This Mask of Glass
By: psych0tic
Disclaimer: Don't own the characters. They are owned by Squaresoft and whoever else thought of them. Boo hoo. BUT! But I do own the story. Even though it's a tad cliché...
Summary: Riku considers himself straight. No exceptions included. So what happens when he gets dared to ask Sora, a guy, out for a date? And... also to be a couple for a whole month?
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Chapter Five: So Simple.-.-.-.--.--.-.-.-.
Riku awoke on a pink lacy bed in a pink lacy room that oddly resembled those pink lacy panties that Leon wore... He pushed the pink lacy covers off of himself and sat up on the bed. He looked around the room and found Aerith knocked out on her desk. So... It was she who brought him back into the house when Sephiroth wouldn't open the door... The silver haired boy smiled in appreciation and tip toed out of the room. He continued tiptoeing down the hall and to his room.
Softly kicking the door open and softly closing it he looked around. His room was in a total mess. No doubt from last night and from when Sephy had woken up... Ugh, last night... Riku clutched his head. How could he have been so stupid to actually leave Sora alone? More importantly... How could he have been so stupid to agree to that stupid dare!? And... How could he have been so fucking stupid to... Fall in love? The silver haired boy blinked.
"I am not in love," Riku immediately assured himself. "It's just hormones, it will go away... Besides... Fuck love," he added as he landed on his bed. The bed Sora was on. The bed Sora got molested on. The bed—
The silver haired boy smacked his head. Quit thinking about Sora damn it... So, he turned on his radio to his favorite rock station... And they were playing oldies...
(I can't go home, I want to forget a love that never wavered with you
That day, I disappeared from your eyes.
At that point, what could I do?)
"That day... Yesterday... Ugh..." Riku said and buried his head in his pillow. Of all the songs to play...
(Looking at you breaking down in tears,
I held you more tightly than usual,
But you didn't change.
How could I have not noticed that now your love was gone...)
"Gone. Yeah, it's gone all fucking right," Riku grumbled into his pillow. Should he turn the radio off? Nahh, too much work...
(I was really a fool, wasn't I?
Is this how we'll end it?
For some reason when I think of you the tears flow...
I won't ever hurt you again.
Because now at this time I want to hold you.)
"Mmm... Hold Sora... Yeah..." Riku breathed as he hugged his pillow tightly imagining that it was Sora...
(I betrayed your love too much, didn't I?
"The present will never again be like it was three years ago"
Why did we meet? What did I leave you with?
I'll keep continuing to wait until we meet again...
I can't go home, I want to forget even the memories.
The heart I loved you with hurts,
Eternally a love, which I didn't have until now...
Our love will never return.)
"Never... Return..." Riku said as he lifted his head to stare at the radio. "Huh, really?"
And now Riku was going insane. He was talking to an electronic device used for entertainment! But was it entertaining right now? Noo... So Riku grabbed the machine and threw it across his room. What did it matter? Practically half the whole room was in pieces anyway...
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Sora woke up to the bright sunshine pouring into his room from the blinded window. It was a happy day full of sunshine and birds singing. But why didn't he feel happy? Why? The brunette moaned and buried his face into his pillow. Happy... That was what he wanted to feel. Happy with... With Ri—
"I definitely have to stop thinking about him," Sora said blandly into his pillow. It just hurt to much and he finally found out the truth as to why Riku picked him out of all the other kids.
...Because Sephiroth wanted him. Because it was a dare. Because it was a lie... Because he had to. Because Riku never backed down from anything. Because... Because... Tidus wasn't here... Tidus wasn't here to comfort him. Sora suddenly squeezed his already shut eyes even more closed.
Of all the times to be thinking of that... And instantly the scenes replayed themselves over in his mind...
Sora and Tidus playing in the brunette's living room. Mother is home. Father is not. Seconds later father comes home drunk...
"What is he doing here!?" a voice—fathers. Stomped footsteps come closer to the two boys.
"He's spending the night honey," mother answers as she comes from the kitchen.
Sora and Tidus lift their heads to see what's going on.
Sora sees his father stagger into the kitchen. What's he doing? Getting something to drink...? Doesn't look like it...
"Uhm... I think we should go to my room..." Sora said and outstretched his hand to Tidus. Tidus reluctantly took it and was led to the brunette's room. The door clicked shut and they continued to play in safety.
Meanwhile downstairs...
"I told you not to bring that boy over here!!" father half screamed at mother.
"Who are you to deny me something like that? If Sora wants his friends over then he'll have his friends over."
"You do not run this house."
"Whatever," mother mumbles to father and stalks out of the kitchen. Father is pissed off. He does not want mother to disobey him; he runs the house not her. He follows her out of the kitchen before grabbing something shiny and sharp...
Sora and Tidus are playing hide and seek in the little room that they have. Tidus hides while Sora counts to 50. But their playtime is cut short when a high-pitched scream fills the air. Tidus crawls out of his hiding place and comes to stand by Sora. Both boys are near the bedroom door...
Footsteps fumbling up the stairs another scream—but this time it's muffled... Another set of footsteps upon the stairs. They are hard and filled with anger... hatred... In no time Tidus and Sora find a hiding place together. The closet. The doorknob rattles a voice shouts...
"OPEN THIS DAMNED DOOR!"
No one comes to open it. Sora tries to stifle a squeak. Tidus holds onto his friend, tightly. The doorknob stops rattling and for a moment the naïve boys think that father has stopped coming after them. But they are wrong. Horribly wrong. The sound of a blade upon wood and footsteps were suddenly heard into the room.
Drunken cursing and things were thrown around. And the door to the closet swung open.
Sora's eyes snapped open and he mentally kicked himself for letting that memory replay in his mind. He tried so hard to forget it but never really left him. Maybe it's because he blamed himself for everything...
After all it was mainly his fault that Tidus moved away and his father was in... that place. The brunet sighed as he rolled over in his bed. He raised his hand to block the sunlight and he just lay there, relaxed but not really. And then he thought of what else happened after his father found them...
A hand roughly reached into the darkness and pulled a boy out. Father looked down. It was his son.
"I'll deal with you later," he growled and reached into the closet again to pull out the other boy.
Sora was frightened about his friend and their situation. But he was only 5½ what could he do?
Tidus was thrown onto the floor in the same fashion as Sora. Both boys were on the floor and cowering in fear from Sora's psycho father. Said psycho father still had that sharp and shiny little something in his hands..
"I said this once and I will only repeat once more," they heard father growl. He leaned over them, his breath smelling like alcohol.
"I-will-not-have-a-gay-son."
And everything went black.
Sora shuddered in his bed. He clutched his pillow and brought it close to his chest. He didn't remember anything else after his mind went blank. He supposed he fainted or something and then he awoke a few hours later to the sound of an ambulance and police cars.
He was sitting in a stretcher and people were running all around. He could remember being confused, so, so confused. He wanted to know where his mother was where Tidus was.. He could care less about his father but...
"What happened to Tidus?" he voiced.
The people around stopped running about just to glance at him for a second. He waited for their answer. It seemed like it would never come.
"He... He's at the hospital..." A person informed him.
Sora felt his eyebrows contract. "Hospital...?" he said more to himself than anyone else. Someone nodded and he looked at them.
"Where's my mom?"
"...She's at the hospital too."
Ok, so now two people that he cared very much for were at the hospital. What did his father do?
Sora sat up in his bed. His mind raced... What did happen to Tidus? He racked his brain for an answer. It seemed like his brain reluctantly gave one though.
"He... Suffered from a... Serious case of Hemophilia..." Sora voiced. Hemophilia-- that disease that wouldn't let blood clot normally. Tidus was slashed in all the vital places from his stupid father and it was... A miracle that he survived. Then his mother came back a few days later. She only had a few bruises and such but he never saw Tidus again. His mother told him that Tidus moved far, far away and... That made Sora sad. Very sad. He remember asking her what happened to his father and she told him that he was in jail and was going to be there for a very long time. 10 years to be exact.
Sora looked at his calendar across the wall. It was almost his birthday and almost the anniversary of that incident. Which meant that his father would be coming home soon.
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Riku found himself walking aimlessly through his neighborhood. He had nothing to do and since his dare was practically over he might as well... Move on. But did he really want to move on? Eh well... Well whenever he was with Sora something came over him. And that something he never experienced before. Not from girls, his sister, most definitely not his brother... It was... It was different. And he couldn't stop himself from thinking if Sora was alright or not.
The silver haired boy reached into his pocket, searching for his cell phone. When he found it he flipped it on and pressed re-dial. The last person who he called would be Sora, of course. Ringing, ringing... One two three—Phone still ringing... Four five si— A click. Riku mentally smiled and spoke into the phone,
"Hey Sora--"
"This is my uh, answering machine, yeah... Leave a message!"
"Damn machine," Riku grumbled and his eyes widened as he realized what he just said. "Er, sorry about that... Listen I really have to talk to you and... Well just meet me by the park alright?" And Riku hung up. He shoved his phone into his pocket and walked all across the blocks to reach the park. The park where Sora had kissed him in the rain.
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Sora heard the message and he wanted to go he really did but... Something stopped him. He couldn't just go crawling back to Riku not after he found out that his whole relationship with him was a lie. So he sat around his room for the whole day. His mother was at work and Kairi was off doing some "girl-stuff" with Selphie. He sighed—he really felt like no one loved him right now. But he couldn't go to the swings, no, not with Riku there.
If he saw the silver haired boy it would just hurt too much. But maybe... Sora shook his head. No buts, no maybes, I am not going to the park. But the more he thought about not going to the park the more he thought about going there just to satisfy the need inside him that wanted to see Riku. Finally he gave in and trudged all the way to the park.
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Riku was sitting on the swings slowly swinging himself. It felt nice to have the breeze in his hair but something inside irked him. What if Sora wasn't going to show up? Well why should he after what happened yesterday? A voice inside him countered. Riku grimaced but continued swinging nonetheless.
It was a sunny day and there were lots of kids running around the park but none of them sat on the other swing to swing with him. He sighed as he swung and then he started looking around for Sora. Heh, thought so—he wouldn't show up. So the silver haired boy stopped swinging and got off of the swing. He was about to make his way out of the park when there was a tap at his shoulder.
The silver haired boy turned around to see who it was who wanted his attention. And it was the person that he wanted to see.
"Hey," Riku said solemnly as he stared at the milk chocolate haired boy standing before him. Sora nodded in acknowledgement and sat down on the other swing. Riku took this as a cue to sit down on the swing he just left and he did. After a few moments of silence the silver haired boy spoke up.
"I was thinking about what you said to me yesterday... You know how you loved me and all," he stopped there and watched Sora for a reaction. The brunet flinched and a pout was formed on his face.
"...And I couldn't stop thinking about you after."
Sora's head sprang up and he looked at Riku. Did he really mean that? He stared into Riku's emerald pools searching for an answer.
"Look I know before it was all a lie and shit... But... Damn," Riku cursed and looked up into the sky. He was wordless. "Uh... Do you think we could start over? You know as... friends and then something more?"
Sora blinked. Was this for real?
Riku looked at Sora and inwardly cringed. "Or you can just... Forget about me..." he said and absentmindedly started swinging.
"I'll take your offer if you promise me one thing," Sora said slowly. Riku stopped swinging. Were his ears lying to him? He turned his head so that he faced Sora.
"Which is?" he asked, eager to know what Sora wanted.
"No more lies," Sora said and then his usual grin was back on his face.
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They were back. Back together and it wasn't because of some stupid dare or lie. It was all based on their emotions and well... their hormones too. After they got back together they ran to the jungle gym that resembled a boat. They went into the boat's cabinet (a/n: I don't know if it's called a cabinet but that one place were the captain stays) and sat down on the metal ground.
"Sooo..." Sora said as he stared at Riku who stared at him.
"Damn I've missed you," Riku said and hugged the boy. Sora giggled and hugged Riku back and soon they were found making out in the boat.
Tongues battled against each other, hands clumsily wrapped themselves around each other...
Riku pulled away from the brunet to catch a breath and then dove back in. Sora just tasted so... chocolaty. He ran his tongue over Sora's lips and then he dipped his tongue back into the other's mouth. He moaned as Sora's chocolate taste tingled his tongue and he brought his hands underneath Sora's shirt. The silver haired boy caressed the other's skin lovingly and when he pulled away Sora was beet red.
"My birthday's in two days," Sora announced. Riku looked over at him and smirked.
"So what do you want to do?" Riku asked and licked his lips as he inched himself closer to the brunet.
"Ohhh a little someone called Riku," Sora winked as he saw Riku's eyes widened.
"You naughty, naughty little boy you," the silver haired boy said as he tackled Sora to the ground.
Sora giggled and placed a kiss on Riku's nose. "So what do you say?"
"Do you seriously want to do me?" the silver haired boy breathed.
"Not really," Sora said with a little laugh. Riku narrowed his eyes and rolled off of Sora. The brunet laughed at Riku's reactions.
"Actually I just want to spend the whole day with you."
Emerald eyes met ocean blue in a staring contest.
"Then it's settled."
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End of chapter. FUWAHAHA. But I'm not done yet. XP. XP. XP. Sora's psychopathic daddy has to come back... OO. And Sora's birthday has to be celebrated! Yeah! Well how'd you like this chapter? o.O;; I don't really like this chapter haha. But yeah, it's necessary for the rest of the plot to unfold... I think it sucked. XD. I think this chapter sucked. SUCKED, SUCKED, SUUUUUUCKED!! But yeah... Tell me how to improve it ;-;.
Oh and the song that Riku's listening to is the English translation of Dir en Grey's Yurameki. Isn't it such a beautiful song? ;-; I love it to pieces.
I got the translation at: www . centigrade-j . com