AN:Another Chapter. Please review.

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The Last Time I saw You

Chapter 2 Lonely Girl

Starrla stayed in her room for days after that. No one even tried to get her out. Darry brought her food every night sometimes she hardly ate it. She stayed up all night either crying or starring at the wall. She also wrote to vent her feelings. She didn't know how she could even fall for a guy like Dallas. She even started to doubt that he even liked her. That all that happened before he was shot was a lie. She sighed. She gave the most precious gift she had to give and she didn't even know is she was just being used as a last fuck.

'I can remember

The very first time I cried

How I wiped my eyes

And buried the pain inside

All of my memories

Good and bad that's passed

Didn't even take the time to realize'

Starrla layed on her bed pondering in her thoughts. Her music playing quietly next to her head. She knew she should be tired but the fact was she wasn't. She hadn't stepped out of her bedroom for 3 days. She didn't expect anything like this to happen. She was trying not to think. But her mind was somewhere else. In her little sheltered world where reality couldn't touch her and everyone she loved was safe.

'Staring at the cracks in the walls

'Cause I'm waiting for it all

To come to an end

Still I curl up right under the bed

'Cause it's takin' over my head

All over again'

Starrla got up and opened her window. Just 2 weeks ago everything seemed normal. Just one day can change your whole life. Why was it always hers that got crushed? Silent tears fell down her cheeks. The only thing keeping her going was her brothers. What was next them? first her parents, then Kyle, then Johnny and Dallas. she wasn't really attached to Kyle. He was her boyfriend but when he left she felt nothing. She knew she never really like him. She sighed and layed own on her bed once again.

'Do you even know who you are?

I guess I'm trying to find

A borrowed dream or a superstar?

I want to be a star

Is life good to you, or is it bad?

I can't tell anymore

Do you even know what you have?'

Starrla felt lost. She needed to figure this out on her own. No one could help her. Not even her brothers or the gang. She just sat him her room to try and figure it out. But it never worked. She got up and sat down at her desk and started drawing a picture. She watched as the dark colours appeared as her pen drew. Her emotions expressed in black ink.

'Lying awake

Watching the sunlight

How the birds will sing

As I count the rings around my eyes

Constantly pushing

The world I know aside

I don't even feel the pain

I don't even want to try'

Hours later she quit drawing and looked out the window once more. The sun had come up. Another day up in her room. The black curtains closed not letting much light through. She looked at the birds flying by and walked to her mirror. There were dark circles under her eyes. Her once smiling tanned face was now sad and pale. Her once twinkling brown eyes now bottom-less pits of emotionless sorrow.

'I'm looking for a way to become

The person that I dreamt up

When I was 16

Oh, nothing is ever enough

Ooh, baby it ain't enough

For what it may seem'

She looked in her closet and grabbed some clothes and put them on. She put some foundation under her eyes and some cover up to hide the huge bags under her eyes from lack of sleep. She wondered if she could form proper sentences. But she also didn't really care. So she didn't even try. She brushed her hair. She at least wanted to look normal. She got up and opened her door. Her first venture out her bedroom door in 3 days.

'Do you even know who you are?

I'm still trying to find

A borrowed dream or a superstar?

Everybody wants to be...

Is life good to you, or is it bad?

I can't tell anymore

Do you even know what you have?

No'

Starrla walked slowly down the hall and looked into her brothers rooms. She could tell Darry was awake. Soda and Pony were still asleep in their room. Starrla walked out into the kitchen. Darry was cooking breakfast.

"Hi,"She said quietly.

He looked at her "Hey,"He replied "Want breakfast?"

Starrla shook her head and sat down starring at the table.

"Ok."

The rest of the morning was pretty quiet. Until Darry and Soda went to work and Pony went to school. She stayed home and sat on the couch watching TV. She was beginning to feel sorry for herself.

'Sorry girl

Tell a tale for me

'Cause I'm wondering

How you really feel

I'm a lonely girl

I'll tell a tale for you

'Cause I'm just trying to make

All my dreams come true'

Starrla stood up and put on her worn running shoes and walked out the front door. he sun stung her eyes. She walked down the street to The Shepard's. Angela and her had always been friends. When she got their Angela answered the door.

Angela looked her up and down "Jesus Starr you look like hell."

Starrla nodded and walked into the house. They just sat around talking until Starrla started unexpectedly crying. Angela held her while she cried. She felt sorry for her friend. But she knew one day Starrla would rise above this and turn back into her normal self. Well at least he hoped that.

Do you even know who you are?

Oh yeah, yeah

A borrowed dream or a superstar?

Oh, I wanted to be a star

Is life good to you, or is it bad?

I can't tell, I can't tell anymore

Do you even know what you have?

I guess not, oh, I guess not

Do you even know who you are?

Oh, I'm trying to find

A rising dream, or a falling star?

Oh, I have all these dreams

Is life good to you, or is it bad?

I can't tell anymore

Do you even know what you have?

Oh, no, no

Do you even know who you are?

A rising dream, or falling star?

Is life good to you, or is it bad?

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AN:Chapter 2 is up. I haven;t got much input on this story so I tried another chapter. Please read and review. I believe in the 3 r's Read, Review and re-write. thanks.

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Song

Pink - Lonely Girl