Title: Past.
Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade or the song 'Bring me back to life'
Ok people. I am updating...but it takes a long time to find a damn song so if you wish to help me find music...so I can update sooner, e-mail me at
Also you have to blame my computer for breaking down, and my boyfriend taking up my time, and for school coming round again so I have to prepare. Yeah well...I'll try updating asap from now on. Love you all.
Rei's actually helping me...this isn't right, I know what his feelings are...but this is my past, it has nothing to do with him.
But I can just watch him sleep while this damn bus takes us to the airport. It's bad enough that my dad could be alive, but he's bloody in England!
God, why did I let Rei pack my music, he only packed one CD...I may like Evanescence but by the end of this journey I'm going to want to burn the CD.
How can you see into my eyes, like open doors, leading you down into my core, where I've become so numb.
I gently look over to Rei seeing him sleep quietly, like in a little cat nap, he's quite cute like that. But I still want to know why he's helping me. No one could or should help and heartless fool like me, I mean I made Max cry only five hours ago. I'm not exactly a nice person, so why does Rei love me...well I don't think it's love no one could love someone as cold as me.
I think it's the abbey that made me so emotionless, I'm not exactly the kindest person alive. I was taught not to be, power is the only thing that someone should care about, keep respect over your bit beasts and that's all the feeling you should feel...then only feel shame when you lose, but then...you should never lose.
Exactly what I was taught, exactly what I've always thought.
Without a soul, my spirit sleeping someone cold, until you find it there and bring it back home...
But ever since I met him I've been happier, less moody and more smiles have reached my lips, jokes actually seem funny now...instead of me laughing at everyone losing to the power of Dranzer, though I still find that funny but who wouldn't. I mean the little kids bursting into tears when their bit beasts fail to win, it's seriously funny...but Rei's been teaching me not to be like that anyway more. But it's really hard.
wake me up inside, wake me up inside, call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run, before I come undone, save me from the nothing I've become.
Reis' PoV.
I can hear Kai tapping his fingers against the chair arm, I hope he doesn't mind the music I packed for him. He looks so...worried...it's not right. I've always loved to turn around, in any situation, and see him smiling or calm, it's a great feeling to know that one of us knows everything is ok. I know it sounds weird but I'm glad that he's so calm, it's what made me love him, he's always calm, and so cold but I know he's warm on the inside, and I know I can melt the ice away then just hug his warmth. :sigh: I love him...I can't explain why. I just do.
I know he had a problem with :cough: stress. He used to cut himself...that's why he wears those arm shields, but he acts like it's nothing. He mutilated his arm...I have seen the scars when I accidentally walked in on him in the shower :blush:
I see his arm tense up slightly as we go under a tunnel in the bus, I hate seeing him upset, why is this man such a big deal?
Now that I know what I'm without, you can't just leave me, breathe into me and make me real, bring me to life
Kai...no matter how this turns out, I hope you know I still care about you...
Kais' PoV.
I can see Rei looking at me, I didn't notice that he'd woken up, but his eyes are now golden, like the sun when it's only just risen, I hope he stays like that, those eyes are beautiful, they remind me of a phoenix's flames when they are re born, pale and soft.
I feel so angry, we're closer to the air port than I'd like, and why the hell are we going here? I don't care about whether this guy is my father or not, I shouldn't leave this country, I shouldn't care about this man but I do I guess it's because I've spent most of my life thinking I only had my grandfather left in the world. Grr! :slam:
Rei's looking at me...ok so maybe it's because I just slammed my fist onto the window. Why wouldn't the god damn fucking thing break/. That would help, then the glass would be stuck in my skin...I'd feel less stressed if I saw blood.
Wake me up inside, wake me up inside, call my name and save me from the dark. Bid my blood to run, before I come undone, save me from the nothing I've become, bring me to life
This song is really starting to get to me now, I wanna throw this disk to the floor and watch it shatter. Shattering...shattering like my coldness, I'm actually starting to get emotional about this god damn discovery, GAH! This isn't fair, I've spent too long keeping cold to let this ONE tiny thing break all of it, it's not right and it isn't fair. What the hell am I saying life isn't fair I really cannot believe this. :takes a deep breath: I have to calm down again...I need to change the song to 'Hello'.
Wait...why am I shaking?...I'm shaking too much to press the button. FUCK THIS! Fuck emotions I don't get emotional. I'm Kai, everyone hates my sarcastic nature...I hate it too but still...
I have to walk around otherwise I'm going to snap...I'm truly going to snap. The bus isn't too long but walking up and down the aisle will do for now I guess. Rei's watching me with a confused look. Why can't be turn his eyes away from me, well from my eyes, he keeps locking his with mine every few steps. It's starting to make me want to...NO NO NO!
A cold person does not long for that. I don't want it...Not now! I do not need comforting, not now...now...ever...
Frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead
Kai's stopped pacing, he looking towards me...he's looking into his eyes. I can't keep my eyes from his. I didn't even notice him walking towards me and sitting down beside me, his hand placed on top of mine.
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see, kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
Rei's eyes are so beautiful and his hands are so warm...no matter how cold it is outside he entire body is always warm...whether he feels it or not. His hair seems to out of place with his golden eyes. Why can't I stop staring at him. He's so perfect...
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems, got to open my eyes to everything
I smile slightly as Kai leans forward and I lean forward myself, making my lips touch his gently. I blush as he starts kissing me and I wrap my arms around him. Kai...I love you and I want you to smile like you used to do...I love you with my heart.
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
His body is so warm, I don't care if I know he's sympathetic towards how I'm feeling. He's perfect, he's so...no words can describe him and I want him not to let go of me...
Don't let me die here, there must be something more, bring me to life.
Kai...we're at the airport...you have to stop kissing me...I won't let go of you...I won't let you fall...Kai please...if you don't stop I'm not going to let go of you...and we'll be stuck here until we die...Kai please...
I promise I'll help you through this...I promise.
And that is the third chapter finished. Geez that was like three days writing and thinking done in an hour...please can I have some reviews? Pretty please?
Btw...anyone who wants to work out the plot, go ahead. You really won't
Love ya'll. Bye
Phoenix147.