Red Red Sky
I do not own Evangelion, this is only a fan fiction.
Notes: I did spell the angel Sachiel wrong, so I spelled it right in this chapter, thank you for the great review; I appreciate any type of suggestions, except the idiotic ones coming from idiots. Thanks again, enjoy this chapter. It was kind of hard to write this one, because capturing Rei in a situation like this is kind of hard to imagine. It is probably OCC, but oh well, its my Fan Fiction so let it be. Thank you again.
Chapter 2 - Blood
Blood. It smelled like blood. Why? To Shinji's knowledge he didn't know. Anyone that knew the Eva project to the finest detail would know the LCL is Lilith's blood. The plug felt warm thought, he felt at home, as if it was home. The Synch tests were being performed with the entry plug inserted into the Eva's.
Ritsuko Akagi was looking and the synch graph. It seemed as if though Shinji had a lot of things on his mind, the synch ratio was fluctuating, but it was spiking quite high at some points. She looked towards Maya Ibuki, with a questioning look.
"I don't know Dr. Akagi, for some reason he's all over the graph, he's going as low as 37% while peaking up to 84%. Seems that he's worried about something or another," Maya spoke to answer Ritsuko's questioning look.
"Shinji, what's wrong, you seem to be not concentrating, is there some problem you want to talk about?" Ritsuko asked Shinji.
"Eh…. There, well…. but…. No. There is no problem at all." Shinji almost broke, but then he snapped back. He could wait until he had his talk with Rei.
"Well try to concentrate more," Ritsuko spoke with a harsh tone.
At that point Maya felt sorry for Shinji. "Shinji, you're not doing too badly, higher than Rei at points and lower other times. Maybe you should relax more. You seem to be clutching the plug controls. Let go and relax," Maya voiced.
"I will try," Shinji answered. His eyes opened, he looked straight at the monitor in the plug. He let go of the controls and started to clench and unclench his hand. Something in his mind made him angry. He thought of how he would have felt if Rei died. Ramiel would have been shredded by his hands at this point. Why did Rei matter to him so much? What was she to him? A person, a friend, a girl, or is there something else.
He opened a com link with Rei. Seeing her face, made him feel like there was a heaven. Why did he feel this way, he looked at her, seeing her he noticed something he hadn't before. Emotion. She was confused why he opened the com link from what he could tell.
"Rei, I can't wait, I need to know now. Why did you tell me you would protect me, its eating away at me? Was it father?" Shinji asked begging for an answer. He did not say Ayanami, he just said Rei, for he did not care anymore. To hide from everyone who dared to question.
Rei looked at him, she noticed he was afraid to hear what the answer was, and he seemed angry, something that Shinji doesn't usually do. It's like he was about to berserk.
"I cannot answer that question Ikari-kun, it was not your father," Rei answering Shinji with little or non emotion in her words.
Shinji's mind was not in a good position right now, he didn't know what was going on and Rei didn't either. It was a mess from his point of view.
Shinji never gets mad, never yells, never shows how he feels to other people, he puts it inside, but this was the last straw. He had no more room to hide his feelings. Not thinking what he was doing, he slammed the fist of the Eva into the cage wall. The armor plated cage held the intact, but the shock was heard throughout Nerv.
"Shinji! Why did you just do that, do you want commander Ikari to put you in the brig?" Ritsuko questioned.
He didn't answer. He just flushed his mind of thoughts and closed his eyes, thinking that if he had a good synch ratio they wouldn't bother him.
Maya Ibuki looked at the synch graph and saw a stable 67% ratio. It was the highest ratio he ever had. She looked at Dr Akagi to get her attention and then pointed at the graph.
Ritsuko had a puzzling look on her face, why did Shinji do that. And why was there a link to Eva-00 from Eva-01, she didn't know they knew each other to have a private channel open.
"Ok kids, well that's enough for today, you both seem to have some things on your minds, so we will pick up on the tests, two days from now." Dr Akagi spoke, then looked at Shinji's graph, and information. He seemed to have done so much better after he let out some anger, or whatever he wanted to do.
Getting out of the plug, he looked at his hands, and then moved them towards his face. As if he had done something horrible, he closed his eyes. Thinking of how Rei was going to react to his behavior.
Taking a shower at Nerv and putting on his regular clothes he was almost ready to leave. Standing up he shoved his plug suit into his locker. His mind was in quite bad condition. He needed to get some air, so he walked out of the men's locker room, and started walking towards Nerv exit doors, almost forgetting that he was going to go over to Rei's Apartment.
Looking around, he heard footsteps from around the corner. He didn't know who it was. In second he saw the schools girls' attire. It was Rei. She must have known he would be waiting for her here. She looked at him. He looked back. They stood there for minutes until one of them said a word.
"Hello Ayanami, I'm sorry," Shinji apologized, almost for no reason, but Rei understood why he did so. Rei Ayanami just looked at him, and then nodded her heard, for accepting his apology. He felt so much better, it was like she knew what he was feeling, and he knew what she meant by her actions.
They both turned around at the same time, and started their walk over to her apartment. He was treading a few feet behind her, but she understood why. He was a bit afraid she could tell. But she felt as if she was in his shoes too, she was afraid of what was going to be said herself. This feeling of being afraid bothered her, she never felt it before, she felt pain, anger, and of course hate. But there was another feeling, it was eating away at her, the way she felt when he saved her, and then held her, and took one for the team lets say. This feeling she couldn't understand. It was something very hard to describe in human nature.
It was all a matter of time till they reached her apartment. Shinji could not believe she was living in such a disgusting area. There was construction workers working besides the building, there was garbage everywhere. Scenery just sucked.
The elevator ride to her floor was quiet, no one said a thing. But strangely so, they were facing each other.
Walking over to her apartment, she opened the door, and went inside, not saying 'Ikari-kun come in' or anything. Shinji stood before the open door for a few seconds and then walked into her apartment. Closing the door while walking in he looked around.
He apartment was a mess, there was bandages lying in a box by the desk, the floor was dirty, as if no one has ever swept or moped it. He felt a bit disgusted. Rei was sitting on her bed, looking at Shinji that was just looking at the floor.
There was nothing said until he moved closer to her. He eyes did not move from his, he felt afraid. The feeling was much more horrific compared to an angel. He moved closer. Her hand moved, pointing to the other side of the bed. Shinji froze at this point, but something in him told him to keep moving.
Moving towards the bed, his thoughts moved from Rei to the bed, the bed sheets were covered with blood. She had not changed them, it was as if she did not care what type of environment she lived in, as long as it was livable.
He sat. Finally Rei looked to another direction as if she was afraid of him. Why would she be? He had never done anything to hurt her, never said anything bad to her. He was Shinji, Commander Ikari's son.
There was no words spoken for quite a while, nothing was said, nothing expressed. It was pure serenity, except the loud noises coming from the construction work. Shinji moved his head towards her window, it was shut, and the blinds were down. He then moved his head towards Rei. Something was eating at him. He couldn't say anything, as if a cat had actually gotten his tongue.
"Ayanami, I…" he spoke the firsts words, and then cut himself off with his own thought.
"Ikari-kun, I have been in thought since the time you asked me why I said those words," she stopped and then continued, "It is this feeling I had since the day I met you, as thought I should be protecting you. You once did the same towards my safety."
This rushed into Shinji's mind, when did he do the same? What did he do to protect her, he started going back in the events that had happened in his life in Tokyo-3. Tilting his head down and looking back at his hands, then it hit him. The first day, the day he came to Nerv, he ran over to hold Rei when the Sachiel attached. He fought Sachiel for her, for her safety, because she was wounded, the first site of her blood made him sick to his stomach, and he didn't want to see any more. He fought for her.
Losing all thought and mind control he broke down to cry, he cried like he had never before, letting it all go. Rei seeing this didn't not understand, she had seen this before. She did not know what to do to stop him from losing it completely. She put her hand on his shoulder. He stopped for a second and fell back onto the bed. Shinji curled up in a ball.
Rei was confused why would Shinji have had reacted to all this the way he did. She thought what other people would do when a person is hurt, so she grabbed him by his hand and pulled him closer. He reacted as if any human would do, grab on and let all the feelings of hopelessness, hurt, pain, every disgusting human emotion drain. His arms rapped around her waist and he lay there, crying. Rei did not budge move or push him away, she liked this feeling. It was comforting to her, his warmth to her and hers to his.
His mind was in a twirl, he did not know what to do now, he lay there, thinking. Rei was doing pretty much the same thing, but was worried that his guardian would be mad that he did not come home, or tell where he was going.
Shinji stopped crying but was still in the same position. It had been at least an hour since he broke out in tears.
"Ikari-kun, it's late," Rei said, trying not to sound cold, but that was hard for her to do. At the same time she was trying to comfort Shinji, by putting her hand on his head.
He understood what she meant, he was better now, he had cried for almost an hour, everyone gets tired after crying for such a long time. Opening his eyes, and letting go of Rei, he stood up.
"I'm sorry, thank you Rei," Shinji spoke in a crackled voice.
"Shinji," she whispered and the turned her head.
Returning to Misato's apartment he did not say anything except hello, not eating or talking to any sort of contact between him and his guardian. He just entered his room and started to listen to his SDAT player while trying to fall asleep.
"Shinji, what's wrong?" Misato asked while standing by his door, not getting an answer she presumed her was asleep. He wasn't thought, he just didn't know what to say, he did not know what happened to him. He was afraid of what was going to happen. It was just a black hole in his mind destroying everything. But there was hope, there was some happiness, he finally understood many things, why Rei is protecting him. And he had someone that would accept him, and would understand why he felt the way he did. He could cry, and would not be shunned.
-To be continued
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