Raven looked at Torey, who looked at James, who was pissed. The two of them decided
it'd be best if they just let him alone and let him vent after what had taken place in the
dorm. They walked back to the dorm without saying a word to him. They would just have
to get the information from Lily.
When they got back to the dorm, they realized that wasn't gonna happen. They looked all around the Gryffindor tower, Lily was nowhere to be found. They finally noticed a note on her dresser when they went back into the dorm disgusted that they hadn't found her. It said:
Dear Raven and Torey,
I had to leave the castle to clear my head of a lot of things. I don't know where I'm going yet, but I know I can't go home, I'd have to answer way to many questions. As soon as I get where I'm staying I'll let you know. Please don't show this to anyone and don't let anyone know that you heard from me. Let everybody, especially James, think that I just disappeared or something like that. Well obviously I have to leave, so I'll send you notice as soon as I get where I'm going. I'll talk to you soon.
Love,
Lily P.S. Remember, no matter what, no mention of this to anyone!
"We can't listen to what she said, we have to tell James that she is gone, before it's too late," Torey said.
"I completely agree with you," Raven frowned, "Let's go"
They looked all over the Gryffindor tower for James, but he was nowhere to be found. Then it finally hit them that he was probably with the only person who could cheer him up, Sirius Black. The only problem was, they had no clue where Sirius was. They'd have to find him though, because James needed to know what happened with Lily.
They had just about given up after checking every inch of the castle. Then they thought about the one place they hadn't checked, the air, James was probably flying. They ran out to the field where sure enough, they found James.
"James," Torey yelled.
"What do you want," he replied hastily.
"James, calm down, it's not exactly the best time for your attitude," Raven spoke up. "It's Lily, she's gone, we have no clue where she is"
He quickly spun his broom around in mid-air and started to land again before he started to speak again. "What do you mean she's gone"
When he got back to the ground, they showed him the note. Before they could say even a word, he was running toward the castle at full speed. Raven looked at Torey who was watching James in awe with his amazing running skills. "Wow," they both said together as if on cue. Raven shook her head and turned back to Torey, "Whatever happened between the two of them must have been something very, very big"
Torey shook her head in agreement. "But where is he going? It's not like they have some psychic connection, he has no clue where she even is"
"That's exactly what I think, too. But maybe he does know where she is, I've always said they had some kind of connection." "Yeah, but I really hope you're right about this one, because Lily could be in trouble, without James or herself knowing it." Both girls quickly wiped a tear that was building in their eyes. Their best friend was now missing.
They decided it'd be best to find James and see if he knows anything. They walked back up to the castle, into the Great Hall, where they saw James crying. This was the final thing either of them could take. James Potter was crying, that was something they never thought would happen. They ran over to him and sat down next to him. It was that instant that the feeling of loneliness without Lily finally completely set in. James picked his head up from being cupped in his hands. His face was red and it looked raw. He needed to be comforted but neither knew how to do it. "James, it's going to be okay, we'll find her. I know you care about her, but you're crying, are you sure you're okay?" Torey asked.
"It's not that," he shouted. "If I hadn't left after it today, if I just heard her out,
then maybe she'd be sitting here right now next to me: safe"
"What are you talking about?" Raven asked looking confused.
"After what happened today, she'll never talk to me again. This is all my fault. I should have heard her out, I shouldn't have left, I should have comforted her"
"James get a grip on yourself," Torey yelled. "What happened between the two of you today? Why is this all your fault"
"I…I… I slept with her." He started to cry into his hands again. "Then I left… I left without even hearing her out. Then I went back to talk to her and she would barely even look at me never mind talk to me, although if I were her and she were me, I wouldn't talk to me either." "James Potter, You what?" Raven screamed, half amazed, half upset.
"Um, Rave, you heard him, don't make him say it again," Torey said trying very hard to comfort her yet calm her down at the same time.
"You had sex with her?" Raven glared at James as if ready to attack him. "How could you? Even if she was willing, how could you? She is so fragile and now God only knows where she is. And you're sitting here telling me it's because you screwed her?
Damn you Potter, couldn't you control yourself?" Raven was outraged. Her best friend was missing and it was because of her boyfriend's best friend. She was totally caught in the middle.
"I know this is my fault, you don't have to make me feel ten times worse." He glared as if slightly getting annoyed with Raven's sudden burst of hatred toward him.
"Now, if you don't mind, I'm going to go and try to find Lily before any more time is wasted." He got up without turning back to look at them, and he walked out of the castle towards the Forbidden Forest. Where could she be? Is she okay? What is she gonna say when she sees me? What the hell did I get myself into? Damn it!! Damn me and my stupid asshole behavior. I wish I could just grow up already and tell her how I feel… I love her!
He was now walking almost an hour. He had his hands shoved deep into his pockets just trying to keep them warm on this cold, frigid night. If he had read the Marauder's Map correctly, he should be finding her within the next hour. At least he hoped he would be. Then, suddenly, he heard screaming coming from a couple hundred feet away. It was Lily, he just knew it!
"Help, help me please. Anyone, just help me," he heard very faintly. He had to get to her. For a couple of minutes everything went silent. Thank god it was long enough for him to yell to her.
"Lily, where are you? Are you okay? Lily, can you hear me?" he yelled.
There was no reply. What was going on? Was someone toying with him, or worse,
with her? He had to find her, because obviously, she was in danger.
Everything went silent once again. Then he heard even fainter screaming then some one snickering. Snape. James ran at full speed, as he had earlier, to where the screams had been coming from. He paused when he saw the sight ahead of him. "Lily," he whispered. She didn't move. There was blood all around her lower body. What had that creep done to her?
He ran over to her. He then realized that the blood wasn't form her body, she must have just passed out. He knew she had been out here for a while, but he had no idea exactly how long. He picked her head up slowly and cradled her like a baby. "Lily, wake up. Lily,
you need to wake up"
She slowly tilted her head and opened her eyes. She looked up at James and her face shot to a shock of horror. "You did this to me. You psycho. Get out of here, get away from me"
He wasn't exactly sure what to say. He knew in his heart that she wasn't talking to him about that afternoon, so what was she talking about? "Lily, are you okay? What happened? And what do you mean I did this to you"
"I mean you threw me through the air like a fuckin' rock. I hit my head and slowly dazed off, but I was conscious, and I watched you. You walked away, you left me here to die." She started to cry.
He wanted nothing more than to comfort her, but he knew he couldn't. She was looking in his eyes, she thought he hurt her, he would never hurt her. "Lily, I didn't do any of that to you. I was out here looking for you, you left the castle without telling anyone where you were going. That's not like you at all, are you okay? Did you only leave because of what happened earlier today? Anyway, I heard you screaming and I came in the direction of the yells. Lily, I would never do anything to hurt you, ever"
The look of horror on her face went to a quick change of confusion. "What are you talking about? What castle? Who are you? What's your name"
He then realized where all the questions were coming from, when she hit her head,
she must have lost her memory. She doesn't even know who I am!! "I'm talking about 'Hogwarts', the school we go to. I'm one of your…" he paused as if not knowing what he wanted to say. He knew the word to say was friends, but he wanted to be so much more.
"I'm one of your friends. My name is James Potter"
When the words 'James Potter' came out of his mouth, a smile flashed across her face. "That name, it means something to me doesn't it? I know it does, I just don't know what it means! Can you take me back up to the castle, Potter?
He smiled at her widely when he heard her call him Potter. Is she just playing with me? He looked back at her lying helplessly on the ground. No she is hurt and I need to get her to the hospital wing. "Yeah, the name defiantly means something to you. We can go to Hogwarts if you feel ready. There is a lot of people up there that really are worried about you. We all missed you." She has some memory, she called me Potter, she has to remember something!
"Yes, I'm ready." She stood up. Her legs wobbled a little from underneath her. He went to grab a hold of her, but she stopped him. "I'm fine." She smiled. He then felt the first real smile that he had flashed since the afternoon widen across his face.
Even when she can't remember anything, she remembers that she is too strong and independent to let anyone ever help her. "Then let's go." They walked rather slowly toward the castle. When they finally got to the front gates, she stood looking in astonishment. He gently pulled her into the castle. He knew very well that he needed to get her to the hospital wing. Hopefully, Madame Pomphrey will know what to do!
When they got back to the dorm, they realized that wasn't gonna happen. They looked all around the Gryffindor tower, Lily was nowhere to be found. They finally noticed a note on her dresser when they went back into the dorm disgusted that they hadn't found her. It said:
Dear Raven and Torey,
I had to leave the castle to clear my head of a lot of things. I don't know where I'm going yet, but I know I can't go home, I'd have to answer way to many questions. As soon as I get where I'm staying I'll let you know. Please don't show this to anyone and don't let anyone know that you heard from me. Let everybody, especially James, think that I just disappeared or something like that. Well obviously I have to leave, so I'll send you notice as soon as I get where I'm going. I'll talk to you soon.
Love,
Lily P.S. Remember, no matter what, no mention of this to anyone!
"We can't listen to what she said, we have to tell James that she is gone, before it's too late," Torey said.
"I completely agree with you," Raven frowned, "Let's go"
They looked all over the Gryffindor tower for James, but he was nowhere to be found. Then it finally hit them that he was probably with the only person who could cheer him up, Sirius Black. The only problem was, they had no clue where Sirius was. They'd have to find him though, because James needed to know what happened with Lily.
They had just about given up after checking every inch of the castle. Then they thought about the one place they hadn't checked, the air, James was probably flying. They ran out to the field where sure enough, they found James.
"James," Torey yelled.
"What do you want," he replied hastily.
"James, calm down, it's not exactly the best time for your attitude," Raven spoke up. "It's Lily, she's gone, we have no clue where she is"
He quickly spun his broom around in mid-air and started to land again before he started to speak again. "What do you mean she's gone"
When he got back to the ground, they showed him the note. Before they could say even a word, he was running toward the castle at full speed. Raven looked at Torey who was watching James in awe with his amazing running skills. "Wow," they both said together as if on cue. Raven shook her head and turned back to Torey, "Whatever happened between the two of them must have been something very, very big"
Torey shook her head in agreement. "But where is he going? It's not like they have some psychic connection, he has no clue where she even is"
"That's exactly what I think, too. But maybe he does know where she is, I've always said they had some kind of connection." "Yeah, but I really hope you're right about this one, because Lily could be in trouble, without James or herself knowing it." Both girls quickly wiped a tear that was building in their eyes. Their best friend was now missing.
They decided it'd be best to find James and see if he knows anything. They walked back up to the castle, into the Great Hall, where they saw James crying. This was the final thing either of them could take. James Potter was crying, that was something they never thought would happen. They ran over to him and sat down next to him. It was that instant that the feeling of loneliness without Lily finally completely set in. James picked his head up from being cupped in his hands. His face was red and it looked raw. He needed to be comforted but neither knew how to do it. "James, it's going to be okay, we'll find her. I know you care about her, but you're crying, are you sure you're okay?" Torey asked.
"It's not that," he shouted. "If I hadn't left after it today, if I just heard her out,
then maybe she'd be sitting here right now next to me: safe"
"What are you talking about?" Raven asked looking confused.
"After what happened today, she'll never talk to me again. This is all my fault. I should have heard her out, I shouldn't have left, I should have comforted her"
"James get a grip on yourself," Torey yelled. "What happened between the two of you today? Why is this all your fault"
"I…I… I slept with her." He started to cry into his hands again. "Then I left… I left without even hearing her out. Then I went back to talk to her and she would barely even look at me never mind talk to me, although if I were her and she were me, I wouldn't talk to me either." "James Potter, You what?" Raven screamed, half amazed, half upset.
"Um, Rave, you heard him, don't make him say it again," Torey said trying very hard to comfort her yet calm her down at the same time.
"You had sex with her?" Raven glared at James as if ready to attack him. "How could you? Even if she was willing, how could you? She is so fragile and now God only knows where she is. And you're sitting here telling me it's because you screwed her?
Damn you Potter, couldn't you control yourself?" Raven was outraged. Her best friend was missing and it was because of her boyfriend's best friend. She was totally caught in the middle.
"I know this is my fault, you don't have to make me feel ten times worse." He glared as if slightly getting annoyed with Raven's sudden burst of hatred toward him.
"Now, if you don't mind, I'm going to go and try to find Lily before any more time is wasted." He got up without turning back to look at them, and he walked out of the castle towards the Forbidden Forest. Where could she be? Is she okay? What is she gonna say when she sees me? What the hell did I get myself into? Damn it!! Damn me and my stupid asshole behavior. I wish I could just grow up already and tell her how I feel… I love her!
He was now walking almost an hour. He had his hands shoved deep into his pockets just trying to keep them warm on this cold, frigid night. If he had read the Marauder's Map correctly, he should be finding her within the next hour. At least he hoped he would be. Then, suddenly, he heard screaming coming from a couple hundred feet away. It was Lily, he just knew it!
"Help, help me please. Anyone, just help me," he heard very faintly. He had to get to her. For a couple of minutes everything went silent. Thank god it was long enough for him to yell to her.
"Lily, where are you? Are you okay? Lily, can you hear me?" he yelled.
There was no reply. What was going on? Was someone toying with him, or worse,
with her? He had to find her, because obviously, she was in danger.
Everything went silent once again. Then he heard even fainter screaming then some one snickering. Snape. James ran at full speed, as he had earlier, to where the screams had been coming from. He paused when he saw the sight ahead of him. "Lily," he whispered. She didn't move. There was blood all around her lower body. What had that creep done to her?
He ran over to her. He then realized that the blood wasn't form her body, she must have just passed out. He knew she had been out here for a while, but he had no idea exactly how long. He picked her head up slowly and cradled her like a baby. "Lily, wake up. Lily,
you need to wake up"
She slowly tilted her head and opened her eyes. She looked up at James and her face shot to a shock of horror. "You did this to me. You psycho. Get out of here, get away from me"
He wasn't exactly sure what to say. He knew in his heart that she wasn't talking to him about that afternoon, so what was she talking about? "Lily, are you okay? What happened? And what do you mean I did this to you"
"I mean you threw me through the air like a fuckin' rock. I hit my head and slowly dazed off, but I was conscious, and I watched you. You walked away, you left me here to die." She started to cry.
He wanted nothing more than to comfort her, but he knew he couldn't. She was looking in his eyes, she thought he hurt her, he would never hurt her. "Lily, I didn't do any of that to you. I was out here looking for you, you left the castle without telling anyone where you were going. That's not like you at all, are you okay? Did you only leave because of what happened earlier today? Anyway, I heard you screaming and I came in the direction of the yells. Lily, I would never do anything to hurt you, ever"
The look of horror on her face went to a quick change of confusion. "What are you talking about? What castle? Who are you? What's your name"
He then realized where all the questions were coming from, when she hit her head,
she must have lost her memory. She doesn't even know who I am!! "I'm talking about 'Hogwarts', the school we go to. I'm one of your…" he paused as if not knowing what he wanted to say. He knew the word to say was friends, but he wanted to be so much more.
"I'm one of your friends. My name is James Potter"
When the words 'James Potter' came out of his mouth, a smile flashed across her face. "That name, it means something to me doesn't it? I know it does, I just don't know what it means! Can you take me back up to the castle, Potter?
He smiled at her widely when he heard her call him Potter. Is she just playing with me? He looked back at her lying helplessly on the ground. No she is hurt and I need to get her to the hospital wing. "Yeah, the name defiantly means something to you. We can go to Hogwarts if you feel ready. There is a lot of people up there that really are worried about you. We all missed you." She has some memory, she called me Potter, she has to remember something!
"Yes, I'm ready." She stood up. Her legs wobbled a little from underneath her. He went to grab a hold of her, but she stopped him. "I'm fine." She smiled. He then felt the first real smile that he had flashed since the afternoon widen across his face.
Even when she can't remember anything, she remembers that she is too strong and independent to let anyone ever help her. "Then let's go." They walked rather slowly toward the castle. When they finally got to the front gates, she stood looking in astonishment. He gently pulled her into the castle. He knew very well that he needed to get her to the hospital wing. Hopefully, Madame Pomphrey will know what to do!
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