Feed...feed.... My stomach is telling me to feed.... "Shut up!" I scream. "Leave me alone, just leave me alone!"

"You know people are going to think your crazy"

I see him walking out of the shadows, if his doing that to scare me, it's working, I think to myself. I see him smile at me, which only makes me want to smack it off him once again.

I look at him with a disgusted face and feel only hatred for him, if I thought my life was bad before it has just gotten a whole lot worst.

I always thought it was supposed to get better when your dead but its not its completely and utterly terrible.

I feel him staring at me yet he just stands there, he doesn't say anything and for some reason I don't move. I don't understand, I can't move, he scares me more then I scare myself.

'Run' I constantly scream at myself but still I am standing here staring in the eyes of the man I despise more then myself.

"What's the matter Lizzie, cat caught your tongue?" he asks me sarcastically, walking slowly towards me.

I look at him for a moment, totally dumbfounded that he has a nerve to say that. All the things he has done to me and yet I stand here, I feel so pathetic and I don't know why...I feel so cheap and easy to get, all because of him. I see him smile again and I feel my blood boil I finally crack, little miss perfect parker isn't so perfect after all.

I run as fast I can towards the man who turned me into 'this' I can feel all sanity which I ever had, dissipate as I jump in the air and kick him.

I cry in pain as he grabs my leg and twist it. I fall on the ground, in pain, I shiver, I feel so empty and so vulnerable.

I feel like to give up, I feel like to let every thing go.

"JUST KILL ME!" I scream, I'm on the floor pleading for the man I hate to kill me. Pathetic, I scream at myself.

But I know, he is going to do more then just kill me...I'm crying inside.

Liz...don't give up, don't give up! You're just not fighting for yourself...I remind myself.

I'm in pain, I know I'm not in the condition to fight, I see him coming closer to me, with that evil smile on his face.

From that moment I swear to myself im going to eventually get my revenge.

I pick up all my strength; any strength I have left and I kick him in where he is never going to have kids again. He then doubles over in pain; I take this opportunity to my advantage and pick myself up from the ground.

"Hurt doesn't it!"

I say to him with more confidents then I actually felt. I look at him once again and I remember what he did to me, what he has done to me. I then start kicking him on the ground. I feel satisfied but the pain he is feeling right now is not even close to how I felt and will continue to feel for all eternity.

I know he is going to haunt me, in my dreams, in my thoughts but at least I get a little bit of closure, even if its only a small amount.

I kick him as hard as I can, before I knew what was coming to me, I find myself on the floor. I open my eyes to see the blonde looking over at me, I see her helping up the man I despise. I hold my body, I cant fight this woman, she is far to strong, I know that...

"THIS ISN'T OVER" I say to the man, who haunts my dreams, I look at Buffy again and take in her appearance, she looks at me, like I've done something wrong, like im the evil one.

I feel like to say something to her, anything but I stop myself as I see the two of them embrace, I realize she wont listen to me nor believe me...no one ever does.

For the second time that day I ran not looking back, I ran for what felt like hours not knowing where to go, who to turn to, I'm alone, its me against the world. Suddenly I felt my stomach growl, feed ...feed ...feed my stomach chanted again

"SHUT UP, JUST SHUT UP" I forced as I fell to the ground screaming.

Loneliness concord my emotions, as I felt like I couldn't take it anymore, I was on the ground, the cold ground. Lying there, not knowing were to go, were to turn too.

I sat up in a crouch position and before I knew what was happening, I vomit up blood. I feel the tears once again brim down my cold, pale cheeks; everything is so wrong, so wrong... I scream in my head. I can still taste her blood inside my mouth, I can still feel her in my arms as I harshly drained every single drop of blood.

My stomach hurts unbearably, I'm trying to ignore it but the pain just wont go away. I slowly pick myself up.

"Shit, shit, shit" I scream, I look up at the sky again and see the sun slowly coming up.

I look around, to try and find Shelta with no success I run towards the dirt and the rocks. Trying so desperately to find Shelta under the rocks, I look at the desert as it dawns on me, this is were the royal four was found. Out in the desert in a cave, I shake my head, what does this have to do with my survival.

Im outside the cave, were they have been born, I know there is no way for any human to be able to get into the cave with out an alien. I sigh heavily, knowing this is were it all ends, this is where I will dust into I million, billion peices.

I bet I'm going to hell, I think to myself, I slowly put my hand on the rock in front of me as I lean my weight onto my hand.

I hear a rumble noise as I see the sun slowly coming up. The rock opens slowly and without a second thought, I run inside, taking deep long breath as I turn around only to see the door close once again. I take a few steps backwards, still trying to breathe, I look around and I see four broken pods.

I shiver, its so cold in here, I think to myself, I yawn and then I place myself on the floor and lie down. I slowly close my eyes, scared of what my dreams may turn out to be. But eventually I go into a deep sleep.