Angry days, they rain on me so heavy now there is no one here and no where to run for shelter. So I just have to keep running, dodging the rain. But there is only so much space in the world to run to, eventually there is nowhere left to turn.

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I'd been with guidance twice more that week but I still felt in the same place. I hadn't said a great deal more to her since the rabbit. I send her messages in my head, Winter and I could do that, know exactly what the other was thinking. I thought we were psychic, she just said it was the weather.

During the nights I roam collecting odds and ends to put by winters home. I know she isn't there but I've made it so pretty for the day she visits she'll see how much she wants to stay.

Sometimes I see Buffy Summers out at night also roaming. I wonder if she's lost someone like me and is still looking. She only searches the graves though which isn't very positive thinking. I tell her that in my head but I don't think she's listening to me. I follow her at times, curious. 'Curiosity killed the cat' mother would say. I don't believe it; Winter always would tell me that death kills. I'm not sure if death is a person or not or if he'll go to heaven. I don't think he will, he killed Winter, no one like that should go to heaven.

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Doctors visits start up again they tell me I'm not cured but I'm still not sure what's wrong. "Write the pictures Michelle, draw the story" they say, or perhaps it was the other way around. "Eat your veggies" yes that's it, lambs need veggies also just like me…. Just like me…

it's just like me

to say to you

love me do

and I'll be true

and what I'd like

for you to say

is you'll come home

to me each day

That's it, 'Just Like Me' she'd sing that song, Winter sang it so often on the way home from school. "That's what I want, just you sweet thing" she'd always sing me that part, we we're all we needed. Each other.

"Michelle, are you listening to me?" No I wasn't. You're crazy, you want me to forget, I'll never forget.

"Michelle" the sigh, the tell tale sigh I'd heard from everyone of late, the 'I'm giving up on you' sigh such a sweet sound. "We've come to a stage where we cannot do any more for you"
When did you start?
"The ball is in your court and it's your choice where we go from here."
I want to go home.
"I realize that what you've gone through is nothing short of horrific but you need to take a stand."
I am I am I am take a stand against you, against them all.
"You can just sit there like you do, not talking to anyone, skipping classes and sneaking out at night."
That's how she comes to me.
"Or you can stand your ground, don't let this ruin your life, try and pick up where you left of."
What I left is destroyed.
"You're family have sacrificed a lot for you, to drop everything and move here so you can have a fresh start."
My family doesn't know the half of it.
"Take advantage of it, make new friends, and start to live your life instead of watching it float by. I'm not saying you should just forget her but you cannot forget everyone else either. I don't think that is what Winter would have wanted."

"No, you don't get to say that, you do not get to say her name!" I stand up the chair falls down. "You can't pretend like you know anything, you know nothing!"

"Michelle, calm down" She stands up too, she approaches me tries to touch me.

"No!" Screaming, spilling out like blood. I close my eyes, she should just go, why doesn't she go?

Open my eyes.

She is gone.

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Well hurrah for me in finding a direction for this story! is happy

Also

Hurrah to Em-958 for being my only reviewer so far. Alas I will not give up!

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