She then aims her hand up towards me and fires a blast, I'm to quick for her though as I jump out of the way and kick her in the throat. I can see her gasping for breath as she is trying to breathe. This is supposed to feel satisfying, but it doesn't, watching her trying to breathe just makes me feel sympathetic towards her.

I look at her, she has tears running down her pretty little face, I cant stop but wonder if Max enjoyed sleeping with her. I look at her with discussed yet envy her for she has everything I wanted, the only man I could ever love.

I turn around to leave her as I see someone lurking in the shadows, I know who it is.

I see him appear out of the shadows and walk swiftly towards the girl I despise and before I can do anything he has his hands around her neck as I hear a satisfying break. He throws her on the ground next to my feet.

"So feed!" he says as if it's that simple

I look at him with hatred and pain in my eyes and then I look at the lifeless body, which is now on the ground next to me. For a slight second I think about draining her but then my conscience thought better of it so instead I turn around and walk away.

"Your pathetic" he says pitilessly

I hear him and I decide to turn around.

"Its not like I had a choice to be who I am!" I say bitterly

"Oh but aren't you glad you are who you are" he plays with my mind, his so deceiving or maybe its just because I'm so vulnerable. I hate it when he talks in Cryptic.

He walks slowly to the lifeless body, which is on the floor and picks her up harshly and throws her into my arms.

Her neck is twisted and broken, I can feel the tears brimming down my cheeks.

"I didn't want her dead!" I whisper huskily

"You did, you were just to pathetic and to soft, so I did it for you" he smiles at me as I still hold her in my hands. I feel like I cant let her go like something inside me is controlling me to drink her, feed off her.

I shake my head, "No" I scream, "I cant, I...I just cant" I drop her lifeless body on the ground next to me. My stomach...its telling me to feed, to drink her. Im once again used as a puppet as my body is controlled. My hand grabs the blonde by the hair lifting her up without a struggle. I can feel my teeth getting larger and I without hesitation, biting into her flesh.

I drain her without a second thought, yet I still have tears in my eyes. I let go of her body; I let go of the girl who I despised, who I envied and the woman who slept with the only man I will ever love. She took his innocence from him and yet I cant say I hate her.

I look over at the man who turned me into 'this,' he has a smile on his face, how I would just love to smack it of him right about now.

"So did you like it?"

I turn around to see the other small blonde behind me, with a disgusted look written all over her face. I try to lose eye contacted with her as she looks at the man, which is now behind me.

"And you just stand there?" She ask the man behind me

"I tried to stop her but..." he defends himself, I then turn around to look at him, If I said I was applaud it would be an understatement, I have nothing to say to him so instead I punch him, I punch him in the face as hard as I can. I then turn around to look at Buffy straight in the eye.

I know she can see hopelessness in my eyes, I know she wont listen to what I have to say so instead I run for it.... I can feel her following me I know she will eventually catch me but I still have to try. Its just not me which counts on me living anymore.