Chapter 18. The fire within
"LET GO OF ME!!", John yelled, struggling against the iron grip of Colossus. He was in pure hysterics, but the giant Russian did not obey.
He was back at the institute, outside of the med. bay. After the connection of the com. Link was broken, the x-men moved into action, every one was in position. They were about to enter the building, when all of the sudden John was hit with a huge bolt of fear he couldn't move, he sent a hurried message for Amara to get out of there, but he could not move. The fear he was experiencing was so intense. Than a scream unlike any other John had ever heard racked through his brain 'JOHN!!!'. John cried out in pain as the message practically split his skull, then all of a sudden it all stopped. Unable to stand, John had fallen unconscious, with his head still ringing with Amara's cry for help.
The next thing John remembered was waking up in the x-jet, in a stretcher. He demanded to see Amara straight away, but every one shared worried looks, and Logan told him to sit down. He continued to demand, all the way back to the institute, but everyone stayed quiet. John started to become hysterical, until Logan spoke up again "She is in a real bad condition kid, she's in the back room with Rogue, it's best if you don't see her". With that said John stood up and headed for the back room of the jet, but before he could get there he felt arms encircle his waist and lift him off the floor of the jet. "John, it really is best that you listen to Wolverine", came the Russian accent. Piotr held his grip on John the rest of the way back to the institute.
"LET ME SEE HER!!!", John yelled louder, still keeping up a struggle. Colossus had to admit he was doing very well, but the odds of him breaking out of his iron grip were not very good. "YOU CAN'T DO THIS, LET ME SEE HER!!!", John's voice was becoming horse, but he was beyond caring. He could not feel his link to Amara, his mind and body felt like a part had been torn from them, his link was gone. John let out a furious cry, struggling harder to get free.
The doors to the med lab opened. "John, please settle down", Xavier requested calmly.
"let me see her", John ordered. He was no longer yelling but he was still struggling.
"John, I have to prepare you for what you are going to see first"
John stopped struggling at those words, his eyes widened with horror "She's not…"
"I am not sure"
"WHAT THE BLOODY HELL IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN!!"
"It means that I do not know if she is dead". John was about to say something but Xavier cut him off. "She was submerged while in her Magma form, John. Her body has reacted….she has solidified"
John stopped struggling altogether, he stared at the professor, his face unreadable. His eyes misted over.
"I can not reach her with my powers, she could be alive, but I do not know. Hank is attempting to feed an IV into her wrist but, John it does not look good"
"Let me see her", John demanded again, eyes unfocused, voice distant.
Piotr released John, setting him back down on the floor . Xavier nodded, Wheeling his chair out of the way, to let John pass. John entered, heading straight towards the bed that had the curtains drawn. He took a deep breath before stepping through the curtains.
And what he saw broke his heart. There was Amara. Her body was pitch black, her eyes were squeezed shout, a look of pure pain was written across her face, her hands were held up over her head as if in defense, but the worst thing of all, was that clutched in her hand, virtually unscathed was John's papers. At that moment John could feel part of himself dieing. He tore his eyes from the sight that lay before him. His eyes misted over. "No", he breathed. Tears started to fall from his eyes. Slowly he turned his head , looking upon her midnight body once again. "No" he croaked, walking closer to stand at her side. "Amara", he whispered. With that uttered name something in John broke, tears flowed from his eyes in heavy torrents, loosing feeling in his legs he collapsed at the side of her bed. His knees hit the floor hard but he did not feel it, reaching out for her charred body, he wailed freely. Grasping her burnt hand, he laid his head on her hardened chest sobbing.
John cried for hours at her side, emotionally shattered. Until he decided what he should do, standing, he took one last look at his love's hardened from, before leaving the med lab. Heading for his room to pack, he knew what he was going to do, he needed to get away, he was leaving the mansion. Perhaps if he stayed at her side longer, he would have noticed his tears soaking into Amara's body.
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AN: sniff, what have I done. Stayed tuned for the next exciting episode of The fire within.
I know this was short, but I am going to do lots of stuff in the next chapter. Oh, and John is leaving because it is his way of dealing with the grief. And I bet you are all wondering why his tears were absorbed? Well you are just going to have to keep reading.
Thanks to:
v son sayian
Boom-Boom13 (I wish I lived there)
joel's-girl8 (yay, another Aussie, but you live in a much more interesting part compared to me. I an the only x freak in my town, Roma, it's really small, and you wouldn't of heard of it, don't ever come hear it's boring)
Valthraema
CajunBelle ( Magneto is the one bad I guy I can really connect with, he has a plausible cause unlike most badies, and I would have to say I would side with him too. Did I review your last chapter?, can't remember. But I loved the chapter, it was full of very very good writing. I can't wait for rogue to tell remy about the baby)
Prowler-125 (Ahhhh, don't kill me. Just think, will you get to read the rest of the story if you kill me?)