Dis claimer: I don't on these characters. They belong to the-N
-I don't own "There Is" it belongs to Boxcar Racer.
And so I messed up again. What was my problem? Why did I always have to loose people like that? Why did I have to loose Parker like that? It was me and my big mouth, I know. I shouldn't have said what I said…
"Lily?" My mother came into my room. She stood at the door with a worried look. "Lily, what's wrong? You know you can tell me anything, right? I know something happened," she said softly. She came and took a seat on my bed. At that point, I got up and walked to my radio by the window. Loud music filled my ears, almost fulfilling its duty, which was to drown my mother's voice out. She looked at me and realized that I wasn't in the mood for talking to her. "Alright, then," she said as she stood up. "We're having dinner downstairs if you feel like joining us." And with that, she was gone.
I put my back against the bed frame as sat on my floor and closed my eyes. A new song started to play. I listened to it, thinking about how much it reminded me of Parker. What didn't?
(I faintly remember breathing
On your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you
But you sweared you loved me more)
With those words, I remembered when I first told her that I loved her. I remembered how much fun we had, eating junk food and watching the stars through her skylight. I couldn't have cared less about anyone else in the word, as long as parker was there with me.
"I'm an idiot!" I said. "I don't deserve her!" Needing to wipe my eyes, I got up to go to my dresser. There, right next to the tissue box, was a picture of Parker and I. It was taken that same night in her room. That night where I looked at her and knew exactly how I felt about her. No, I didn't deserve her, but if she'd take me back, I'd do what ever it took to come close. I knew she wouldn't, though. I was too ashamed to come out to those stupid kids I called my "friends" and now I'd have to suffer. It was too late to take back what I said. I just hoped that the boys were having better times with their girlfriends that I was...
Something hit me. The boys! I had just thought of something, and if it worked, then maybe…just maybe, I would get parker back. I had to call them…
A/N: Ok that chapter sucked! To be totally honest, I had something really good in my head, but because I took so long to update, I forgot what the hell it was, so now, I have to make up a new ending. I was going to do it all today, but I'd rather give it time than give you guys more garbage from my mind.