Title: Past.
Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade or this song.
a/n: sorry folks, this is what was really happening! Ha thanks for playing, you have some lovely parting gifts.
Also I apologize, my comp crashed and I lost everything. So sorry here it is now.
I walked into the building and looked around seeing my father standing with his arms crossed.
The bastard even has my stance I thought bitterly as I walked over to the older man; the ass simply glanced at me and then started walking towards a room. I glanced around and blinked, we're in a posh café, and father was heading for a secret room, I simply have to follow.
In next room there was simply a table and a chair, both white, but the room was peach and pink, peach on the walls, pink tiles on the floor. I simply sat down across from the man, my own arms crossed and leaning back on the stupid chair.
"So, go on" I said simply and coldly. He looked at me coldly and sat down across from me. I waited for him to start, hoping he'd just bloody hurry up.
"Well Kai, you obviously want this over now right?" he asked, I glared even more; he took that as a yes and took a breath before beginning.
"When your mother had you, it was an unwanted shock, she was a simple slut and I...well I just didn't want children" he said with a shrug, "But my 'wife' had a heart of gold and said giving you up would just take a toll on your mind and you'd be angry and all that bullshit" he waved his hand to show it was of little explanation, "So I simply said I'd only keep you if you were going to help 'promote' our family" he laughed.
If I didn't want to hear the rest then I would have punched he laughter away.
Hey dad look at me think back and talk to me. Did I grow up according to plan?
"But, still, we had to get you away from us, I mean, your mother was a slut who fucked a guy a night if it was slow and I just hated children so, simple thing was, kill ourselves off" he smiled widely.
"We hired a friend to get his gun and 'mug' us, then I would die and your mother would pretend to kill herself, luckily we found some of that acting blood" his laughing continued.
"We knew you'd run to your grandfather, and then, he'd teach you to be a great blader so, our plan was perfect, but, we didn't count on your not repressing your memories, so really this is your fault" he smiled widely "Ok finished, now I can leave, you grew up as I wanted and now I wash my hands of you"
And do you think I'm wasting my time. Doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along
That's when I snapped, as he stood to leave, I shot up and walked over to him, grabbing him by his shoulders and forcing him down into his chair.
"NO! You are sitting and explaining everything!" I yelled, growling under my breath, "Why did you fuck around with someone without protection and then totally bail out on being a parent? Why did you think I would repress that memory? Why did you actually act like a parent before pretending to die? WHY?"
I yelled louder, clenching my fists tightly.
His face could have made anyone laugh, he was so shocked, and seemingly scared of me.
Then his face toughened.
"I fucked without protection because she said she was on the pill, ok? I prefer feeling the sluts on me ok?" he asked, crossing his arms again. I ignored the shudder of disgust that rose through me as he continued.
"I thought that bad memories got repressed in teen years, I'm so sorry" he said the last part with obvious sarcasm, "I acted like a parents so you'd think more about it"
I almost punched him...but something stopped me.
And now I try hard to make it, I just want to make you proud. I'm never gonna be good enough for you. Can't pretend that I'm all right and you can't change me...
He was my father, he gave it to my mom and got her to 'make' me...so it just stopped me from hurting him...then the worst part came into play, the fact that I was like him in so many ways...it scared me...then, for some odd reason, it amused me as well.
"Why are you laughing?" he asked, confused.
"You're my father, so technically, I can come visit you whenever I want, I'll just track the sluts down," I smirked and then he glared.
"Ya know, if you leave me alone, I could let you have an hour with some sluts" he offered, obviously trying to get rid of me.
"No, sorry, I don't like girls" I replied "I'm already taken; my boyfriend's waiting for me outside" I almost wanted to hit him when I saw the look of disgust on his face.
"My son is gay?" he asked slowly.
"Yep, living in an abbey full of men and boys totally turned me" I said, over exaggerating it, to gross him out. His face seemed to tinge green. Oh it gets better, my dads a homophobe, how fucking great.
'Cuz we lost it all, nothing last forever. I'm sorry I can't be perfect, now it's just too late and we can't go back, I'm sorry I can't be perfect
He looked me up and down "How are you gay!?" he asked, sounding like he'd turn hysterical.
"I don't like girls, it is that simple" I replied with a shrug while shoving my hands into my pockets, I was loving this, the man who wanted me out of his life was getting annoyed with my sexual decision, I wish he was dead.
This jerk...this man ruined my mental world; I've spent most of my life in pain, thinking about that stupid moment when he died causing my mom to die...I want him dead for real now.
I try not to think, about the pain I feel inside. Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me, now seem so far away and it feels like you don't care anymore.
I pulled my hands out of my pockets as he stood up and clenched my fists and growled deeply, "You aren't moving" I snapped, going to grab his shoulders again only to receive a punch in the nose, I moved back and growled in pain, blinking back the tears that had gathered, as I saw him running out, yelling curse words at me. I rush after him, only getting to the door a second after him, I push it open and run after him, I have the advantage, he's been fucking around for 16 years, I've been working out, I grab his shoulders and force him to face me and shove him into a wall.
"You're not going!" I shout into his face.
His right arm tenses, he's going to hit me, so I grab his wrist, growling deeply, "I'm not finished talking to you"
He glared at me but I kept my stone cold glare at him.
I'm suddenly aware of Rei's eyes on me, I don't let go of my father though I just slam him more into it and walk over to Rei and look him in the eyes. He nods softly and kisses my cheek before I turn to my father. "Here you go dad this is Rei, my boyfriend"
I watched in even more amusement, as he wanted looked Rei up and down, then my face fell as he smirked and walked up to Rei, putting his fingers under his chin and making him life his gaze to meet my dads.
"Well well well Kai, you found a pretty girl" he smirked, "Seriously, you almost fooled me with the male clothes, but she really is a cute girl"
I growled deeply and grabbed his hand pulling him away from Rei, "Don't you DARE touch my boyfriend" I hiss at him.
He blinks a few times "It's a girl Kai"
"No sir, I'm a man, really" Rei nodded and smiled, "I could show you my proof"
My dad suddenly jumped away, looking sickened, that's when I laugh out loud again.
And now I try hard to make it, I just want to make you proud, I'm never gonna be good enough for you. I can't stand another fight, and nothing's alright
Rei glared "Have you got something wrong with gays?" he asked stiffly, I smile and put my arm around Rei's waist.
"Yes, it's sickening, now if my son has finishedI'm going to go back to my whores" my dad said, as he started to walk off.
'Cuz we lost it all, nothing lasts forever. I'm sorry, I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late and we can't go back, I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.
That's when Rei moved, he bought up a sharp roundhouse kick and caught my dad in the back, I smiled and took Rei's clenched fist and held it, feeling it unclench and hold mine.
My dad walked off, holding his back and heading away cursing loudly at us; I looked to Rei and smiled widely, "Thanks"
"Not a problem" he replied kissing my cheek.
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said. Nothing's gonna make this right again. Please don't turn your back, I can't believe it's hard, just to talk to you, but you don't understand.
Rei looked at me, with a concerned glint in his golden eyes, it may have been an hour later, but I still felt hurt and a bit broken.
"Kai?" he said quietly but I shook my head.
"I'm going for a walk" I told him standing up from the tree we were leaning against, I was lucky to have Rei, but now, I just needed to be alone.
Hope it was worth the wait, if not I will so make it up to you.
Greenday fans will LOVE the next chapter.
Phoenix147