For the moment, my writer's block is gone! So I am going to take full advantage of it! Yay! I redid parts of the earlier chapters so if you wanna check those out…
Disclaimer: Nope…still don't own Harry Potter, the wonderful J.K. Rowling does…
~Sirius~
I woke up to the sound of the shower. That is not my preferred way to wake up any morning, at least on one where I don't have to get up.
"Stupid Remus and his insomnia…" I grumbled and sat up.
James and Peter were still sleeping. Peter was snoring a little and James' foot was twitching. I could wake them up, but I don't want to be looking over my shoulder for the rest of the week wondering when they'll be getting me back.
"Sirius? What are you doing up?" Remus came out of the bathroom, dressed, his hair still sopping wet.
"The sound of the shower woke me up." I shrugged.
"Sorry, I'm going to breakfast with Lily and Kari and they went to get ready so I decided to take a shower."
"'S alright. I'm going to take a shower before James and Pete get up anyways. They always complain about my long showers anyways."
Remus let out a small laugh, "Yeah, well, when you're done, if they aren't up yet, come on down to breakfast. I'll be there."
"Sure Remus. See ya later."
He waved and walked out of the dorm, going to meet Karr and Evans. He was getting real chummy with them lately. Apparently they were insomniacs too, and now Remus spent the nights talking with them. At least he isn't moping around the dorm keeping us up now.
I grabbed some jeans and a my dark grey Falmouth Falcons shirt and went to take my shower.
"SIRIUS! HURRY UP I HAVE TO USE THE LOO!" Peter shouted while banging on the door.
Turning off the water, I pulled on my clothes and went into the dorm. Pete rushed into the bathroom and James was sitting up on his bed, his hair looking even more tousled than usual.
"Morning James."
"M-m-morning Sirius." he yawned, and ruffled his hair, "Not the Falcons again." he groaned looking at my shirt.
"Don't insult the Falcons. They play a tough game."
"Because they cheat! They practically kill all the opposing members of the other team to win. Look what they did to the Magpies. I mean they are downright dangerous!" James argued.
I smirked and pointed to my shirt, "Do you forget their motto? 'Let us win, but if we can not win, let us break a few heads.'"
James just shook his head. Then Pete came out of the bathroom, showered and all.
"Where's Remus?" he asked, going through his trunk looking for something.
"He went to breakfast with Evans and Karr. Like always."
"Every morning. Sirius, where did you put my Bats shirt?" James was going through his trunk.
"I resent that. I don't know where it is."
"James, its over there, hanging off the mirror." Peter pointed out.
"Oh, thanks Pete."
"Anytime James."
"I'm going on down to breakfast, I'm starving." I announced, walking out of the dorm.
"Alright, see you in about ten minutes." Peter called, his head still inside his trunk.
I walked down into the common room, and it was completely empty. No one was up. I pulled up my arm, and to my surprise it was seven. Grumbling, I made my way down to the Great Hall. I walked in, and the only people in it were Remus, Karr, Evans, and Dumbledore.
"Do you guys always get here this early?" I asked, grabbing a piece of toast.
"Yup." Remus said, spooning more eggs onto his plate.
I became absorbed into eating, and James and Peter came down and started eating too. I wasn't really paying attention, until I heard the sound of ripping parchment. I looked up and saw Evans tearing up a letter.
"What are you doing Evans?"
She didn't answer me.
"Lily, what's wrong?" Karr asked her softly.
She still didn't say anything.
"Lils, what happened?"
She talked so I couldn't hear what she said.
"Oh! Lily, I… I don't know what to say!" Karr said quietly.
"It's not fair. She was only three."
Karr hugged Evans, and I was left in the dark. I looked at Remus who was holding Evans' hand and all he did was shake his head at me.
~Lily~
No one except Dumbledore was in the Great Hall when we got there. He looked over at us, and nodded, but there was something missing. His eyes weren't twinkling so much.
"What's wrong with Dumbledore?" Kari asked me, looking a little worried.
"I dunno… hey look, early post. One's coming this way." The tawny owl dropped a letter in front of me. It was from home. I picked it up and opened it. A feeling of foreboding passed over me.
Lily,
The most awful thing happened last night. Aunt Daisy, Uncle Dave, and Camellia were murdered. The police don't know what to say about it. I'm sorry you had to find out through a letter, and only your third week back, but you have right to know. Your mom is in a right state, and we hope you can make it to the funeral on Monday. We've already sent a letter to Professor Dumbledore, and Lily Flower, don't forget that we love you and we're here for you.
Love,
Daddy
I looked around to Dumbledore, and he looked back at me, his eyes dull and sad. Camellia, my baby cousin, she was dead. She was only three. Mom's only sister, Daisy. They were best friends. Unlike Petunia and me. Mom was so disappointed when Petunia started to hate me. Now she only has a memory of her sister. Who would do such a thing? Killing innocent people. A child. I felt tears welling up in my eyes from hurt and anger. I started ripping up the paper.
"What are you doing Evans?" I heard Black talking, but I didn't understand a word he said.
"Lily, what's wrong?" Kari asked me. I didn't quite hear her.
"Lils, what happened?" she asked again, this time I figured out what she was saying and told her.
"Mum's sister, Daisy, my uncle and little cousin were murdered last night. Camellia was only three…" I muttered.
"Oh! Lily, I… I don't know what to say!" Just don't say sorry. It won't bring them back.
"It's not fair. She was only three." I felt Remus' hand grasp mine. He didn't ask questions, he was just there for me.
I started crying then. How could such a thing happen? Kari wrapped her arms around me and hugged me tightly. It's not fair. She never got a chance to live. Never got a chance to know what it was like to go to school. Or have true friends. Mum lost her best friend, her sister. Dad lost friend too. He was friends with Uncle Dave in high school. My parents just lost part of their life and they'll never get it back. My little cousin will never grow up. She will always be a little three year old torn from her life. My aunt and uncle will never know how it feels to watch their child grow up. They're gone.
"Lils, come on. Stand up. I'm taking you to the 'room'. Come on." Kari gently helped me up.
"Kari, what's wrong with Lily?" Sarah asked.
"Let's not talk about it here, help me get her back to the 'room'. Come on Lily." Kari put her arm around under my arms, with Sarah on the other side, and they helped me make my way up to the room of requirement.
Sarah let me go and walked by the room, and we clambered in. It was a cozy private common room. Kari set me down on a couch and I burst into tears.
~Karina~
"Sarah, go and tell Liz and Callie where we are, and then find Michael and Jason and tell them that we're not going to see them today."
She nodded and went off.
"Lils, here, take a tissue."
Lily looked up at me and the look on her face mirrored my own when I was younger. When I felt lost and alone after a fight with my dad. That was before I lost feeling for those things.
She took the tissue and wiped her eyes.
"Why did it happen to them?"
I looked at her in the eyes. "I don't know. Why do any of these things happen to any of us?"
"Who would kill a three year old? What kind of psychotic weirdo would do such a thing?" her voice broke and she started crying again.
I sat next to her and rubbed her back, trying to soothe her, but I knew nothing could help heal her except time. Let's just call it past experiences.
I heard the door open, and I turned to look at who it was. Sarah, Liz, and Callie came over to our couch and squished themselves onto it, next to me and Lily.
Soon, we were all in a many armed hug trying to make Lily feel better. After awhile, we broke apart and Lily's eyes were dry for the moment.
"I should talk to Dumbledore. I have to get home by tomorrow." she said in a dead voice.
"Come on Lil, I'll take you." I patted her arm in a reassuring way.
She stood up and we walked out of the room and down the corridors.
"…attacked last night. They were muggles. At least that's what father said, it was a small family." a voice was saying down the hall. Avery's voice.
"I was wondering when he would attack again. Soon it won't be just muggles he's attacking either. It will be the blood traitors as well." Rosier's voice followed.
Suddenly, they came into view. Their mouths curved into sneers.
"What are you two mudbloods doing out by yourselves?"
"Shut it Avery, I'm rather busy." I pushed past him. He grabbed my arm.
"Just wait, you and your little friend will get what's coming to you Karr."
"Well till then, get your slimy hand off me." I hissed. He let go.
Grabbing Lily's arm I rushed down to Dumbledore's office seething with anger. It was Voldemort that killed Lily's family.
We came up to the gargoyle that guarded the entrance, when I realized, I didn't know the password.
"Shit." I muttered. "Lil, we're gonna have to wait until someone lets us in or Dumbledore comes by cause I don't know the password."
She just nodded her head. Sighing, I slid down the wall to a sitting position and Lily did the same. I took a sideways glance at her and her eyes were staring forward, unseeing. They had an empty look to them. I put an arm around her shoulders and gave her a hug. She looked at me and gave me a slight smile.
"Ms. Evans, Ms. Karr, how may I help you?"
I turned to see Professor Dumbledore smiling at us.
"Professor, Lily needs to talk to you about going home tomorrow."
"Yes, her parents sent me a letter explaining the events. Please, come up to my office."
"Yes sir. Come on Lily, let's go." I stood up, and helped her stand.
Going up the spiral staircase, we didn't say a word, in fact, we didn't talk until we were seated in front of Dumbledore's desk.
"Now, Ms. Evans, you wish to go to your home tomorrow?" he looked at her.
"Yes please sir."
"How long so you wish to stay?"
"As long a necessary sir."
"Alright. I'll send you home by Floo powder tomorrow. Come to my office at eight. The password is 'ice mice'."
"Yes sir."
"Is there anything else I may help you with?" he asked, looking at the both of us.
"Why would someone do such a thing? Kill innocent people?" Lily's voice came out harsh and quiet.
"No one really knows what compels the minds of evil. It could be ambition, or revenge, we may never know." Dumbledore said softly, looking from Lily, to me, then back to Lily.
"It still doesn't make sense to me." Lily said dully.
"Not many things in this world do make sense, Lily, but I believe all things happen for a reason."
Lily sighed and stood up, "Thank you Professor. I'll see you tomorrow."
"Yes Ms. Evans, tomorrow."
And we left.
"Voldemort will pay for what he's done. Maybe it won't be me, or you, but he'll get what's coming to him."
"How do you know it was him?" Lily asked sharply, turning to look at me.
"Avery and Rosier were talking about it in the hall."
She didn't say anything, but we made our way up to the common room silently, both lost in our own thoughts. I kept glancing at Lily, and she always looked the same, staring ahead with a lost look.
"Password?"
"Wayfarers."
The portrait hole opened and we climbed in.
"Lily, you should go get some sleep. I have some dreamless sleep potion in my trunk if you need it."
"Yeah, I am really tired. I think I'll do that." she walked up to the dorm slowly.
Sighing, I plopped onto a couch and covered my face with my hands.
"Bad day? Its only noon."
I took my hands off my face to see Remus standing in front of me. I patted the couch inviting him to sit next to me.
"Its only noon? Ugh, this is turning out to be a long day."
"How's Lily?"
"She's…alive. I sent her off to sleep."
"Good, that might help her a little."
"I hope so."
"What happened?"
"Her aunt, uncle and three year old cousin were murdered by Voldemort last night." I clenched my fist and banged the couch, "She was only three! Why?! Why her?"
Remus put his hand on my shoulder, "That's the way life goes."
"Yeah, life's a bitch and then you die, so fuck it all." I said bitterly.
"She's going home tomorrow."
"Yup, for a while I would suppose. Her mum's taking it real hard."
"Are you going to be okay without her here for a while?"
"I'll be fine. I have you and Callie, Liz, Sarah, and Jason."
"But I'm the only one that's in your house, you only have two classes with each of them."
"Well, I'll survive. I don't have a choice."
"Plus, Gina and Denise aren't exactly the you know, choice people…"
"Remus Lupin, stop worrying, I'll be fine. And if they bother me, I'll hex them."
"Alright…"
"Argh! You're so frustrating!"
He smirked. "You know you love me."
"Shut up…" I muttered, looking away in mock embarrassment.
~Lily~
I went up to the dorm, put a charm on the door, and fell on my bed. My body is physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. So tired in fact, that as soon as my head hit's the pillow, I'm fast asleep.
A little girl is laughing. I run, trying to find her. I'm so afraid, but I don't know why. Now I can see her, she's just a little ways ahead. I run faster, but she's still so far ahead of me.
"Come back! Stop running!" I tried to call out, but it only came as a whisper. I needed to get to her so badly, I couldn't catch up.
"Mommy!" the girl cried happily, grabbing a woman's legs in a tight embrace.
I recognize the little girl's voice.
"Hello my sweet little Camellia!"
It was my aunt Daisy and Camellia.
"AUNT DAISY! YOU'RE ALIVE!" I tried to scream, my eyes blurry with tears.
"Where are my lovely flowers?" Uncle Dave came into my view.
"Daddy!" the little girl squealed with delight. He picked her up and swung her around.
I run ahead trying to catch up to them, to warn them, but no matter how fast I run, they're always just out of reach.
Suddenly, they're blurring, just around the edges at first, but soon, they're becoming dimmer and dimmer, till they aren't there anymore.
"NO WAIT! COME BACK!" I finally find my voice.
I wok up in a cold sweat and breathing deeply. 'It was just a dream.'
Getting up to get a glass of water, I look out the window.
"Holy crap, its almost dark!" I look to the clock next to my bed and it says six thirty. "Might as well go get some dinner…"
Walking down the stairs, I see Kari sitting on a couch, all alone in a corner, reading a book. I walked over.
"Hi Kari."
She started and looked up, "Hey Lils, feel any better?"
"A little, not much, I had a bad dream."
"Not much of a surprise there, every time something bad happened to me and I fell asleep I'd have a bad dream."
"Yeah…I'm hungry, lets go to dinner."
"Ok." she set down her book and got up, stretching.
I lead the way down to the Great Hall, and we walked in silence. Not an awkward one, just, silence. In an unspoken agreement.
Walking into the Great Hall, I immediately wanted to walk back out. People were laughing and joking around, while a madman was out killing innocent people. We walked over to the Gryffindor table, waving to our friends, and sat down next to Remus, who, unfortunately was with the other Marauders.
"Hey Lils, how are you feeling?" Remus asked, looking at me with concern in his eyes.
"You want me to lie or tell the truth?"
"The truth."
"Like shit."
"Fair enough."
I grabbed a roll and bit into it, my appetite going away.
"Come on Lil, you have to eat something, you're gonna get sick." Kari put some veggies and some chicken on my plate. "At least eat some of this."
I picked up my fork and poked at my food.
"Are you gonna eat that?"
I looked up to see Black eyeing my food. I sighed and pushed my plate to him, "Nope."
"Thanks!" he picked up my plate and scarfed it down.
"Lily, drink something then?" Kari had a note of desperation in her voice. She had had experiences like this, she would know what to do… I picked up a goblet of pumpkin juice and downed it.
"Thank you Lily."
"Sure Kari."
I looked at Remus and saw he was shaking his head at Potter, I turned my ears towards the conversation to see what was going on.
"…and then Snivellus tried to curse me, but McGonagall showed up and gave him detention!"
"James, didn't you get detention too?"
"Well sure Remus, but a small price to pay because old Snapey also got fifty points away from Slytherin!"
"What about you Sirius? What kind of trouble did you get into today?" Remus turned to Sirius.
"You'll see…" he said mysteriously, glancing at the Slytherin table. I looked over there to and I felt my blood start to boil. Avery and Rosier were laughing at something with Snape and Bellatrix. They looked over at our table and I knew exactly what they were talking about.
"Lily, just ignore it, they'll pay. I promise, they'll get what's coming to them." Kari said softly.
"I know, I just hope I'm there to see it."
Suddenly, the Slytherin food all started coming out of dishes and off of plates and into the faces of the Slytherins. Screams were heard coming from the girl, and angry shouts from the guys.
"Perfect timing." Kari smirked.
"I agree."