AN: ARG!!!! i'm pretty pissed rite now
cause my story was removed. Apparently the language was too strong, pleeeease
it was PG-13!!! Uh, watever so now i've bumped it up to R sry, which i prob
had to do eventually cause- well i dun't wanna give it away, but i'll get
in more trouble if i dun't WARN u guys- there is a rape scene in this ch.
It's not that graphic. Also, if it was someone who ratted on me about the
rating, dude just tell me to bump it up instead of being a prick, whoever
u r... Thanx SPprincess, i'm on ur favs, i feel so special!!! Self esteem
grew a little, lol:)
Erin sat in the dark. She was trying to breath. She was trying to process what had just happened to her. She wanted to leave. She wanted to get out of there. She wanted to be safe, at home in bed. She couldn't stop shaking. She couldn't let anyone see her, not like this. She felt dirty & sick. So she just sat there in the dark & kept going over the event in her mind. Over & over again. Over & over again & it wouldn't stop. She wondered, "Should I have seen this coming?"
(Flashback)
He was angry at her. He told her that she was his property & no one else's. He would make her remember this time. He had wanted her for so long, but she had always said no. Still she said no. He tricked her into going up there. He locked the door so no one could come in or so that she couldn't get out. He pushed her down on the bed. And held her down when she tried to get up. He began to kiss her hard. She said no. She was still saying no. Yet his hands kept moving over her body. They kept searching for something more. He pulled down her pants & she tried to scream. She couldn't remember if she did. She couldn't hear anything. He slapped her hard to make her lie still. He went to take off his pants & she found her voice came that time. He covered her mouth with his hand & she bit down as hard as she could. So instead he began to choke her. She began to beg. She began to cry. "Please let me go, just let me go, it's getting late, people will be looking for me, just let me go." He didn't hear her. He didn't care. He just kept choking her. She couldn't breathe. She thought she would die. She couldn't breathe. The world went black. He was getting what he wanted. It was far from love. It was an act of hurt. It was far from what she ever imagined it to be like. Now it was too late. It was all too late.
(Present)
Erin woke up in the tangled sheets of a bed. She could barely remember where she was. Then it hit her what had happened. She told herself it was all a dream. That fact that her pants were still down said different. She quickly pulled them up. "O, God...", she thought, "What if someone found me like this?! What would I say?!" Panic ran through her mind. But that was just it. No one had found her. She glanced over at the clock on the night stand to her left. It read 1:30am. "That is it! It had felt so much longer..." This deep, dark feeling swelled up inside her. She felt angry, scared & just plain miserable. "Why am I alive?! I hate my life! What do I do?! How could this happen?!" She picked up a pillow & screamed into it. The sound that came out wasn't even familiar. She started to cry uncontrollably. Suddenly she heard someone coming. She rolled off the bed & hid in a near by closet. Whomever it was, was coming out of the bathroom. She hid in the dark trembling. She couldn't muffle her cries no matter how hard she tried. "What if it's Dave coming back??? O, God..." The silhouette came closer. She just shut her eyes.
(Rewind)
Kenny woke up with a jerk. "Uh! Where am I? O, right. How long have I been like this?" He put on his hoodie & closed the window. "Damn, I've wasted the batteries to my walkman. Better shut it off." Then he heard it. It was faint, but surely his ears weren't playing tricks on him. Someone was crying. Kenny chuckled to himself, "Perhaps it's Bebe realizing what a mess the house has become. Eh, I have nothing better to do; I'll help clean up." He slowly opened the door. He looked around the room. No one was there, but he could swear... The crying was now coming from the closet. "OMG, maybe someone is hurt?" He slowly approached & opened the door. He didn't expect to find who he did.
Erin starred up with frightened eyes.
"Erin... What's wrong? Are you ok?"
Erin remained silent. She opened her mouth, but the words wouldn't form.
Instead came out a small squeak.
"Come on get up. Here, take my hand."
Erin starred at Kenny's extended hand & slowly reached out to him. He helped her up, but as soon as her legs touch the ground she lost all feeling. Her legs collapsed underneath her body weight like rubber & she fell. Luckily Kenny caught her.
"Lean on me."
Erin responded by wrapping her arm around his neck. Kenny didn't understand what had happened, but he knew he had to get her out of there. As he carried her through the house, he could tell the party was breaking up. Out on the front lawn, he could faintly hear police sirens in the distance. A neighbor must have complained about the growing noise. He sat her down on the street curb & got down beside her.
Kenny whispered, "Erin are you alright? What happened?"
He looked in her eyes. They were glazed & glassy. "Erin!", he gently shook her. Suddenly, it was as if Erin came back down to Earth. She starred back into his eyes.
"I have to get home.", She got up & started walking down the street. Kenny chased after her.
"Wait! How are you getting there?! It's a whole town away!"
A thought crossed Erin's mind, "Dave was suppost to drive me home..."
Erin picked up her pace. She couldn't control the tears streaming down her face. She kept screaming in her head, "Why can't he just go away!? Why can't he just leave me alone!? I don't want him to see me like this." Kenny caught up & grabbed her arm to turn her around.
Erin freaked out, "Don't touch me!!!"
Kenny was taken back a bit. He let go, "No, I can't just give up on her..." He shouted out to Erin, "Look I'll let's make a deal. I'll leave you alone if you just tell me how you're going home."
Erin actually had no clue. She just needed to get away, "I'm walking."
"You can't walk. Call someone you know for a ride."
"You don't understand, I can't."
"May I suggest the bus then?"
"Fine I'll take the bus."
"Alright then."
Erin approached the bus stop & looked at the times posted on the sign to see when the next one was coming. She turned around. Kenny was standing there, "Are you following me?!"
"No, I just happen to take the same bus.", Kenny replied innocently.
"Stop lying! This goes out of town!"
"Prove I'm lying."
"Errrrrrrr."
"So why are you shouting at me?"
"I am not! I mean- I dunno... Sorry.", Erin hadn't realized she was taking her fustration out on the wrong person. Especially when that person was being so kind.
They stood in silence. The bus came & they got on. It was empty except for the bus driver & a bum sleeping in the back. Kenny sat in the seat behind Erin & put on his headphones.
Erin sighed, "Will you just sit next to me?"
"Excuse me?", Kenny asked removing his headphones, even though he had heard perfectly well.
"You might as well sit here.", she motioned to the seat beside her.
"Alrightly then."
They sat in more silence.
"It's gonna be a long ride."
"Go figure. So um, are you gonna talk to me... about why you were...?"
"What do you care? You don't even know me."
"Does that matter? Cause I do care."
"I'm not ready to talk. What are you doing here anyway?"
"What does it look like."
"I dunno, you tell me."
"I'm making sure you get home ok. It is two in the morning."
"You didn't have to."
"But I want to."
"Thanks."
Erin yawned.
"Go to sleep."
"Huh, no I can't."
"Your tired. Go to sleep. I'll wake you up when we get to your stop."
Erin was too sleepy to argue anymore. She nodded off & slumped over on to Kenny. He didn't mind.
He woke her up & they walked a couple of blocks.
"K, this is it.", Erin motioned to a house.
The house was enormous. Sort of a mini mansion. There was a two car garage, huge lawn properly kept, a tall iron fence going around, pillars on each side of the double wooden front doors and above that a circular stain glass window.
"What is the point of the iron fence when they are kept open?", Kenny asked streching his neck, trying to take it all in.
"Eh, I dunno."
"Um, do you have money so I can take the bus back?"
"Sure, here take my metro card."
They stood there not knowing what to say next. Each had this strong feeling that they didn't want to leave the other.
"Well, I'll get in through a window so I don't wake my parents. Thanks again Kenny."
"No problem."
"Well, I- I better go."
"Yea."
Erin started down the drive way.
"Wait!", Kenny called out.
Erin stopped, "What is it?"
"Here have my phone number. Uh, this way you get to choose whether or not to call me. When you feel like talking. You don't have to. It's probably done of my business-"
"Kenny."
"Yea?"
"I'll call. Goodnight."
"Technically, Good morning."
Erin smiled. She didn't think she'd ever smile again. Tonight's events already seemed to be a lifetime ago.
"Good morning then."
Erin sat in the dark. She was trying to breath. She was trying to process what had just happened to her. She wanted to leave. She wanted to get out of there. She wanted to be safe, at home in bed. She couldn't stop shaking. She couldn't let anyone see her, not like this. She felt dirty & sick. So she just sat there in the dark & kept going over the event in her mind. Over & over again. Over & over again & it wouldn't stop. She wondered, "Should I have seen this coming?"
(Flashback)
He was angry at her. He told her that she was his property & no one else's. He would make her remember this time. He had wanted her for so long, but she had always said no. Still she said no. He tricked her into going up there. He locked the door so no one could come in or so that she couldn't get out. He pushed her down on the bed. And held her down when she tried to get up. He began to kiss her hard. She said no. She was still saying no. Yet his hands kept moving over her body. They kept searching for something more. He pulled down her pants & she tried to scream. She couldn't remember if she did. She couldn't hear anything. He slapped her hard to make her lie still. He went to take off his pants & she found her voice came that time. He covered her mouth with his hand & she bit down as hard as she could. So instead he began to choke her. She began to beg. She began to cry. "Please let me go, just let me go, it's getting late, people will be looking for me, just let me go." He didn't hear her. He didn't care. He just kept choking her. She couldn't breathe. She thought she would die. She couldn't breathe. The world went black. He was getting what he wanted. It was far from love. It was an act of hurt. It was far from what she ever imagined it to be like. Now it was too late. It was all too late.
(Present)
Erin woke up in the tangled sheets of a bed. She could barely remember where she was. Then it hit her what had happened. She told herself it was all a dream. That fact that her pants were still down said different. She quickly pulled them up. "O, God...", she thought, "What if someone found me like this?! What would I say?!" Panic ran through her mind. But that was just it. No one had found her. She glanced over at the clock on the night stand to her left. It read 1:30am. "That is it! It had felt so much longer..." This deep, dark feeling swelled up inside her. She felt angry, scared & just plain miserable. "Why am I alive?! I hate my life! What do I do?! How could this happen?!" She picked up a pillow & screamed into it. The sound that came out wasn't even familiar. She started to cry uncontrollably. Suddenly she heard someone coming. She rolled off the bed & hid in a near by closet. Whomever it was, was coming out of the bathroom. She hid in the dark trembling. She couldn't muffle her cries no matter how hard she tried. "What if it's Dave coming back??? O, God..." The silhouette came closer. She just shut her eyes.
(Rewind)
Kenny woke up with a jerk. "Uh! Where am I? O, right. How long have I been like this?" He put on his hoodie & closed the window. "Damn, I've wasted the batteries to my walkman. Better shut it off." Then he heard it. It was faint, but surely his ears weren't playing tricks on him. Someone was crying. Kenny chuckled to himself, "Perhaps it's Bebe realizing what a mess the house has become. Eh, I have nothing better to do; I'll help clean up." He slowly opened the door. He looked around the room. No one was there, but he could swear... The crying was now coming from the closet. "OMG, maybe someone is hurt?" He slowly approached & opened the door. He didn't expect to find who he did.
Erin starred up with frightened eyes.
"Erin... What's wrong? Are you ok?"
Erin remained silent. She opened her mouth, but the words wouldn't form.
Instead came out a small squeak.
"Come on get up. Here, take my hand."
Erin starred at Kenny's extended hand & slowly reached out to him. He helped her up, but as soon as her legs touch the ground she lost all feeling. Her legs collapsed underneath her body weight like rubber & she fell. Luckily Kenny caught her.
"Lean on me."
Erin responded by wrapping her arm around his neck. Kenny didn't understand what had happened, but he knew he had to get her out of there. As he carried her through the house, he could tell the party was breaking up. Out on the front lawn, he could faintly hear police sirens in the distance. A neighbor must have complained about the growing noise. He sat her down on the street curb & got down beside her.
Kenny whispered, "Erin are you alright? What happened?"
He looked in her eyes. They were glazed & glassy. "Erin!", he gently shook her. Suddenly, it was as if Erin came back down to Earth. She starred back into his eyes.
"I have to get home.", She got up & started walking down the street. Kenny chased after her.
"Wait! How are you getting there?! It's a whole town away!"
A thought crossed Erin's mind, "Dave was suppost to drive me home..."
Erin picked up her pace. She couldn't control the tears streaming down her face. She kept screaming in her head, "Why can't he just go away!? Why can't he just leave me alone!? I don't want him to see me like this." Kenny caught up & grabbed her arm to turn her around.
Erin freaked out, "Don't touch me!!!"
Kenny was taken back a bit. He let go, "No, I can't just give up on her..." He shouted out to Erin, "Look I'll let's make a deal. I'll leave you alone if you just tell me how you're going home."
Erin actually had no clue. She just needed to get away, "I'm walking."
"You can't walk. Call someone you know for a ride."
"You don't understand, I can't."
"May I suggest the bus then?"
"Fine I'll take the bus."
"Alright then."
Erin approached the bus stop & looked at the times posted on the sign to see when the next one was coming. She turned around. Kenny was standing there, "Are you following me?!"
"No, I just happen to take the same bus.", Kenny replied innocently.
"Stop lying! This goes out of town!"
"Prove I'm lying."
"Errrrrrrr."
"So why are you shouting at me?"
"I am not! I mean- I dunno... Sorry.", Erin hadn't realized she was taking her fustration out on the wrong person. Especially when that person was being so kind.
They stood in silence. The bus came & they got on. It was empty except for the bus driver & a bum sleeping in the back. Kenny sat in the seat behind Erin & put on his headphones.
Erin sighed, "Will you just sit next to me?"
"Excuse me?", Kenny asked removing his headphones, even though he had heard perfectly well.
"You might as well sit here.", she motioned to the seat beside her.
"Alrightly then."
They sat in more silence.
"It's gonna be a long ride."
"Go figure. So um, are you gonna talk to me... about why you were...?"
"What do you care? You don't even know me."
"Does that matter? Cause I do care."
"I'm not ready to talk. What are you doing here anyway?"
"What does it look like."
"I dunno, you tell me."
"I'm making sure you get home ok. It is two in the morning."
"You didn't have to."
"But I want to."
"Thanks."
Erin yawned.
"Go to sleep."
"Huh, no I can't."
"Your tired. Go to sleep. I'll wake you up when we get to your stop."
Erin was too sleepy to argue anymore. She nodded off & slumped over on to Kenny. He didn't mind.
He woke her up & they walked a couple of blocks.
"K, this is it.", Erin motioned to a house.
The house was enormous. Sort of a mini mansion. There was a two car garage, huge lawn properly kept, a tall iron fence going around, pillars on each side of the double wooden front doors and above that a circular stain glass window.
"What is the point of the iron fence when they are kept open?", Kenny asked streching his neck, trying to take it all in.
"Eh, I dunno."
"Um, do you have money so I can take the bus back?"
"Sure, here take my metro card."
They stood there not knowing what to say next. Each had this strong feeling that they didn't want to leave the other.
"Well, I'll get in through a window so I don't wake my parents. Thanks again Kenny."
"No problem."
"Well, I- I better go."
"Yea."
Erin started down the drive way.
"Wait!", Kenny called out.
Erin stopped, "What is it?"
"Here have my phone number. Uh, this way you get to choose whether or not to call me. When you feel like talking. You don't have to. It's probably done of my business-"
"Kenny."
"Yea?"
"I'll call. Goodnight."
"Technically, Good morning."
Erin smiled. She didn't think she'd ever smile again. Tonight's events already seemed to be a lifetime ago.
"Good morning then."