A/n: sorry for the wait I've only just got my computer back. This isn't much of a chapter, just something to hold you over until I put the good stuff up. Still I hope you like anyway.

Ch.4. It Gets Worse Before it Gets Better

"Will you go out with me?"

Faye stared at him, was he serious? "Spike…" she began.

Brrrrrrring!

It was the bell. But was she saved? Faye jumped to her feet and looked anywhere but at Spike. "I've got to get to class!" Faye said quickly and before Spike could get a word in edgewise she dashed off.

God I'm so stupid! Faye mentally cursed herself as she made her way through the crowded halls. Why had she run? In truth because she was scared. Her other relationships had been easy, she never allowed to get emotions all tangled up in them, but for the first time in her life she actually felt something for a guy and therefore could get hurt. Faye wasn't sure she liked the idea of being that vulnerable and to Spike of all people, the one guy who, until recently, she had always thought she'd hated. She'd have to face Spike eventually though, namely when he drove her home, but what would she say? What would she do? The answers were not forth coming.

By the time the end of school rolled around she had no more idea what she would do then she'd had before. Sure she liked Spike, but did she want to date him? She wasn't sure she was ready for that yet. She walked out to where she knew Spike's car was parked.

He was waiting there for her, leaning up against the car with his hands in his pockets. Faye walked up to him but still couldn't look him in the eye. Oh god what do I do?

"Listen Faye, about earlier, I hope you know I was only joking." Spike said with a smirk.

Her head snapped and she retorted with an automatic sarcastic remark. "Of course, otherwise I would have thought you were touched in the head!" outwardly she was her same old bitchy self.

Inside she felt like crying.

For once Spike didn't reply, only shrugged and got into his car with an unhappy look on his face. Faye followed suit and when he turned his music up to max volume she didn't yell at him to turn it down. It drowned out her thoughts and she really didn't want to think right now.

When Spike pulled up to her house Faye got out and hurried inside with out looking back. Spike sat in his car outside Faye's house and stared at the door she'd disappeared into. He wasn't any happier about the day's events then Faye. He had been serious when he asked her out, but had chicken out at the last second and tried to write it off as a joke. Faye obviously believed it was and why not? Had he ever been serious with her? It was always easy to laugh off uncomfortable feelings; after all he'd been doing that with Faye for years. He drove off with a feeling like a hole in his heart.

Inside the house Faye's day had gone from worse to terrible in the form of her younger cousin coming to live with her. Faye couldn't believe this was happening to her.

"Faye Faye!"

Faye was tackled by a short red haired girl and a large welsh corgi.

"Edward? What are you doing here?" Faye asked, looking at the girl who was sitting on her chest.

"Ed's coming to stay with you Faye Faye." Edward replied happily while her dog, Ein, barked.

Edward may have been happy about it but Faye looked as if someone had just shouted the world was ending.

"Faye I have to go out will you watch Edward while I'm gone?" Faye's mother asked.

Faye managed to remove her cousin from her chest and stood up. "Fine, whatever, I'll be in my room." And with that she bolted for the safety of her room. Her pride never let her cry in front of others. What happened? Why did this day suddenly turn to hell? She had no answers. All she knew was it had began with her the realization that she liked Spike and ended with her realizing he didn't like her.

"What's wrong Faye Faye?"

"Edward get out of my room!" Faye shouted.

Ein growled at her tone.

"And get that mutt outta here too." Faye herded her cousin and the dog from her room before shutting the door and locking it.

She flopped on her bed and held back her tears. "Well, it can't possible get any worse." She tried to console herself. A crack of thunder could be heard outside and the sound of rain on the roof. Faye rolled over in bed and buried her face in her pillow. "This sucks!" She remembered something Danae always said, "Life's a bitch and then you die… and most of us pray for death soon." How true that was.

Spike too was in a state of depression, lying on his bed and staring up at the ceiling dispassionately.

"Spike, buddy, what's wrong?" jet asked as he entered his friend's room.

"Absolutely nothing." Spike replied.

"C'mon Spike I know you. What's wrong? Is it Julia?"

"No, it's me." Spike replied.

"What? What did you do this time?" Jet asked.

Spike grinned humorlessly. "Screwed up big."

Jet frowned, "How so?"

"Faye." He replied shortly.

"Faye? What does she have to do with anything?" Jet was confused.

"Everything." Spike rolled over on his side and faced the wall trying to dispel the violet haired girl from his mind. He was not having much luck. She confused him. Half the time she acted like she hated him and the other half she seemed to car about him. Like the incident with Julia. Had she really meant what she said? Or had it been merely an excuse to fight with Julia? Damnit Faye! Why do you confuse me so much?

He knew what he had to do. He stood up and walked past Jet.

"Tomorrow." He said.

"Tomorrow what? Spike wait!" Jet stood up to follow his friend.

Tomorrow I ask her out, no backing out this time, he thought.

A/n: I know short, don't hurt me please. Oh and review too please!

I really appreciate your patience.