Another author's note: Haha, okay I'm sorry if I seemed a little desperate in my last chapter, thank you all for catering to my wishes and posting replies. I really am not the type of person who is desperate for replies, I just want to know at least one person is reading each chapter, of course you guys can't see that unless you hit reviews and that's just annoying. I really loved that chapter between Logan and Max, it's the whole reason why the story was longer than the first three chapters. I just had this image in my head of what Logan would look like finding out and dealing with that (yea I know it's been done, everything with DA has been done, it just kinda fit, it's not what I thought about when I wrote this piece, but I saw that image in my head and it wouldn't leave). Of course I didn't write about what he looked like finding out about it, I wanted him and Max to be the first ones in the story to know about the news. I just really liked the thought of them being devastated by this news because they were already in such a screwed up situation. Okay I think that says something about me. So I'm just going to shut up now. Umm thanks for the replies guys, sorry I forced them on you. Here's the next part.

She found him sitting on the Needle just looking out onto the city.

"You were wrong" He shook his head still staring straight out "My problems still seem a million times bigger than theirs and I've been here for three hours already. Not feeling at all normal."

She sat down next to him, but far enough away so they didn't touch, "I don't know what to say anymore Logan."

He turned to her, "I feel like I've done is do and say all of the wrong things since we met."

Max just remained silent.

"You know part of me is happy about Alec, I mean I really do want you to be happy. You know that right?" He turned back to her.

She nodded, part of her wanted to tell him the truth, but she wasn't sure.

"Max, I'll do anything you want, I'll stay away entirely if it's what you want." he blinked, trying not to show how hard it was to even say that, let alone think about doing it.

Tell him Max, the voice inside of her called out, but she remained silent.

"Wow you weren't kidding about not knowing what to say anymore." he turned back out towards the city "I know you'd never hurt our baby, of course I've got to tell you it took me about half an hour of sitting here to remember that. I know you'd never hurt anyone unless it was absolutely necessary, you were the best thing that ever happened to me Max, you still are. All this other stuff that happened, none of it was your fault, you need to remember that."

Max swallowed hard

"So you gotta tell me Max, what is it you want?"

She looked ahead remembering how she used to feel like a normal girl up here, why couldn't she feel like that now?

"Max you gotta say the words, what is it you want?" he asked facing the city again.

Max swallowed hard again, but that lump in her throat wouldn't move. She turned to look at him, she said what was in her heart, what any girl would want, "You"

He turned

"You're all I ever wanted. The last time we were here I told you that you were my family as much as anyone else that didn't change, you can't change your family."

"Then why?"

"Logan I almost killed you." her voice was weak

"It's not your fault. I grabbed you."

"It's what's inside of me and how many times I have I almost touched you?"

He shook his head, he didn't want to have this fight anymore, they'd had it too many times. "Max I know what it feels like to lose the person you love. I held you as you died, I had to be butted in the head with a gun to be taken away from you. I had to think everyday while you were gone of the millions of ways I could have saved you. I didn't even try to talk you out of that mission. I just let you go."

Max turned to him to say 'you couldn't have stopped me,' but she thought about it. She didn't know if she would have stayed if only he'd asked, "Me dying wasn't your fault. I made the choice, I knew how dangerous it was."

"And I know how dangerous this is." he took her hand. "What was it you said to me up here? We're never going to be any kind of anything if it keeps on like this. You went on that mission to give us a chance at a normal life. Give me the same chance Max."

She turned back to the city and nodded as tears fell down her face.