Power Switch

Sheri's Diary

By: TMNTlover4ever

Disclaimer: Nope. Not yet. But I will one day! (Maybe)

A/N: This does have to do with the Power Switch stories, but this is Sheri's diary about this. It's kind of like a sub-story. It shows a little bit of Sheri's dark and other personality too.

Introduction: Leo's POV:

Early this morning I heard Sheri get up. She must've been writing in her diary we gave her. Ever since the 'Mikey got her powers' thing, she's been in there. I don't know what she's doing. I just hope she's ok. I know how it is being parted from something you've had for a long time and the thing or things that have saved yours and others' lives before. (Leo stares at his own katanas that are laying on the floor in his room.) I just hope she is okay......

TMNT theme song

Sheri's diary: January 21, 2005

Why Me?

Why me? I ask myself this question just about everyday when something bad happens. But I never suspected I'd be writing it this much.

Why me? Also this brings the question, why Michelangelo? Why him? He's a nice guy, a great athlete, but he's soooo immature. I do not want to know what he plans to do with my powers, but his brothers and I have agreed to watch him carefully. He hasn't figured out how to make himself invisible yet. Thank God. Someone is knocking at my door. I know who it is. I don't even have to ask. It's Leo. He's really nice and sweet and tries to help me out, but I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself.

Why me? The question is just screaming in my mind. What, I have realized though, is that I'm afraid to express my emotions sometimes. Like now. I want to yell and scream and cry. But I don't. Or is it, I won't? I don't like looking into Master Splinter's eyes. I know he can sense my emotions and what I might be thinking. It, in a way, scares me. So I don't look into his eyes very often.

I have also realized my personality is dark. I've always preferred to be in the shadows than in light. That is a quality that makes me a good ninja. Ever since...Shredder....killed my parents, I realized that even though I was good, I was also dark. I also was misunderstood by people. If I saved someone, I got screamed at and ran away from, never getting a 'Thank you' in my life. So I retreated to the shadows, my savior, my helper, my life. Dark. That is the way I am. Yes, I do have a dark personality, but I'm not gothic or anything. But I am dark. I still hang out with the guys, but most of the time, I'm locked in my room, writing in you, training, meditating, reading, or whatever I feel like doing. But I usually keep to myself.

For some reason, I feel like the guys are slowly changing me. Turning me light again, like I was when I was a little girl. A little...normal...girl who didn't have a care in the world. Didn't worry about my friend taking powers that I didn't even have. Sometimes.....I feel like I would give anything to be normal again. And to have my parents back. I miss them so much......

Why me? Ever since my parents gave me this locket, I knew there was something special about it. I also told them I'd keep it close to me at all times. And when I got my powers, I told myself I wouldn't let them get away from me. But looked what happened.

Why me? Leo is at my door still. I haven't answered him. I don't think I will, maybe silence is the best way to answer. I don't know anymore. I am afraid to express my emotions. Why? Why can't I talk to someone? Why do I refuse to show my emotions? I probably will never know. I can hear Leo, Don, and Raph outside my room talking. Not about me, but Mikey. He's disappeared......Uh-Oh.....I think he figured out how to vanish. Shit!

Sheri