Well all. It wasn't a quick update but you will like this chapter ;).
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Firstly, the questions
Are you all happy with all the relationships? (friendly and sexual, as in H/L, B/G, Dr/Hr) I was really happy that everyone liked this, I thought some people might say it was too happy, and a bit boring. But yeah, I like them.
Would Hermione and Draco make a nice married couple? Loads of people said not right now, I wasn't planning on it not right now, I was thinking for later on or the sequel depending on what I choose.
James and Sirius? (general comments) Yeah this got really mixed answers. James felt guilty about Lily's death at first and then didn't want to go back in because he was scared how everyone (Harry, Dumbledore, Lupin) would react. And put it off, and when he met Sirius he tried to ignore Harry and everyone and have fun with Sirius. Sirius wanted to have fun with James and didn't want to pressurize him into seeing Harry as he didn't want to argue with James. Besides that, everyone seemed quite happy with those two being back, they're meant to be Older teenage Friends to Hermione, not like parents but still the same age obviously they have youthful hearts.
What else would you like to see? No one really said anything about this. This was meant to see where people would like to see this going in the future (not too near) as in kids? Marriage? If they did have kids there would not be stories about them in Hogwarts though, those stories never appeal to me that much.
Would you like Ginny, Blaise, Harry, and Luna to come for New Year's Eve? Lots of people did want this so it will probably happen. But what will happen who knows.
Anyway the story?! I'm sure you all wanna read so I'll shut up now.
"Thanks?!" Draco said out loud, in the study. "Thanks! You fucking imbecile Draco you fucking imbecile. You asshole. You moron. You pitiful excuse for a human BEING!" He banged his head against the wall, "That was possibly the most stupid thing I ever said." He shook his head, trying to keep his composure but failing miserably.
Draco went into the living room. Hermione, Sirius and James were sitting around the fire.
"I'm going for another walk" He announced,
"Ok then. Just don't freeze and die," Sirius said, "I mean it wouldn't be a very good start to our amazing comeback..." He said,
"Yeah" Draco said in a faraway voice that suited him as much as that damn tea cosy on Dobby.
He went out and, after another layer of warm clothes being added except gloves, he'd lost one of them, he set off. He followed the footprints of him and Hermione before. He got to the garden and sat on the swing.
He really needed her there, with him. He needed someone to be with. Someone to be intimate with. He wanted her there, with him. He wanted to be with her. He wanted to be intimate with her. So why couldn't he? Why couldn't he open up his stupid heart, and tell her what he thought? Maybe his father's memory was holding him back? Or the memory of his mother? The fact they weren't there? Or maybe it was something inside him? Or something unexplainable like the whole James thing.... James didn't have too much of an excuse for not seeing Harry, but he probably shoved all his shit, all the crap behind him and spent his life being a nobody.
He looked at the snow falling right where he had been. He imagined how different it would have been if he'd had just said he wanted her. Said he cared, and that he wanted to be with her. Said that he loved her too. I love you too. Four words, yet probably the one thing he'd never say the rate he was going.
Hermione looked at Draco. The snow falling on his troubled face. She couldn't work out what was going on with him. What he was thinking. She looked at him carefully, his face paling with the moonlight and the snow falling on his face. Being troubled didn't suit him. She stepped one step closer to him, Draco looked up,
"Hey" Hermione said, "I jsut wanted to say sorry. I didn't mean for this all to go tof ast or anything like that. We can forget it all. Pretend it never happened, I dunno what you want but whatever it is. I don't mind." She stopped and looked down, "Well I do." She paused, "But there's nothing better than a good lie." She said adopting a fake smile, and a very advertisement voice. She'd copied that off an evanescence video she saw part of at her house, well, she'd seen before the sky subscription was cancelled because her dad wanted to spend that money on drink.
"You don't have to lie" Draco said standing up and as he spoke he walked towards her, "You know I'm not a great talker, so I apologise. But I do like you" He got closer, "I like being with you" Another few steps towards her, "I want you" He stopped and held her hands in his, "I love you," He said, smiling.
"Really?"
"Yeah...." He said in the non-suiting faraway voice.
"Draco, the far away voice suits you about as much as Dobby wearing nothing but a tea cosy..."
"Well thanks a lot" He said pouting much like a spoilt child,
"I love you too" She said and smiled at him, and in return he kissed her on the lips. It was at first innocent, then she returned the kiss. Draco's hands went up Hermione's layers of clothing. "Eeeek!" Hermione screeched, "Your hands are freezing!"
"Oh yeah... Whoops" He said.
"Yeah... Whoops!" She said laughing, she bent down and picked up a handful of snow and threw it at Draco. The loose snowball fell apart and it looked for a moment amongst the real falling snowflakes like he was in a snowglobe.
Hermione and Draco found themselves back at the house.
Hermione wiped her feet, and Draco just tramped into the living room.
"I'm just going to pop to the bathroom" Hermione said, and found her way to the toilet. She went inside and locked the door. She pulled the handle just to check it was shut. The toilet was dark blood red, it had a plush fluffy carpet and tiles that matched with a black border around the edge. The toilet and sink were black too. She looked around at the room flickering in the candle light. She stared at her face, it was beaming with a smile that seemed so fake, so wrong. She shouldn't be happy, too much shit had happened.
Hermione's POV
How can I be happy? Yeah, Draco loves me. But my Dad has just raped me and beaten the fuck out of me, what kind of bitch am I? Why can I be happy? How can I be happy? How exactly? It just isn't right, it's wrong! I'm just going on like it's any other day. I'm a fucking weirdo...
But I suppose if the pain isn't there I might as well embrace it.
End of POV
She stared at herself in the mirror and rubbed her eyes. Her mascara went in her eyes, and her eyes welled up with the pain. She stared in the mirror and burst into tears. She couldn't stop herself, she was so happy yet so upset and she was so guilty all at the same time, she just couldn't handle it. She fell to the floor and just sat where she fell crying. She put her head in her hands and just cried letting all her nervousness, hatred, sadness, happiness, every emotion flow out of her body.
"Hermione?" Came Draco's voice, "Are you okay?"
"'Mione?" Asked Sirius,
"Should we spell her out?" James asked,
She carried on crying oblivious to the three men outside.
"Alohomora" James said, "'mione?" He said softly,
"Mia" Draco said and dropped on his knee's next to her,
"Come on let's get you out of here and we can talk?"
"Yeah" Draco grabbed one arm and Sirius the other and they helped her up and took her to the drawing room. James did a spell for the fire and they all sat on the comfy chairs.
"Sorry guys" Hermione said wiping away her mascara tears, "I couldn't help it, I'll stop now though" She sniffed, trying to hold back imminent tears.
"No, it's fine just let it go." Draco said,
"It was bound to happen sometime" Sirius said,
The group talked for ages and once Hermione was feeling better they talked about New Year. Hermione and Draco told the two of there idea and reluctantly they took it. They agreed and soon they all headed off to bed.
They all got ready for bed and Draco was just getting into bed and snuggling down when there was a quiet knockon the door,
"I was cold" Hermione said smiling,
"Well get in." Draco said,
Oh my God, I know I promised smut but I kind of didn't want to edit bits, so I'm putting this up to you tonight otherwise you'd have a like four days wait until you got anything and you all deserve this. Thanks for all your reviews I don't deserve them. But I will try get my updating back on track. (I've been having guy troubles).
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