Chapter 3

"Where am I?" Lily asked as she looked around the room. She knew where she was, she was just unsure of how she had got there. "Calm down Miss Evans," Madame Pomphrey said quietly. "Do you remember anything that happened last night?
Lily looked around the hospital wing with confusion, trying to get a memory of who had brought her here the night before. "I remember Snape, he followed me through the forest when I left here last night. He followed me to the spot, the spot where I saw blood. I stopped, it was unicorn blood, so I figured it was hurt nearby. I turned around to see Snape snickering, as if he was ready to do something to me. I didn't know what to do, so I screamed, I yelled for help. He was startled, he told me to shut up. I didn't listen. He walked over to me and grabbed me. He lifted me…" She shuddered a little. "That's the last thing I remember." She started to let tears roll from her eyes. She wasn't crying about what she had just said, she was crying about leaving in the first place, it hadn't solved anything. She still had feelings for James, but she knew she'd never be with him, so what good had any of this done? None.
James heard her crying as he walked by in the hallway. He poked his head around the corner to find her awake, talking to Madame Pomphrey. He walked over to the bed. "Does she remember?" he asked hopefully. Madame Pomphrey nodded. "Then do you mind if I have a few minutes with her?" She shook her head and left the cubicle. "Lily, how are you?" He went over and sat at the edge of her bed. "I'm… I'm… I'm fine I guess. Just a little confused. You… you're here… talking to me?" She wiped the tears from her eyes and stared at him.
He reached out for her hand and held it tight. "Yes, I'm here, what happened? Why did you leave? If I hadn't found you…" He shuddered just as Lily had earlier. "Well, that wouldn't have been good"
Lily now gave him an even bigger look of confusion. "You found me? How did you know where to look? Why did you even come looking for me? How did you know where I ran to?" She was fill of questions for him, but she knew he'd have a lot of answers in return.
"Raven showed me the letter, Lily. She wasn't going to not tell me. She knows how much I care for you. And quite frankly, I'm glad she told me and right now you're being a bitch for not thanking me for saving your life," he said harshly. He turned away after he had realized what he had just said. He saw tears once again flowing from her eyes. "I'm sorry," he turned to her again. "I didn't mean to say that. I was upset that's all. I'm sorry. Lily please stop crying. I hate it when you cry"
She turned her face away from him, wiped the tears out of her eyes, then turned back to face him. "I can not believe you just said that. For one, I never said I wasn't thankful for you finding me. I thought I was going to die out there. And secondly, just because you played hero and saved me, you were the reason I was out there in the first place, in case you forgot…"
He knew she wasn't finished, but he wasn't going to let her blame her for all of what had happened the day before, so he cut her off. "Stop, Lily, stop. You know that is totally unfair to me. I know I should've listened to you after, well you know. But that didn't give you any reason to run away. And if you were going to run away, why in the hell would you go into the forest at night? Are you insane?" He looked at her waiting for an answer. She didn't give him one.
She rolled over and with his back to him said, "Get out… Get the hell out of my room!!" She could feel him give a shift on the bed, but he didn't get up. "Lily listen to me. We both had faults yesterday. But we also shared something wonderful." Even though she wasn't looking at him, he could tell he had her full attention. Now was when he needed to tell her exactly how he felt, when she was actually listening. "Lily… I…" Just as he was going to say it Raven and Torey walked in. "Hey girl," Raven said cheerfully. She looked to see Lily's face and she could tell she had been crying. "Lily, what's wrong? You should be so happy right now. You're alive!" She gave Lily a big hug, but Lily didn't return the hug, she just sat there limply. "Yeah," Torey joined in. "Cheer up"
"Could you guys leave?" Lily said coldly. "It's not that I don't want you here, it's just that I need to talk to James, alone"
"Yeah, that's fine," Raven started. "Hope you feel better Hun, I'll talk to you later"
"Byez Lils. Don't get too rowdy in here now," Torey winked as she walked out the door laughing to herself. Lily said her goodbyes then looked back towards James. "Now, where were we? What were you going to say before they walked in? Yeah, our sex was special, it was good. Is that what you were going to say? How good our sex was?" without knowing it, she could always make him feel so guilty, even when he knows he did nothing wrong. Instead of letting her get to him, he stood up, looked down at her angel face, Yeah, that's what it was, the face of an angel, then said in a stern voice, "Wanna know what I was gonna say to you, I was gonna tell you that I love you, but now I think that I was crazy, because there's no way in hell that I could love a bitch like you. There's no way in fuckin hell." He stood breathing deeply, feeling pretty good about finally saying something that upset her, she done it to him enough, and now, he had finally gotten to return the favor. He calmed himself down then nicely said, "Good-bye," as he left the cubicle.
She lied there, unable to move, unable to speak, even unable to think. Why didn't she say something to him? Why didn't she stop him from saying that stuff to her? It had actually hurt her, she never knew how much something James Potter would say would hurt her. Now she did. It felt like he had just put a knife through her heart. She wanted him to love her, not hurt her, but then again, she had hurt him, and maybe all he had wanted was love from her, too.
If she had just thought about what she had done… what he had done… maybe things would be different now. Maybe he wouldn't be hurt… maybe she wouldn't be hurt…just maybe they'd be sharing their love for each other instead of bitching at each other over whose fault the last fight was, about who was right and who was wrong.
"Miss Evans, are you feeling up to leaving today?" Madame Pomphrey asked as she returned to the room.
I wanna leave, I want to talk to him, but if I go to talk to him, will he ever speak to me again? "Yes, I'm ready and up to leaving"
"Okay, you can get dressed and leave. Would you like me to have someone come down and help you back up to your dorm"
"Yes," she answered, "James Potter," she finished without hesitating. For the first time in two full days, a real smile flashed across her face.