As promised, here's another view into the shooting. I'll warn you, this is a bit of a downer. All right, a lot more than a bit. Enjoy!
Guilty (Spinner's Confession)
What am I gonna do?
I helped to humiliate him. I helped feed him the lie.
I helped him shoot Jimmy.
At least that's what it feels like.
I can't live with this. I don't care what Jay or Alex say. I have to tell someone. Tell them everything. I'll have to turn myself in, but I don't care about myself anymore. I've lost Paige, and I've lost Jimmy. Eventually, someone's going to find out what I've done, and I'll lose everyone else, too. I might as well do it on my own terms. Because once the truth comes out, every kid in Degrassi will treat me like I treated Rick.
I deserve worse.
This would be easier if me and Paige were still together. Not that much easier, but right now, I need all the help I can get. I was an idiot. Come to think of it, I've been an idiot for a long time now. I only wish I could take it all back.
Take back flirting with Manny.
Take back bullying Rick.
Take back pushing Paige around.
Take back shrugging Jimmy off for Alex and Jay.
Take back. Two words that have no meaning for me anymore. Once I turn myself in, there's no turning back. Had Rick lived, even his future wouldn't have been as bleak as mine is now.
I can only hope that I can repay my debt as soon as possible, because every day is harder than the last, and soon, there'll be nothing left of me but an empty shell.
Empty.
I'm already there.