Chapter 3 Let me be Alone

AN: Thankyou sooooooo much for your reviews. Oh a msg 2 I-gots-no-socks I have a soft spot for Seymour too but he's the bad guy in others so I have to make him the bad guy in this it's the only way for things to work. Also Peformula Al Bhed translator I'm not nagging I just think it would be better in chap1 to use it I don't think I'll use any more Al Bhed so it's not vital and I defeated Mindy, Sandy and Cindy (YAY!) Anima was easy. By the way Luthae is pronounced Loothay if you hadn't guessed. Well that's all, I've got Word working so enjoy.

Come on Luthae it's your brother how hard can it be?

It was hard very hard. Not to actually do the task but what Seymour would do to me afterward. He always did the same thing he always took embarrassing things in a cool and collected way. In Macalania no one really laughed as much as they would. He was scary in that way, but afterwards he'd hit me. I had been quite a rule breaker in Macalania. First it was 'talking tos' but now it's hitting. It wasn't as bad now I was used to it I never would have got through without her though, but I never thought I'd get so mad as to do what I did soon after that...

Luthae walked over to the sixth formers table. There was an obvious sign she was nervous but she just took everything in her stride. The others all were silent listening over the noise of the rest of the dining room.

"Seymour," she started to say

"What?" he replied bored not looking up.

"I love you." She carried on. You could tell in her voice she was trying not to laugh.

The hall went silent. Soon everyone seemed to get the fit of the giggles. It spread through out the hall like a virus, before turning into an uproar of laughter, even Luthae found it hard to keep it together and Seymour started to go ever so slightly pink. He gathered his books up which had been on the table beside his dinner), and stood up. Although he wasn't that much taller than Luthae but the way he stood made him look tall. He stood up perfectly straight and seemed to tower above her looking slightly scary. He then stared at Luthae for a few seconds thrust something into her hand and walked out of the room towards the lift.

Luthae made her way back to the table to rejoin her friends.

"Did you see the look on Seymour's face?" Tidus chuckled "Come on even you were laughing at that." He said to Luthae

"I've never seen him so embarrassed in my life." Luthae replied still giggling

"I'm sorry we made you do that." Rikku apologised

"Hey it's okay it was quite funny, but why him?" Luthae enquired

"Just to embarrass him. None of us like him." Tidus explained

"Why?"

"Let me see he's a puff," Tidus began

"And an idiot." Rikku continued. Tidus then sniggered

"Lady Yuna would you do me the honour of being my bride?" Tidus mimicked in a high-pitched voice. Everyone fell about laughing.

"W-wha-what?" Luthae managed to say amongst trying to control her laughter, "He never."

"He did." Replied Yuna who had stopped laughing

"And. What did you say?" Luthae asked suddenly interested about her brother's love life.

"I said no." Yuna answered

"Why?"

"Simple answer I don't love him."

"Good thing to I thought he was freaky he always looked like there was something evil about him. If you get what I'm saying." Rikku said. They then continued with their dinner.

When they had done everyone decided to go back to there rooms. Only Paine walked with Luthae.

"I hope you didn't mind what they said about him."

"Huh?" Luthae hadn't really heard her she was to busy reading the piece of paper Seymour had given her. "Oh no she replied I think what Rikku said is right, but they don't know he's my brother."

"I do." Paine said, "I don't mind either I've never talked to him."

"I know you knew."

"How?"

"Don't ask."

There was a pause in which Luthae read the paper again.

"What does it say?" Paine asked

"To go to his room so we can 'talk'."

"Ahh," Paine replied fully understanding what she meant, "Shall I wait outside the door in case of trouble or isn't he that kind of person?"

"Nah not really he's just the stern talking to type. You don't have to wait though, I don't want you to get involved in one of our family squabbles."

"Well if that's what you want. See you later"

"Yeah laters."

The two separated at the fifth floor and Luthae walked down the corridor dragging her feet and dawdling making her way to room 47.

I don't know why I went. Probably because he would have got madder if I didn't. He wasn't the kind of person to hit you really hard but he would give you a hard thump, which could still hurt a lot and leave a bruise. Maybe it was because I couldn't be bothered to do anything else. Either way or any other, I went up to the door and knocked.

"Come." Replied a cold voice from within the room. I opened the door (which had been left unlocked), and entered the living room shutting the door behind me and I met Seymour's eyes as he looked up from his book, the eyes I'd never been able to look at in the same way since mum died. Before I looked at him as a brother an equal, a brother. After his eyes were filled with retribution and now it's master and servant.

"Now Luthae," he began, "What was the aim of your ahem excursion in the dining hall today?"

"Oh come on Seymour," I said, wanting to cut to the chase and forget the formalities of talking to me as if I was 8, "It was a joke."

"A joke? You think telling someone you love them is a joke? Even if under false pretences."

"I couldn't exactly say no." I tried to explain.

"If someone told you to jump off a cliff would you do it?"

"No I'm not stupid, but telling someone I love them isn't exactly going to kill me is it? I see where your coming from, but they wouldn't tell me to do it to someone I potentially love."

"Well who made you?" he the suddenly asked after a quick silence.

"What?" I was surprised at not his question, but the way he said it. I didn't reply.

"Oh come on," He said, "My sister who hardly ever spoke to me during our whole time in Macalania College, only to complain at what rules I made her stick to, but here suddenly coming up to me at dinner sitting by..." He stopped, "Of course. They made you do it didn't they? Did they threaten you or what?"

"What, who?"

"Those people sitting beside you."

"Well no, they didn't threaten me Seymour, why would they they're my friends."

"What?!" Seymour answered as if he hadn't heard me right.

"You know friends Seymour, people you hang round with and share secrets with. Not that you'd know what they are."

He then rose up over me warning me with the look on his face to watch it. He had a very short temper at the moment, as he was about to take an exam to become a maester of Yevon. He'd only come here because you had a better chance of becoming one, he hated this school really.

"You are not to meet up with those people again."

"Oh for Fayths sake Seymour!" I found myself shouting, "A girl refuses to marry you and doesn't help-," I paused I didn't want him to know I knew about him wanting to embrace Spira in death, "Anyway then you get all moody with them. They're the first friends I've ever had Seymour and you telling me to forget them! Why do you always cage me up like this?!" Tears suddenly welled up in my eyes, but I held them. I didn't want to cry. Not in front of him, "Why can't you just let me be free and do my own thing?" I asked well should say pleaded calming down, "But no you have to go and make me a mini female version of you, for your precious Bevelle and bloody stupid maester of Yevon thing!" I know I want to be one but he took the job to far and he only wanted to be one to be great and well known. I'm not normally the sort of person to get angry but the way he treated me, drumming things into me one minute, refusing to let me leave Macalania and when I eventually do put me down again for having friends. I couldn't take that. I started moving towards the door, but Seymour was to fast.

"You will not leave I am not finished." He began while grabbing my shoulder. He never finished either I was still feeling mad, trying to keep in my anger and sadness. I couldn't. I now reached the peak of my anger. He was going to put me down more. Even if he had nothing to say before he did now. The minute he finished his last sentence and held my shoulder in a tight grip I abruptly turned round and punched him on the nose.

"Get off me you son of a bitch!"

He staggered back. I knew those words were hurful to me too, but I knew they'd really get to him. I never knew mum, she died when I was very little depression apparently from having me. I think that's why Seymour hates me, it was my fault she died. I want to help him, but he won't let me.

Seymour's hand after I punched him had flown up to his nose. He moved it away to reveal a bit of blood trickling out of it. I didn't mean to hit him hard but in my sudden fury I must have done.

"Curse you," he murmed, "May Yevon curse you!"

I fled from the room shocked and frightend at what I'd done. I ran towards the lift. A Y11 was in my way but shoved him out of my path.

When I reached my room Paine was standing outside.

"So how'd it-."

She never got to finish her sentence. I went into my room and slammed the door in her face. I didn't mean to be rude, but I didn't want her at the moment. I didn't want anyone. For a while I just wanted everyone to let me be alone.

Whoooo done finally, hope that was worth reading. See she does have a soft spot for her bro, he just makes her mad because he doesn't return it. Also have you spotted the trick with the title??? I'll leave you guessing. Well that's all till the next chapter.