Soul Searching

Author: Pumpkin Belly

Glimmer of Hope

That's how they found Spike. Sitting silently in the corner of the dark hospital room. The only sound was the quiet sobs that he was making every once in awhile. Buffy and Xander walked into the room slowly as not to startle Spike.

"Oh god." Xander gasped. Spike looked broken. His hands were wrapped around his knees, which he held close to his chest. Tear streaks ran down his face, more making there way from his red eyes.

"Spike?" Buffy called moving closer to the vampire. When he didn't respond she tried again, "Spike?" This time she lightly touched his arm.

"Buffy, I don't think" Xander started to say but Spike interrupted.

"It's my fault." Spike announced to the room.

"You can't really believe that." Buffy said.

"Why not? I did that to her. I got her pregnant. I probably put to much stress on her too by leaving or coming back which caused the baby to come early." Spike said, glancing at Buffy.

"The baby came when it was ready, you didn't do anything to cause it to come early." Xander called from behind Buffy who was crouched down next to Spike.

"I shouldn't have come back." Spike said.

"Don't ever say that." Buffy said squeezing his arm lightly, "Willow was the happiest I've seen her since you left. She loves you more than anything."

"Really?" Spike asked hope glimmered in his eyes.

"Really." Buffy said giving him a small smile.

"But that doesn't matter now does it? She may not even be alive now." Spike said the hope disappeared from his eyes.

"She's out of surgery Spike." Buffy said.

"What?" Spike asked shock in his voice.

"That's what we came to tell you." Xander said, "She's alive, unconscious at the moment, but alive."

"The doctors said she lost a lot of blood but they were able to stabilize her and stop the bleeding and she should be ok." Buffy said, smiling.

"She's alive?" Spike asked.

"She's alive, the doctors are pretty sure that she'll be ok. No brain damage. No coma." Buffy smiled.

"Can I see her?" Spike asked standing up.

"Yeah, yeah." Buffy said getting up with Spike to take him to Willow.

Willow's Hospital Room

Buffy left Spike at the door. He pushed open the door to Willow's room trying to be quiet.

"Hey pet." Spike said walking over to Willow's side, "gave us quite a scare there." He said picking up her hand, entwining his fingers with hers. Spike gently lifted her hand to his mouth placing a light kiss on her knuckles.

"Spike?" Willow breathed.

"I'm here baby." Spike said squeezing her fingers a little tighter, "I'm here."

Willow opened her eyes, smiling when they landed on Spike. "Hi." She said.

"Hi," Spike laughed, "I thought I was going to lose you. Oh god, I can't raise a baby all by myself."

"You won't have to." Willow said.

"Don't ever do that to me again." He smiled.

"Promise." Willow laughed. Spike bent down and captured her lips with his.

"I love you." He breathed leaning his forehead against hers.

"I love you." Willow said.

"I had this vision." Spike said, "Well I guess it could be a dream really."

"Oh yeah? Of what?" Willow asked.

"You and me and Aiden. Together. It was Thanksgiving and you were making dinner. It was in our house. We had a house." Spike explained, "And I went to get the turkey out of the oven and burnt my hands. Then you bandaged them even though I told you not to. Then we caused Xander to run out of the room."

"That sounds nice." Willow smiled, closing her eyes picturing the scene Spike had just described.

"I think so too." Spike whispered, "You're so beautiful."

"Oh yeah. I've just had a baby and been through surgery, I'm sure I look like a princess." Willow said sarcastically.

"You do though, look like a princess." Spike reassured her.

"Thank you." Willow said.

"Will you marry me?" Spike asked.

"What?" Willow gasped.

Spike bent down on one knee, taking Willow's hand in his, "Will you marry me?" He repeated, "I don't have a ring to give you right now but I love you Willow. You've had my baby and I want to make that dream come true. Will you do me the honor of being my wife?"

"Spike, I don't know what to say." Willow gasped.

"You could say yes." Spike suggested.

"No." Willow whispered.

TBC!!!!

A/n: See I got the next part out just like I said I would. Please review and let me know what you think!

Oh I couldn't do that to you guys.

"No?" Spike asked.

"What?" Willow gasped, "Oh god I mean yes. Of course I'll marry you."

"Thank god." Spike said, "As soon as you get out of here I'll get you a ring."

"I don't need a ring, Spike. I just need you." Willow said, pulling Spike into a kiss.

From outside the door Buffy released a breath she didn't relieve she'd been holding. "YES!" She yelled.

Willow broke away from Spike, "Buffy?" She called.

"Sorry," Buffy said opening the door, "I couldn't help over hearing and… Oh I'm so happy for you," Buffy squealed running over to Willow.

Now give me lots of reviews for being nice and not ending in a cliffhanger.