Ok, first think I need to say is this is written in the eyes of a not very sane person, but don't worry, it'll get saner as we move along.

Disclaimer: I don't own a lot, certainly no characters and ideas that would make me rich, you get the point.

Distribution: Yell at me first

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On to the story!

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Two months ago, two months ago today she left me. Left me all alone. Dark alone. Nothing alone. Broken.

Now we're here, this is what they wanted to remove her completely so there's nothing left but me. I don't want me, I want her let me join her, please let me.

"Michelle" they call to me "Michelle come on you don't want to be late."

Yes I do, let me be late, later than forever let me go home. They take me, force me, I know I can't resist one more step from hell. They push food on me, make me eat I don't want to eat, she doesn't eat.

"She's gone" they tell me as if I don't know. Of course I know. I know it all and that's why I'm here.

"We have a new member today class" I can hear them and they think I can't. "She's fresh from Phoenix with a traumatic past so be nice, please welcome Michelle Jordan." Now I enter the class, the strange people staring, judging, always the same. "Welcome to Sunnydale High" I look at the people, none of them look like her, she isn't here but they're forcing her words on me. "You can take a seat over there next to Dawn."

Dawn… dusk, midnight, daylight, sunshine, rain.

Words flow past like giant bags caught in waves,

She speaks to me, when I write down what to say then she speaks and I'll always listen, always, but…

"Hi, I'm Dawn" dawn is a time not a person, is she time? "You're Michelle right?"

"Yes" no! I can't talk, she leaves when I talk. Never talk, "So you're from Phoenix?" Nodding, nodding isn't talking "Cool, I used to live in LA; small town is a big change."

"Winter never liked change, always the same, can't be different." You said her name! How could you say her name? You're betraying her. "No, no one, I didn't say anyone."

I'm crazy I am, crazy like a fox caught in a tunnel on a hot snowy day.

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"I met the strangest girl at school."

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"How was your first day?" First days are never worth living "Did you find your way home ok?" Am I not home now? On time? Would that suggest…. Difficulty?

My room, into my room my only sanctuary from life. She is in there, me and her, she and me. We'll always be in there, pictures last longer, they always last longer. Longer then her, longer then me.

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So that's my first short short chapter, tell me what you think. Most chapters will be short I'm guessing but I'll update more often if you yell at me.

There will be more actual Buffyness in the next chapters, they do play a big part, im just trying to 'set it up' does strange arm movements

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