Its funny how im trying to protect it, when I don't even know it, when it isn't even alive yet nor do I think it ever will be. Its not born yet and its already taking over my life, it's making me do things, which I just don't do. I cry helplessly inside as im still running, I stumble to the place, the only place were I feel like I belong.

I jump to his window and quickly open it and climb in, I see him on his bed looking up at his ceiling. He jumps from his bed as he sees me, for a second I thought I so a flash of gladness in his eyes but as fast as it came, it was gone.

His staring right through me again, god, the only person I thought I belonged with is looking at me like...I'm pathetic.

"You're bleeding..." he points to the side of my lip, I quickly wipe away Tess's blood, which was on my lips.

He looks confused and just as vulnerable as I feel, my non-beating heart goes out to him as I approach him cautiously. Curious to see if he will take a step back, I slowly embrace him, as it is him that doesn't return the hug nor move from his position, he just stands there.

Although he doesn't return the hug, just embracing him means a lot to me, I slowly let go and take a few steps backwards. He again tries to make eye contact with me but I look away. Not wanting him to see my tears, which have managed to roll down my cheeks.

He shakes his head, in dismay.

"I thought you couldn't handle 'this,'" he asks coldly, more of a comment then a question.

I look at him with hurt eyes. "We need to...talk," I decided, not wanting to talk about what just happened.

"Liz, why are you so distant..." he shakes his head and I can tell, that, that's not the question he wanted to ask.

"How is it, that you're here, walking and talking, here in my room?" he asks, a little bit demanding.

I heavily sigh as I see him sit on his bed and pat the side of the bed, signalling me to sit down. I obey, I quickly sit next to him, leaving aspace so we don't touch.

"I can't give you an answer, merely because I don't have one..." I say honestly

He doesn't seem to be too happy about that answer, I soon see him put his hand slowly where my heart is supposed to be beating. I cringe in awareness, I move away quickly before he can feel that I don't have a heartbeat.

"Don't bother, I don't have a pulse," I say coldly, he looks at me, this time with sympathy.

"Why?"

"Because im a goddamn vampire OK?!" I scream, I soon hear a loud knock at the door.

"Max is everything ok in there?" I here a woman's voice as she opens the door our eyes meet, she looks at me with complete astonishment.

"Li...Liz?" she says not really believing that it is really me, I don't know what to say so instead I just stand there.

"LIZ?" she asks again, I now see tears brimming in her eyes.

"pl...please don't..." I plead with her, I was trying to say don't cry but the words just wouldn't come out of my mouth.

She runs to me, and amazingly she hugs me as I soon return the hug, we stay like this for a few moments. I slowly let go as I see a small smile on her face, I didn't even know she cared about me.

My eyes dart over towards Max, as I see pure jealously written on his face, why is he jealous? I ask myself.

"Isabel! Don't you knock?" he ask angrily

"Not when dead people are around!" she replies, I think it was supposed to be a joke but it hurt anyway.

"So fill me in? I'm so out of the loop, its just not funny!" she says in a annoyed tone

"Aren't we all" mumbled Max which is staring at me strangely

"Tess is dead..." I blurt out

"She's what!?" demands Isabel and Max at the same time.

I take a deep breath, "I...no not me...that..." the words just wouldn't come out. Max is now off the bed and is coming towards me. He shake me "what did you do to her!?" he demands.

For once he is scaring me, for once I don't feel like I belong here, maybe I never did. Maybe I just wanted it so badly that I was in denial. I question myself.

Something over took my emotions as I shrug my shoulder his hands fall off me.

"Yeah, I killed her" I spat

"She cried your name the whole time and I laughed" I give an evil smile at Max, seeing how betrayed he looked, only made me want to hurt him more.

Before I lnew what was coming to me, I feel someone slap me in the face. I turn to see who it was, it was Max. Now it is I who feels the betrayal but instead I laugh, I laugh at how naive and how easy it is for him to lose my trust.

I don't bother looking at him because I don't want it to haunt me.

I feel like to crumble, to just fall on the floor and never get up again but instead I look at Isabel, who is crying hysterically and then I look at Max once again, I avoid his eyes.

"Its ironic how know one wants to hear your side of the story, I guess they all just don't have the time, they never did and never will" I give a sly smile and back away from both of them. Climbing out the window for the last time I jump on the ground and walk slowly, knowing they wont follow me because they simply don't care.

I now walk in the darkness, forever, the only person who lifts me up to the light was Max and although I never realised it he was my savour and now I have nothing. I sob quietly to myself, thinking that know one can hear me.