Without my wings, I feel so small.
I guess I need you baby.
And every time I see you in my dreams,
I see your face, it's haunting me.
I guess I need you baby. --
Verse 2 of Everytime by Britney Spears
Verse 2
Sick Cycle - The Haunting
Sasuke
Sasuke continued to take on missions, whether they were A ranked or D, it was just whatever would get him out of the village. Whenever he returned from a mission, he'd take the next available one without even stopping to rest. It was his way of stopping the pain. By keeping active he could temporarily forget about his feelings and pretend he didn't have any. Before when he was still a member of team 7 he'd spend his time training by himself or with Naruto and Sakura… but now that option was closed. And so he risked his life, day in day out, hoping each mission would be his last. Hoping that in the end he'd make a mistake, that he'd fall and never get back up.
But no matter what… he couldn't seem to forget him. The blonde hair, and bright blue eyes, the happy smile, and idiotic attitude. Every night spent seeing his smile, and every day spent imagining the fire in his eyes. Every spare moment was spent dreaming of Naruto. Just seeing his face before him… it was the worst kind of torture. He knew he'd done the right thing. They had to be separate, nothing could come of anything between them, and he'd ruined what little they had already. But he still couldn't seem to forget him…
It was around a year later when the deadly cycle was abruptly halted, and Sasuke was brought sharply back to reality.
"No."
"What do you mean no?"
"I said: No."
"You can't do that."
"Yes I can. You've been constantly on missions for the past 10 months. 18 S-class, 27 A-class, 44 B-class, 36 C-class and 39 D-Class. 51 of those being extended missions. In 10 months. That's an extreme amount even for a special jounin. You need a break."
"I'm fine."
Iruka sighed, running a hand lightly through his hair. He'd had arguments a little like this with Sasuke for the past 3 months whenever he returned to Konoha. Though that was never for longer than a day. He looked up again, staring into Sasuke's eyes. They were deep, dark, and cold like ice. He'd begun to get worried after Sasuke had been on constant missions for 7 months. It was… suicide. Looking at the boy, you could tell he was strong. Lean and muscular. But he wasn't healthy. His cheekbones jutted out sharply, and you could make out every line of his collar bone. He was working himself to death, and he didn't care.
What happened to you…?
Iruka didn't even know he'd said it out loud, and until those cold dark eyes flashed. They flashed with something he couldn't identify… but it was hard, and sharp, and definitely warm.
Sasuke was now looking at him, a strange look on his usually blunt and emotionless face. But then it passed, and Sasuke was once again emotionless.
"Nothing happened to me. Now give me another mission."
Iruka sighed. Same old stubborn Uchiha.
"No. It's the holiday season, we don't have many missions, and you need a break anyway. Tsunade-sama has specifically said you're not to be given anymore missions. Why don't you have a break? Catch up with people… I'm sure Naruto and Sakura would be happy to see you again." He forced out a smile, trying to tempt Sasuke.
"What use have I for holidays?" The words were sharp, meant to cut him. But he knew he wasn't angry about the holidays and having to rest… but if not that, then he wasn't quite sure what.
Iruka raised his hands palm up, in a peace seeking gesture.
"Sorry Sasuke-kun. It's out of my hands." His eyes crinkled closed with his smile. The slight woosh was the only signal he had the other boy had left.
Sighing, Iruka sat back in his seat, leaning his elbows on the desk and covering his face with his hands.
What can I do? At least he's back now…
Sasuke left Iruka's office quickly, silently fuming. He knew he'd been arguing with Iruka for months about having a rest from missions, but he never thought he'd go so far as to tell the Hokage. It was a back stabbing move, one he' never expected from the innocent chunin. And now she'd 'banned' him from missions. Sasuke stopped, dropping from a roof to an alley bellow. Once on the ground, he let out all his anger, forming chakra in his hand and forcing his fist through the cement and deep into the ground.
How can I avoid you if I'm forced to remain here?
I know this chapter is short... A full 4pages shorter than the last, to be exact, but don't worry, the next one is looking to be nice and long (i've half written it and it's already a page longer than this one) So just be patient my pretties
Here's just a teaser from the next chapter... mwuahahaha
--Naruto grinned in reply and started drooling. Miso ramen… nothing had ever tasted so good…
He stomped on the little voice in the corner of his mind saying
'Well… the was one thing that tasted better.'--
Hope you enjoyed that! Please, please, pretty please read and review!!
Review Responses!
Shinsen Koinu: I know what you mean... I don't understand how people say them being together is impossible. I mean, Sasuke smiles around NARUTO damnit!!! (-growls at people trying to put sasuke with a chick-)
Lady Tetsu-Maru:You love the kyuubi eh? Kinky, aren't you? Sorry, but I don't really think this story is one for demonising. It's more of a fluffy, slightly angsty story. I mean, look at the song I'm writing it to! (-hangs head in shame-) I feel so girly...
Yuki no Teme: Well thankyou very much :) Personally, I think my writing is pretty crappy, but it is nice to get reviews from people like you praising it anyway!
Thyalla: Thy!!! My beloved!! (-glomps and licks-) I know what you mean... the story isn't really coming out how I want it to. Maybe one day I'll be able to come back and revise it so that it ends up perfect.
Baku: I'm sorry!!!!!! I'll try update more often!!!
Macy: That's alright! Yes, Naruto's POV is pretty much straight after the kiss. Originally I wasn't gonna put it in, then I had this cute image of Naruto all curled up on the couch IN my mind, and I had to add a little from him. I couldn't really find a spot to insert it earlier in the story, so it just had to go there... Probably should have put something saying when it was though :)
Dancing Kitsune: Well, I think I'd kinda be in shock too... I might not run tho
Lady-Friselle: I'm not really sure if there will be a lemon in this one...Though I am working on a lemon for Sexual Frustrastion atm, I'm not sure yet if one will fit in with this story.
Generally Maz: Well...thats... uhm... sweet? lol Noooo but look at the words!! Ignore the fact that Brit sings it! The songs words and meanings are gorgeous, come on!!!!
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