Red Red Sky
Notes: Sorry for taking such a long time, dealing with school/work/life in all and sitting on this pc and typing this story is hard sometimes so I apologize. Everything comes after this chapter, this is the beginning for the revolution.
Chapter 4 - Hope
Walking into the apartment, putting down and starting to think what he got himself into. When he agreed with Rei to stay with her, he forgot one 'minor' detail. There was only one bed, and he didn't want to be an inconvenience. In his mind he had some thoughts, what could happen, standing there stiff as a rock while Rei walked out of the kitchen with some water.
She threw a few pills in her mouth and swallowed with the water. She looked at Shinji who was completely red. She didn't know why he was, and he was starring at the bed. She moved closer to him and put her hand on his shoulder.
"Are you alright Ikari-kun?" she asked. There was no words coming from Shinji's mouth, he just kept on looking. She moved in front of him and waved her hand in front of his eyes. His body jerked and then he looked at Rei.
"Rei, um…" he thought and then spoke again, "Ayanami, where am I going to sleep?"
Rei thought why he was asking the question, of course on the bed, it wasn't the biggest one but it can fit two people. Then something hit her, Shinji would find it uncomfortable to sleep with her, but she guessed it will have to do until they get another bed.
"Ikari-kun you will sleep on the bed with me, but tomorrow we will find a bed for you, or a portable mattress." She replied.
It was around 9p.m., Shinji was getting hungry he hadn't eaten anything after he came back from the Angel battle. Looking around to see if Rei had a kitchen, he walked towards the hall in the apartment. Looking to the left he found the bathroom, looking to the right he saw the kitchen, it was small but it would have to do.
He thought to himself, Rei will probably appreciate him making some dinner. Moving back to the main room, he saw Rei just lying on her bed and just looking at the wall. She was contemplating the lie she told Misato yesterday that Commander Ikari would let Shinji stay with her. How could have she broken her bond with the commander, and why did she defy him?
Shinji moved closer to Rei, as if mesmerized, he couldn't help himself but look at her, laying there, she was beautiful to him. Male like images came to his mind. He got red again, and then tried to overcome them. He had never lived with a girl before, his age, and from what he can tell she liked him. Then he heard his stomach make noise.
"Um… Rei, I am going to go run to the grocery store, I'll be back in about half an hour, and I'll make something to eat," stating what he was going to do. Rei turned her head at him, and looked into his eyes as if she was going to eat him. From the stare he got scared.
"I do not eat meat." She spoke, with quite a cold tone.
"Ok… I'll get you something vegetarian…" he spit what he could after her words ripping him a new one.
"Bye," is all he said when he closed the door behind him. He brought his Nerv debit card with him. That held a small balance for the Eva pilots, so they could buy lunch, clothes and other things. But he never had to use it. He had his clothes, he had everything he wanted or needed rather. Want is another thing, he wanted peace.
Rei, started to think again, when Shinji left. It was getting dark, and she didn't turn on the lights. It was cold, damp, and smelt like blood. Things will have to change she thought, change hurts, but it bleeds too. She would have to live with Shinji. Tomorrow would be the best time to confront commander Ikari, he would protest but she thought she could convince him. If not, she would fight for Shinji.... protect…
She heard the door open and Shinji came back carrying loads of groceries, and what looked like a bouquet of flowers. He put the groceries down on the floor.
Shinji moving closer to Rei, his heart was beating, it was like there was no end. He stuck out his hand holding three roses with different types of green type of leaves around wrapped in see through plastic. The roses were yellow, red, and white. They were big roses that were just about to open. He was afraid that she would not accept them.
"Ayanami, these are for you," he spoke, "I bought them because of gratitude in letting me stay with you, in your apartment, thank you."
Rei looked at him, and then at the flowers, they were great looking. Something in her blood made her feel warm all over, as if it was hot. The room was still dark, but the moonlight hit Shinji and his hand holding the flowers. Rei stood up from the bed, and slowly moved towards Shinji, she could see he was nervous, but why?
She wrapped her hand around the flowers and took them and looked. They were good flowers. He must have paid a lot she thought.
"Thank you Ikari-kun," was all she could say. Looking down at them and turning around, remembering what people did with flowers. She walked into the kitchen, found a glass, poured water in it, and then put the flowers in. Walking out of the kitchen she saw Shinji picking up the groceries and heading her way, she moved to her bed and put it on her table, by the beaker that's been there since she moved in.
Shinji used his cooking skills to make some sort of salad for Rei, and a Chinese dish for himself.
While Shinji was cooking, Rei sat on her bed looking at the flowers he gave her. Red, yellow, white. The colors did not match each other well, but it worked she thought. They were fragile and beautiful. Her female part of her mind took over, and she blushed. Letting go of her muscles in a sitting position she fell back on the bed. The sealing, white, metallic white, how cold, 'gratitude, stay, thank you' she thought and then everything flew flat.
"Ayanami, come eat, I just finished, I hope you like this type of salad," Shinji asked while putting the last touches on her salad.
"I am coming," Rei answered. Walking into the kitchen, she saw Shinji had created a good looking salad. I'm hungry she thought as she sat in front of the dish that Shinji had prepared.
They ate together, Shinji made some Italian dish for him to eat. They ate without a word. Both looking at each other in small glances, they thought of different but the same subject in between.
As they finished they both helped each other washing the dishes. Shinji did most of the work because he insisted. Rei looked at her hands, they were clean, walking over to Shinji she glanced at him again and turned away. The thoughts and sights of what Commander Ikari did with Ritsuko came into Rei's mind. She then tried to push them away, but with no resistance they came back to her mind, her cheeks were red. Shinji did not notice though.
Shinji himself was still fighting a battle in his mind of what is going to happen between him and Rei. 'Am I worth anything, do I need to protect, maybe its for appeasement, maybe for something else', he could not stop running those thoughts through his mind.
After a certain amount of time cleaning up the kitchen they both walked back into the bedroom, it was late. Rei looked like she was preparing to go to bed, Shinji was almost peeing himself. He had never slept in the same bed with a girl his own age. Thoughts ran through his mind, of what could happen, and even maybe what he wished to happen. They annoyed him while Rei went to the bathroom.
Changing his clothes, he got ready to go to sleep. Rei coming out of the bathroom in a white shirt and white panties almost made the young man faint. She looked at him and then turned and walked towards the bed. Shinji grabbed this opportunity to run into the bathroom and get ready. He brushed his teeth with haste, changed into his pajamas, and put his hand around the door knob.
He was afraid, why, he didn't know himself that. It's just a girl he thought, nothing will happen, she is my friend, she wants to protect me, and she does protect me. It all ran through his mind, all the scenarios, it was all going to hell in his own mind.
Reaching into his mind for the courage to turn the knob, then finding this courage he turned the knob and walked through the door.
Finding Rei sitting on her bed, waiting for something, he presumed it was himself. Walking towards her, she just stared at him, there was nothing said until something hit both of them.
Rei did not know what feeling she was having, she thought of Gendo again. 'Why why is there this thought in my mind? What am I feeling?' Rei thought. Tilting her head down, she spoke, "Its time to go to sleep, we are going to be late."
She moved her body under the blanket, and moved over to the back end of the bed, to make room for Shinji. Shinji looking for that courage again tried his best not to show Rei how scared he was. Lifting the blanket up, he slipped his body into the bed. It was still cold, Shinji heard Rei say something but couldn't make it out.
They were under the blanket, facing each other, Rei seemed sad to Shinji as though she was expecting something from him. She looked up at the ceiling and then looked back at Shinji, opened up her mouth and then closed it as though trying to speak but cannot find the right words to say.
Shinji kept on looking at her, she was beautiful he thought, how lucky he was to be in the same bed with such a beauty. But then thoughts of shame came out. He felt ashamed of what he was thinking and the types of imagery that was flying through his mind.
But then Rei's eyes looked straight into his own eyes. She seemed that she wanted something or expected something. Shinji looked back afraid.
"Shinji, kiss me," Rei Spoke.
Shinji couldn't respond he froze like a tennis ball in liquid nitrogen. She looked like she was getting mad because there was no response from him.
"Shinji, kiss me!" Rei exclaimed with authority type of demeanor.
Shinji broke like ice, he looked at her, it was a command. Shinji listened what people told him to do. It took all the courage he had left. He inched closer and closer. Sweat started building up on his forehead.
Contact.
They both contacted in the kiss, enjoying each others saliva, for a moment and then breaking it off at the same time. Shinji from this moved his body so that he was facing up, he was scared what she was going to say. She did not say anything, but she did move her body, and wrapped her right arm around Shinji. She felt at home, she felt warm, Shinji though felt a little out of place, he was so not used to this, after a certain amount of time he got used to it and put his right arm around her.
There was only one thing to be said by both of them, but only Rei managed to say it "warmth".
They were both in pure serenity, enjoying each others company.
She moved her head up to see Shinji and smiled at him like she at the end of the angel fight but this smile meant more to Shinji than the other one.
Then the final hours came around, both were sleeping. They did not stir or anything, enjoying every minute of their embrace. Shinji felt as though his heart just lost one of the biggest weights in the history of his puny little life. Rei felt something but she couldn't understand it, it was eating at her stomach, as though afraid to lose what she was feeling right now with Shinji.
The moon shined through the window, and there was no noise coming from the construction sight, they both were asleep and morning was going to be awaiting them the next day.
-Aramazd, I don't know why but I had to make this chapter all "lovy dovy". People in pain look to share the pain with other, Shinji always had this problem of sharing well now he can share his pain and happiness with someone.