Shattered Pieces

Ellie leaned against the orange car as she waited for Sean to come, she knew he had to actually talk to his parents for real this time and was willing to wait till next week if she had too. All that mattered right now is that Sean gets to tell his parents everything he ever wanted to tell them before, but never had the chance too. She would do just about anything she could for him and he knows that.

Ellie looked over her shoulder as she watched Emma and Jay talking. Jay was making some crack about Sean's house and oddly enough, Emma as serious as she always seems, was actually laughing at Jay's joke. Ellie rolled her eyes as she turned back to the house, just in time to see Sean walking down the driveway in her directon.

She pushed herself away from the car as he walked over to her. He stopped in front of her. He took a deep breath before he spoke, finally.

"I told them everything." He said to her, something in his eyes looked so sad and distant.

"Lets get you out of here." Ellie said as she reached for his hand.

Sean backed away slightly, and Ellie could sense that something wrong was about to happen.

"E-Ellie..look..I don't know..how.." He said as he took another deep breath.

Ellie stared at him, she could sense what he was about to say. She could feel it coming..

"You're...you're...st-staying...aren't you?" She asked him, even though she already knew the answer.

He didn't say anything, he just stood there and sared at her. He did not deny nor conform it..

"Sean..please..I..I love you." Ellie said, her voice cracking slightly.

"I love you too." He replied softly. "But.."

Ellie could feel her heart shattering into a million pieces. How could he tell her he loves her and then tell her he won't be with her?

"Ellie.." He said.

"Well..when are you coming back?" She asked, her voice full of hope.

Sean did not say anything this time. Instead he just looked down at the ground, until the sound og Jay's voice interrupted her thoughts.

"Yo. Cameron get in the car." Jay said.

"Staying." Sean said as he finally looked up, but he did not look at Ellie. Instead he looked over her shoulder at Jay.

"I'm staying." He said as he glanced quickly at Ellie before he walked around her and to Jay. "Look for the first time in my life I need to be here. With my parents. To deal." He said.

Ellie's eyes filled with tears as she watched him talk to Jay. As she heard him say he was staying "to deal" she could no longer handle looking at him, knowing he will never look at her again. She rushed off to the car.

Sean and Jay exchanged their goodbyes before Jay and Emma got in the car. Sean looked over to Ellie, who stood at the door. She did not say anything as a tear rolled down her cheek. She shook her head at him before she jumped in the car.

Ellie looked out of the back window as they pulled out of the driveway, driving down the street. She stared at Sean, each second passing bringing her another second away from him. Away from the guy who just seconds ago told her he loves her right after he tore her heart out.

As Sean's broad frame vanished into the horizon, Ellie turned back to the front of the car. She stared blankly out the window, lost in her own thoughts.

"Some way to end a day off from school, huh?" Jay asked with a slight chuckle.

Ellie glanced beside her at him, she shook her head as she did not say a word.

"Shut up." Emma mumbled under her breath from the back seat.

Ellie silently thanked Emma for saying that, she would have herself but she just did not have it in her anymore.

The rest of the two hour drive went by like a blur. Ellie spent the entire time lost in thought as she thought over everything her and Sean have been through in their time together. The time on the roof when he touched her scars, the way he always looked at her, him asking her to move in...all the way until him telling her he's leaving her. He didn't even bother to say he would pick up his things..

Ellie's eyes fluttered open as she felt a sob rising in her chest. He had come back. For the first time in months Sean was back in her life and all she could think about was the past, was what he did. He left her. He packed up..no he didn't even pack up, he just went for a drive with her and that was that. He stayed in Wasaga and he broke her heart, the one thing he said he'd never do.

She rolled over in bed, her eyes widened when she saw Sean was sitting there in the chair beside the bed. His arms folded across his chest, his head resting on his shoulder, his eyes closed tightly. She laid there and stared at him, all of her feelings quickly came rushing back to her. Everything she always thought about him, everything she ever loved. The way he talked, the way he laughed, his smile, those hats, his hair, his eyes, the way he looked at her, the way it felt when he touched her, his kiss..Ellie brushed a tear off of her cheek with her hand as she held back a sob. Why did he have to do it? Why did he have to leave her?

Sean shifted in his seat, as he opened his eyes. He looked at Ellie, and as he saw her staring at him he pratically jumped from the seat. Clearly he was startled by her suddenly being awake. He grabbed the chair as he pulled the chair up to her bed.

"Hey.." he whispered softly to her, forcing a smile.

"What are you doing here, Sean?" she asked. Her voice was raspy, chalky. It hurt to talk, but she had to know.

"I came to see you." He said to her.

"I didn't ask you too." Ellie said, it hurt her to talk to him this way, but he hurt her worse.

"I know but..Ellie you wouldn't even take my calls, I..I had to see how you were doing.." He said.

"How did you even know I was here?" She asked him.

"Marco..he called me." Sean said.

"Look...Ellie I know what I did to you was wrong, ok? But I had to get away. This town was killing me. Everyone looking and talking, reporters..and when I saw my parents on that tape.." Sean sighed as he looked at her. "I couldn't be here anymore." He finished quietly.

"You could have called, visited...something. The only time you called me you never spoke." Ellie said.

"I'm sorry." Sean said.

"I'm tired. Can you please just...go? Go back to Wasaga..that is where you want to be anyways." Ellie said.

"No. I want to be here. With you. I'm not going anywhere, Ellie." He said to her.

A tear rolled down her cheek as she looked at him, shaking her head.

"No. You're going, Sean please. Just go..go.." Ellie whimpered.

She thought about her father, the man who promised he would always be around is now dead, and now that Sean won't go away..he could have died too that day. Leaving Ellie with no one..but leaving and going to Wasaga..that was almost just as bad.

"I'm staying at Craig's." Sean said as he stood up. "I'm not leaving..now anyways." He finished.

Sean looked down at Ellie's fragile form.

"I'll see you in the morning." He said before turning and walking out.

Ellie watched as he walked out the door, leaving her alone in the pitch black room. Rolling over onto her side she closed her eyes as she tried to get back to sleep.

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Sean walked out into the hallway, looking in through the window he watched as Ellie rolled over onto her other side. He lightly touched the glass, wishing he could touch her again, or make her smile like she used too.

"Sean man. Hey." Craig's voice came from behind him.

Sean looked over his shoulder as he felt Craig' slap him on the back as he stopped beside him. Sean turned back to the room, staring in at the window again. Craig followed his eyes.

"So. How's she doing?" He asked him.

"I don't know. She won't talk to me." Sean replied dryly.

"Well what do you expect, man?" Craig asked him.

"Yeah. I know. I messed up." Sean said.

"Look if I learned anything from what I did to Ash, its that you can't make her feel like you abanonded her. You can't make her feel like you slipped away. You need to show her how you feel or how much she means to you." Craig said.

Sean looked at him, as he listened to his friends advice. Show her how you feel...his words repeated in his head. Sean looked back in the window, staring at Ellie as she slept. He watched how smooth her breathing was, he looked at the heart monitor beside her bed. The light from the full moon shining in from the large window on the other side of the room making her hair look as red as fire.

Show her how you feel...It was as if a lightbulb went off in his head. A small smile slowly spread across his face.

"Sean..hey man..what's with the creepy smile?" Craig asked.

"Comeon. There's something we got to do." Sean said as he slapped Craig on the back, and headed for the door.