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~Lily and Karina~
"Se you Kari! Good luck." Lily waved to her friend, heading to Hogsmeade with Professor Dumbledore.
Karina walked swiftly, trying to keep up with Dumbledore. After a while, he slowed down.
"Ms. Karr, will you be fine with talking to these people?" Dumbledore looked her, his blue eyes filled with concern.
"I believe so sir. Why do you ask?" Karina was taken aback.
"Rarely have I ever met a student, or let alone a person who wasn't upset at past events in their lives."
"I'm too used to it to be upset." Karina answered, her voice wavering a little.
"Sometimes its not in the best interest to be immune."
Karina looked directly ahead, not wanting Dumbledore to see the tears welling up.
Karina hesitated for a minute. "He won't be there will he?" she whispered.
"No. I don't believe they are allowed."
They walking on in silence for a little longer.
"Thank you Professor." Karina gave him a tiny smile.
"It's my pleasure."
(AN: I am horrible with thinking up things for Dumbledore to say!)
They headed down High Street and Karina tried to look at everything at once, but all too soon they reached the Three Broomsticks.
"Good luck, and remember, if you need an ice breaker, I'm sure your singing will do just that." Dumbledore winked, gave her a reassuring smile, and then walked back towards Hogwarts.
Karina laughed a little, remembering the incident, took in a deep breath and walked in.
There, in the back, was a table surrounded by official looking wizards and a witch, accompanying a nervous looking Muggle official.
"Hello there Ms. Karr. Please sit, would you like anything to drink?" one of the wizards said, smiling and standing up to welcome her.
Karina managed a small smile and sat down. "Can we just get this over with. I don't like to think about it."
"Whatever you wish." the witch smiled, trying to comfort the poor young witch.
"Since we are getting straight to business, I guess I'll start asking the questions. Tell me exactly what happened that day."
Karina took in another deep breath and told the whole story.
It continued that way for another hour, the muggle asking her questions, and Karina answering. Karina could feel the tears coming on when she talked about all the things she put up with from her father through the years.
"Well I believe that's all. Thank you for your time." the muggle got up. "I believe your father will be locked away for a long time. Don't worry about it any longer."
"I'll escort you back to Hogwarts." one of the wizards said, standing up.
Karina and the wizard left walking up towards the school. The sun was just setting and everything was in a golden glow.
They were just coming on to Hogwarts grounds, when Lily could be seen running to grab her friend in a hug.
"YOU'RE BACK!"
Karina just nodded solemnly.
"I'll leave you here." the wizard said walking away.
"Kari, what's wrong? Did they make you remember?" Lily asked softly.
Karina just nodded fighting back the tears.
"Come on. You can get it out in the dorm." Lily put an arm around her friend and led her up to Hogwarts and towards the common room.
"Password?"
"Wayfarers."
Lily rushed Karina across the common room, seeing the Mauraders, but they spotted her to quickly.
"Evans! How are you?"
"Out of my way Potter!" Lily snarled, grabbing her wand.
"What's wrong with Karr?"
"Nothing that concerns you Black." Lily pushed her way through and made it to the staircase.
Karina started sobbing audibly by now. Lily led her to her bed and they both sat on it.
"He…was so horrible…to us! How…could he do that!" Karina slowly stopped crying, then got up and went through her trunk. After pushing all the contents aside, the came out with a picture frame. After looking at the picture, all emotion left Karina's face, and she flung it across the room, and it shattered.
"Reparo!"
She ran over picked it up, and threw it again.
Lily just watched, letting her friend cope.
"How could he! He had us to think about! And he was too busy screwing other girls and drinking to care!" She repaired the picture and threw it against the wall. Then, she just stood there, looking at it, breathing in deeply, looking as though she could breathe fire.
"Well, he won't be able to do it anymore! You're here, and your mom's safe now." Lily firmly.
Karina didn't say anything.
"What happened to our dorm!" a high-pitched squeal came from the door. It was Denise. Gina was standing behind her with a look to kill. "Our stuff is all over everywhere, and everything is broken!"
"How did you two ever get into Gryffindor! You just take up space here!" Gina yelled, they heard the common room get quiet. "Lily, you're not as bad, but if you keep hanging around with her you'll be no better. She wakes us up in the middle of the night screaming about her nightmares. She's not brave, she treats us all like we're inferior, she has no traits that Gryffindor is valued for!"
Lily's red head temper was starting to boil over, when Karina put her hand on Lily's arm to stop her from cursing them both to oblivion.
"Fine." Karina whispered, "FINE! MAYBE I DON'T BELONG HERE! I DON'T BELONG ANYWHERE! I'M ALONE AND I ALWAYS WILL BE! YOU THINK I SCREAM FOR NO REASON! YOU DON'T KNOW FEAR UNTIL SOMEONE ADVANCES ON YOU WITH HATE IN THEIR EYES! YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE BRAVE! YOU'VE NEVER BEEN PUT IN A SITUATION OT HAVE TO BE BRAVE, AND FEEL LUCKY! IT'S NOT GLAMOROUS! I'M NOT BRAVE! I'M SCARED OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND! I HAVE NO DAMN CLUE WHY I WAS PUT HERE, AND IF I DID, I'D TELL YOU, BUT BEFORE YOU PETTY PEOPLE JUDGE ME, GET TO KNOW ME FIRST!" Karina was red in the face, and tears were streaming down her face. "I don't belong…I never have… I never will. I'll always be alone." she started muttering, and wobbling, pushed past Gina and Denise, looking stunned and made her way down. People were staring at her as she walked towards the portrait hole and went out. Then Lily got up.
"Great, like she needed to feel worse than she does already! Damn bitches! Karina, wait!" Lily ran down trying to catch up with her, but for someone so upset, she was really fast. Lily looked around and couldn't find her outside the portrait hole or in any of the nearby corridors.
"KARINA! KARI! Where are you?" Lily called, and pounded against a nearby wall. Her knuckles started bleeding. "SHIT! Could this night get worse!"
"Lily?" a voice called uncertainly.
"Michael? What are you doing here?" Lily looked up, stunned to see her boyfriend walking towards her cautiously.
"I was going to my common room, I just finished dinner, when I heard someone screaming, so I followed the noise and found you...and your bleeding!" he exclaimed.
Lily waved this away, and said hurriedly, "We have to find Kari!"
"Not until I get you to the hospital wing." Michael said stubbornly.
"No. Not until I find Kari."
"I'll carry you then." Michael walked over and picked her up.
"Michael! I have to find her! Who knows what she'll do!" Lily shrieked.
Michael didn't pause, and carried her all the way against her protests.
~Karina~
(AN: I'm going to start having the characters talk like themselves…like using me and I. Trying to see if it is easier that way…)
I stumbled out of the common room with everyone staring at me. I knew they were. But who gives a shit. They can all rot. "I have to get out of here." I mumbled wandering around the corridors. My face was red, and I knew I was crying, cause my vision was all blurry. When I did pass people, they gave me strange looks. I finally made my way down to the Great Hall, but I couldn't bring myself to go out the doors and leave Hogwarts behind. I loved it here. So, I turned around, and staggering, I made my way up. Soon, I came up to a corridor I'd never seen before, went into an empty room, and I slid down the wall and started hypervenelating. I was breathing deeply, but couldn't get enough air, and suddenly, I heard someone outside the door. I tried to hide under a desk, I didn't want ANYONE to see me, but I collapsed as soon as I tried to move. I just stared crying again. Damn crying! I hate it.
"Karr, I mean Karina?" I heard someone ask, and that someone was Sirius Black. Oh great, just the arrogant prat I wanted to see. Except not really. That was sarcasm.
"Go…away…Black!" I said in between sobs. I sound like an idiot.
"What happened?" he asked quietly.
"GO AWAY!" I screamed. Man my voice is going to kill me tomorrow.
He looked awkward for a moment, before coming over and pulling me up. I just collapsed again. This time, he picked me up. I reiterate, Sirius Black, one of the most annoying people I know, picked me up and started carrying me out the door.
"Put me down."
"No. You have to get to the hospital wing. You bleeding, you can't stand, and you just don't look good."
"Just let me go! Why can't I get away! I don't need anyone! I'm alone!" I started crying even harder, and weakly hitting him. He didn't do anything. Just kept carrying me. I stopped protesting, realizing in my weak state, (God I hate being weak) I wouldn't win any arguments.
Soon after, I was being carried into the hospital wing, when who else do I see, but Lily. Her hands were bandaged up and she was screaming that she had to find me. Then, she saw Black walk in with me, and I saw that Michael, Jason, Liz, and Sarah were also there. Everyone stopped talking as he set me down on a bed. I curled up and just kept crying.
"Kari." I heard Lily whisper softly. I just kept crying. She hugged me, and soon, Liz and Sarah were there too, holding my hands and stroking my hair and back.
"You! Boys! OUT!" Madame Pomfrey shooed Black, Jason, and Michael out, and then came over to me. "What happened dear?" she asked so softly.
"I…" I started, and then stopped. I just couldn't go on. I just rocked back and forth, my crying finally calming down. I hugged my knees tight and just sat there rocking.
"Madame, she's gone through a lot today." Lily said and explained the whole story. I heard her add quietly, "She just started her period too."
Liz and Sarah just stared open mouthed at Lily.
~Lily~
As Michael brought me into the hospital wing, and set me down, I thought of running off, but then he grabbed me round the waste.
"Bloody HELL let me go!" I screeched, but to no avail. Soon, Madame Pomfrey came in and looked at me, then started clicking her tongue disapprovingly. "Sit." she ordered, and reluctantly, I did.
"Michael, ouch, go find Jason, Liz and Sarah and find Kari!" I said urgently. My knuckles felt like they were on fire. Madame Pomfrey just put some bandages on them and told me to wait. I sat there watching and waiting for Michael to return, hoping he had found Kari. No such luck.
"Damn, she was always so good at hiding." I said clenching my good hand.
"We'll find her Lily." Sarah said, trying to reassure me. No wonder she was a Hufflepuff.
"We can split up and look for her." Liz suggested. Now there is a Ravenclaw for you.
"We have to find her." Jason looked scared. This was his girlfriend.
Suddenly, looking over his shoulder, I saw Sirius Black bring in a screwed up Karina. Silently, he set her down and stood back.
I walked over to her curled up form and tried to sooth her.
"Kari." I said quietly and just hugged her. I didn't know what to say. Liz and Sarah made their way to us and just stroked her quietly. Madame Pomfrey came over then, and tried to get something out of Kari. She tried to tell her, I know she did, but something happened, and I took over. I told the whole story. Even the part about her period, which I knew for fact didn't help her at all. She asked no questions, but brought over a potion that she said was for a dreamless sleep. She poured it down Kari's throat, and about five minutes later, she was sleeping, but she hadn't relaxed. She was tossing and turning, and was even starting to sweat.
"Will she be okay?" I asked Madame Pomfrey, casting a worried look at Kari's glistening forehead.
"I really don't know. The potion doesn't seem to stop her dreams."
"Should we get Professor Dumbledore?"
"I think so. Would one of you please go get him?"
"I'm already here Poppy." Dumbledore's gentle voice said from behind them. He walked over to Kari's bed and looked at her. He sighed, and whispered a spell, and a look of peace came over her face. I hadn't seen her look like that since we were…five or six, maybe earlier.
"She'll sleep for a few days peacefully. There is nothing else we can do for her now." he looked sad, as he looked at Kari's limp body. He slowly walked out of the wing, pausing for a second. "You girls are excused from curfew tonight. I believe you would like to stay with her, and you may."
"Thank you Professor." we muttered. He walked out.
I sighed and went back over to Kari's bed.
"Did Denise and Gina really do that?" Sarah asked, her eyes cold.
"Yeah, they really did."
"Some Gryffindors they are." Liz muttered.
~Sirius~
"That was a good one James! Did you see his face!" I was laughing so hard, tears of mirth rolling down my face. You would be laughing too if you saw Snape and his slimy Slytherin friends, Avery and Rosier, running around with their hair purple screaming "Gryffindors rule!" It was priceless.
"Your so lucky we didn't get caught! We could get about two months worth of detention for that." Remus, the common sense of the group said, but his lips were twitching into a smile.
"Lets prank them again soon!" Peter squeaked up. I rolled my eyes. He was just so dumb sometimes.
"I have an idea." James announced, his face mock serious.
"What is it Jamesie boy?" I asked, laughing at the dumb pet name his cousin gave him a few years before.
He winced, and said, "I say we find the quickest way to Gryffindor tower, so if we ever need quick getaways, we know where to go."
"We already know the quickest way is to go down the seventh floor corridor and…" I was cut off.
"Well, how do we know that? Let's find out. I think James' idea is a good one." Remus said.
"Alright. I'll go my way, and you all can decide." I crossed my arms, and leaned against the wall. A group of Ravenclaw fourth year girls were going by. I winked and set them into a giggling fit.
It took about another five minutes for everyone to decide which way they were going, when, finally, Remus said go.
I walked down the corridor towards the hidden staircase, and went up. I thought I was making good rime, till I reached the seventh floor corridor, and heard someone in one of the unused classrooms. Unsure, I followed the noise, and looked in the room it was coming from. I think I almost fainted. Karina Karr. Ms. Cool, calm and collected was collapsed on the floor crying and breathing hard.
"Karr, I mean Karina?" I asked uncertainly.
"Go…away…Black!" she said in between sobs. I had never, in all my life heard a girl cry like that before. It was terrible.
"What happened?" I asked a little softer than before. I couldn't take it.
"GO AWAY!" she screamed. I didn't. I couldn't. I had to help her. I wanted to cradle her in my arms and make her stop, but I knew for a fact, that if I did that, well…lets just say it wouldn't be pretty. But, something possessed me, and I went over and picked her up, with one thought. Get her to hospital wing.
"Put me down." she said quietly, I think I surprised her.
"No. You have to get to the hospital wing. You bleeding, you can't stand, and you just don't look good." I said dumbly, trying to get her to calm down.
"Just let me go! Why can't I get away! I don't need anyone! I'm alone!" she cried, and started to hit me weakly against the chest. I ignored her, and kept walking. The halls were deserted, it was getting late. Finally, we reached the hospital wing, and I saw all of her friends gathered around. I took a quick glance at them, but just set her down on a bed and backed away. This was no place for me. I stood next to Jason, her boyfriend, and he gave me this glare. So did his buddy Michael.
"What did you do to my girlfriend?" Jason growled.
"Nothing, I found her in an empty classroom." I answered truthfully. That's gotta be a first.
"Like hell you didn't! You probably tried to take advantage of her!" his voice was raising. Now I was starting to get angry. I would never do that to Karina.
"Now look, I didn't do anything but bring her here!" I said, my voice starting to shake.
"You! Boys! OUT!" Madame Pomfrey screeched at us. It was a good thing too, or else I would have been pounding that ass of a guy Karina calls her boyfriend up. I stalked off before anything else happened, and went into the common room to find it in an uproar. I spotted James, Remus, and Peter sitting at a table with grim expressions on their faces. I walked over there and sat down.
"Guys, what happened?"
"There was a major catfight in the girls dorms. It as between Denise and Gina, and Lily and Karina." Remus said solemnly.
"Where have you been Sir?" (AN: pronounced sear. Not sur.) James asked.
I winced at the nickname. When we were little, he always called me that cause he couldn't pronounce my name.
"Well, this explains why Karr was upset. I found her crying in a classroom on the seventh floor. I took her to the hospital wing, and there I was mauled by her boyfriend." I said, not giving details. "What was the fight about?"
"Well, from what I've heard, Karina and Lily crashed the dorm up, and Gina went into yelling at Karina about not belonging in Gryffindor, and then Karina yelled back at her, no one knows exactly what she said, and Karina ran out, Lily following." Remus frowned. He seemed most upset out of all the other people in the common room.
"She didn't deserve that to be said to her." Remus was getting louder. I though he was going to hex every person in the vicinity.
"Whoa Remus. Calm down. Why so upset?" James asked, confused.
"Never mind." he muttered. "But I believe I know who our next prank will be directed at."
"Alright! Great idea Remus! But first, lets go to the hospital wing. I'm sure we can make it under the cloak." I said, lowering my voice.
"No. Let her be with her friends. We'll see her tomorrow." Remus, the voice of reason, said.
"Oh fine." I sulked.
AN: I didn't put anything about the statue and the passage! I'm sorry. I just don't think it fits anywhere! Reviews…please, they make me happy!
