He was the first thing she saw when she woke up. She'd felt his presence in the room before she even opened her eyes, but when she turned to face him, she didn't see those blue-green eyes of his. He was sitting with his head cupped in his hands staring intently in front of him, avoiding her eyes.

"What happened?" Max whispered

He looked up at her and she didn't know what she was seeing in his eyes, "You fainted" she couldn't tell his tone of voice either, it was so beyond anything she'd ever heard.

She laughed, trying to ease the tension, "You're kidding right? I don't faint. Someone slipped me something right?"

Logan shook his head and then smiled ruefully to himself

"Okay Logan seriously, you're being weird. What's wrong? Am I dying or something?" She'd meant it to be a joke, but there was no humor in her voice.

He shook his head "No, you're perfectly healthy."

"So then what's wrong?" She shook her head, frustrated by his lack of answers, "Logan I don't just faint. I didn't have a seizure coming on…"

He looked away, "Uh Max, I don't"

Max could see Logan's sigh of relief as the nurse opened the door, "Ah well nice to see you awake again, you gave your husband quite the scare. I've never seen a man pace more than this one."

Max smiled in her mind, thinking of him worrying over her, she couldn't help but love the fact that he still loved her, but she knew she had to fight it.

Logan gave an embarrassed smile, "No one knew anything."

"Well those pacing skills are certainly going to come in handy." The nurse said smiling as she checked the machine's Max was hooked up to.

"Huh?"

"Oh" the nurse looked at Logan

"She just woke up." Logan explained

"I'll just give you two some time alone then. Dr. Shankar should be in in a few."

"Thanks."

"So tell me what's wrong."

Logan had just opened his mouth to speak when the door opened again

"Hey boo, you're up" Cindy said walking into the room

Max glared at Logan who looked relieved "Do you know what's wrong with me?" she said snapping her head around to look again at Original Cindy.

Cindy looked accusingly at Logan "You mean he hasn't told you?"

"I was trying to." he looked contrite as he connected with Cindy's eyes as he had been unable to connect with Max's.

"Well try harder" Max demanded

"Uh, I'm just gonna go…" Original Cindy looked at the door and split without even bothering to make an excuse.

"What the hell is so horrible that you can't tell me?"

Logan sighed as he sat down, "It's not horrible Max" he took her hand and she flinched. He looked hurt as he pulled back his hands and raised them up to show a pair of black gloves that she had noticed, but had been unable to prevent her now automatic reaction, "I have a pair of sterile ones on underneath too, we're fine."

He looked at her face, "You know what that was a lie. We're probably in the most screwed up place we can be. I can't touch you and you're so petrified that you're going to kill me that you're dating Alec."

She couldn't talk about this, "None of this has to do with why I'm in this bed."

He dropped his head down and gave a sarcastic smile, like he knew something she didn't, which he did "You're pregnant Max. Approximate date of conception, 7 weeks, so it's mine and not Alec's." He kept from lashing out further, accusing her of being with them both, he knew deep down that she had still been only his, in fact, he still couldn't figure out when she had stopped being only his.

Max stared at Logan and heard his cold and clinical words and shook her head in disbelief. It wasn't possible.

"Not lying here Max. Kind of wish I was, but I'm not. You're with Alec and carrying my child, a child that I might not ever be able to hold." He couldn't keep the hurt from creeping out of his voice.

Max just watched Logan look away from her face and back to her stomach, he looked defeated just as he had when the temporary fix had worn off.

"Ah good evening Max, so nice of you to rejoin us here in the land of the living."

Max looked at Dr. Shankar as she walked into the room and towards her bed. She could barely think but she heard the word evening "What time is it?"

"A little after 5, you were out for 6 hours."

"6 hours? That's like my normal sleep for a week."

"Yes well the baby apparently wants more rest than you do." She looked at the monitors Max was hooked up to.

Max's eyes darted between Logan and the doctor's and Logan caught her drift "I'm gonna go wait outside"

"Kay" Max nodded

"You're a little surprised about the baby aren't you?" Dr. Shankar said taking Logan's seat once he left.

"I can't be pregnant."

"The tests beg to differ."

Max shook her head, why couldn't they grasp this, "No you don't understand. I got my period." she said bluntly, desperate for her to understand.

"A lot of women get that Max, it's just the embryo implanting."

She shook her head once more, "No" she said with resolution, "Logan and I are broken up, I almost killed him less than two weeks ago, 11 days ago! And how can I be pregnant, doesn't my body want to destroy anything with his DNA?"

"Max, I've got say I'm a little surprised by your reaction. I thought you loved Logan? I thought you would be excited by this news."

Max raised her knees up to her body and rested her chin on them, "I love him with all of my heart, but how am I supposed to avoid killing him if I can't avoid him?"

The doctor gave her a pitying smile that Max had seen too many times in the past few months "Wear a lot of layers?"

Max just shook her head still in disbelief, she'd be in heat and still remember to not do anything this stupid, but with Logan…How the hell could this be happening?

"You know this isn't easy for him either Max, he's suffering just as badly as you."

"He'll get over it…He can't get over dying."

The doctor paused before speaking, she looked at her, "Max do you not want this baby?"

Max's eyes turned away from the doctor "I need to think" she said as she stared straight ahead. "Can you tell Logan I need to be alone."