Confused. That was its name. With a name it felt different, somehow. Like it had a new meaning, a new purpose. But what was that purpose? It did not know. It knew better than to think about this too much, however; pondering about things like that only resulted in confusion. . . . Confused felt mildly surprised. It had never thought in this manner before. . . perhaps a name had given it this new knowledge of foresight.
Still. . . it wished it knew. If one had a purpose, but was not aware of just what that purpose was, what was the point? Was it doomed to a seemingly meaningless existence?
Confused hoped not; it really did. All it could really do in this place was hope. Thinking spurned confusion, and from asking sprung the same result. It could only hope. . . .
But. . . what would grant its wish for this information? What was Confused to hope to? It did not know. It never would. For, there. . . was nothing. Nothing could hear it; they would not even understand if they could.
Nothing…. Confused felt a pang. What was this feeling, this pain?
It felt constricted, panicked. Realization dawned. It was alone.
Loneliness, by far, was the worst feeling.
It wished not to be alone.
Wishes don't come true.
For Confused, this place was now a cage, a prison. It was trapped. The other things like itself. . . . Never was it more aware that they did not know of it, that they did not care.
Confused wondered if a name had been such a good idea. With a name, came a Self. That overpowering feeling of self, of being, made its loneliness much worse.
Anonymity, it decided, was better. When it was anonymous, it may have been confused, but it was happy and oblivious. Oblivious to the fact that nothing knew or cared.
Now it was Confused. Being Confused meant knowledge, but that was no consolation. For now it knew, and was only depressed by that fact.
It wished. . . no, it would have wished. It would have wished. . . for anonymity, but now it knew better. It knew. If Confused was still anonymous, it wouldn't. . . . It wouldn't know.
Not knowing was better.