Anzu's Point of View (P.o.V)
I went home immedeately and plopped myself down on the couch. I was tired, and very cold. But right now
something very serious was on my mind. Mai Kujaku. Oh god...just the thought of her lusty blond hair and
her beautiful face made me feels jitters down my spine. Was I...? No. No no no! I couldn't be! I just could
NOT be in love with another girl! My mom always told me it was a unnatural and stupid thing. But for some
reason I never really believed her. It's not that I was homophobe. It's just that all my other friends were
gay. And if I turned well...lezbo then do you know what people would THINK of me?! They would think my
friends influenced me into it! They certainly did not! And they were very good people indeed. But that was
not the point. The point was that I could not stop thinking about Mai. Mai this. Mai that. I needed some
way to get my mind off her! I turned on the TV. No good. Tokyo Shock Boys were on. And I dispise them.
I flip some more channels. Ricky Lake showed some lezbo couple and that just irritated me. Poking fun at
them like that. The Simpsons was too stupid. Futurama was not suitable for my mood. Lain was too weird
for my mood. And Teen Nick was so god damn preppie it made my blood boil. I mean I was kinda girly I'll
give you that. But preppie will just get on my nerves. I just turned off the TV. Thinking about Mai wouldn't
hurt too bad would it? So that's what I did. I started to think about Mai. Her beautiful clear face...her
deep violet eyes...her sleek blond hair. Before I knew it I stuck myself in a daydream. This is how it went:
I was in a field...a field of flowers. I was smelling a lotus flower when Mai slowly walked up to me, her
violet eyes narrowed in a lustful sort of way. I turned around and I looked deep into her eyes and she
looked into my crystal blue eyes as well...and she handed me a rose from a hand she was hiding behind her
back. This rose was really odd though. It had yellow coloring like her hair. Mai slowly smiled at me and
she leaned in...closer, closer, and I felt her warm sensual lips touch mine as I slowly closed my eyes as a
sweet sweet emotion flooded me. Her lips felt like a warm, creamy coat over mine. I wished to myself
the moment to never end....
I quickly ended the daydream realizing I had spaced out. And the it hit me hard. Like the time that bratty
girl in third grade punched me hard in the chest. I was in love with Mai Kujaku. My heart skipped a beat
like they always said it would when I fell in love. But Mai had tons of guys going around drooling over her.
Why would she want me? I was nothing special. I didn't really think of myself attractive. If Mai was going
to be Bi or Lez, she could do it with a prettier girl. My heart sank when I realized this and
I trudged off to bed. I curled up like a homeless puppy. I knew my mind was right even though my heart
would not listen. Mai had tons of guys. She had no use for me. I would only be a good buddy to her. That
was all I'd ever be. My heart sank even more at these thoughts as I cried myself into a cold, dreamless
sleep.