A/N- Before you read this, take some time to remeber Darryl Armstrong he just commited suicide on the January 30, 2004. He jumped off a bridge in Toronto He played Tom the gay guy who had a crush on Dylan in "It's Raining Men" I thought he was really funny so I had to mention that.
luv ya,
Ashley
Chapter 9- Secret Admirer
I didn't want to see Toby. I didn't want to see anyone. I felt lo aquared and weird that everyone knew what happend. I was embaressd. I slept over Emma's that night, it was the only place I felt safe. How could Toby do this to me? I thought we where friends?
"I hope he's in jail" Craig exclaimed "No one does that to my girlfriend"
"I didn't see him in class today and he is not down here at lunch" Emm said "so I don't think he's at school"
I poked at the glob on my tray that they call mash potatos. I didn't want to talk about it anymore I didn't even want to think about it.
"Can you guys please stop talking about it?" I asked
"Did you even call the police? Did you tell anyone?" Craig asked
Why couldn't Craig just shut up about it? Didn't he understand that I didn't want to talk about it. I just didn't!
"You really need to do something about this." he said
I started to tear up. I wanted to forget what happend, I didn't want to rember it anymore I totaly wanted to wipe it from my memmory. Why couldn't he just drop it? Paige noticed that I was tearing up.
"You guys drop it" she exclaimed "Stop talking about it ok"
"But I wanna know... " Craig started
"Drop it" she yelled "Manny is obviously uncomfertable with all of this"
"Manny?" Craig started "Are you uncomfertable I mean I'm just trying to help"
I looked at him. Almost about to cry. I got up and ran for the bathroom. I looked at myself. I looked gross. I hadn't slept in days. I was pail I told the nurse I was sick and I had to go home.
I was at my locker when Ashley walked up to me.
"What are you pregnant with Toby's kid now?"she asked "He wouldn't even go to school today because you framed him for such a terrible thing"
"Ashley, he did do it. He did try to rape me"
"Bull Manny"
I started to tear up again. I grabbed my back, shut my locker and pushed her out of my way.
I got home and wanted to take a nap. I walked into my room and opend the door.
"Oh my gosh" I screamed
"How do I explain Toby" I started "I had just had a terrible night with him the other day. As most of you know he was my secret admirer. I hurt Toby bad..once I became friends with more peope in highschool I just ignored him. Totaly ignored him. If I could go back in time maybe I would have changed some things so he would still be alive now." I paused I started to cry. "I got home fom school the other day because I wasn't feeling well..I opend my door and saw Toby hanging from my celing fan. That is an image that will never leave me or my mind, or my dreams for the rest of my life. To see someone that was my friend since seventh grade hanging from my celing? It was terrible. He some how got in through the window. But anyway, on the floor was a note. " I looked at the note which was on the podium. I showed it to them. Just like the old ones. It was in pink. I smiled a little. "Manny, I am sorry for the pain I have caused you. If I knew my friend would be that hurt becuse of me I probably wouldn't have done it. I am not doing this Hanging him self because you don't like me. It's because I don't want to ruin your life anymore. You are way to dear to me. Take care of JT, and be nice to Ashley. I'm sure you guys will come to like eachother someday. I will love you always. Love. Your Secret Admirer"
I took the box with all the secret admirer letters and put the newest one with them. I threw them all in the dirt where Toby's coffin layed. I looked at all those people crying.
"I will never forget my secret admirer"
The End