Chapter 3

Sugian pull into school the next morning. She had passed Yusuke on the way here and had to shake off the feeling that he could see through her helmet to her soul, to her eyes. Now there were eyes all over her, but there was one pair that stuck out. Her breath catches in her throat and she takes the helmet off and sets it on the seat.

Kuwabara falls into the yard and Yusuke follows rubbing his knuckles and smiling evilly. He looks up for a second and stops. He looks at Sugian and she glares at him and walks into the school and down the hall. He follows her not paying attention to Kuwabara and Keiko.

Sugian walks onto the roof and stops. Directly in front of her was Hiei. In the light he looked a lot different. Still dark and forbidding but now he looked pissed too. But that could just be the Nightmare that she could still see in his eyes. He walks up to her and glares. "Get. It. Out." Sugian smirks.

"Well you could asks a little piss-y-er, that might help." She walks around him as Yusuke walks onto the roof.

"Did you get one?" Yusuke looks at him weird. "Guess not." Sugian rolls her eyes.

"Once they are set free all I can do it kill them. So my guess would be that after one night, it's wrapped around fifty many sixty memories. If I kill it, I kill those memories."

"Trust me no memory I have is worth keeping." Sugian rolls her eyes again.

"Do you realize what that could do?"

"No and I don't want to. Just get it out of my fucking head!" Kivan glares at him.

"No. I don't care if you don't care, but I stopped making people mad quite a while ago. Get someone else to do it." Yusuke looks form Sugian to Hiei with a smile.

"I haven't seem you fight with someone like this other than Kuwabara." Hiei glares at him and Sugian rolls her eyes. She looks at Hiei who looked like he wanted to kill Yusuke.

"Are you a sleep-a-holic?" Hiei looks at her like she had two heads. "Do you sleep a lot?"

"Yeah."

"Then fight it off," She pulls a blue bottle from her pocket and throws it to him, "Drink it before you go to sleep the next time. It'll help."

"How do you fight off a dream?"

"Like you would a bad habit," Kivan says, "With patience." She walks over to the door and it closes behind her. Hiei looks at Yusuke.

"Looks like we found our demon." Yusuke nods.

"Yeah. Looks like." The bell rings and he walks inside.

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"Does anybody know what X equals in this problem?" Sugian tunes out the teacher and looks out the window.

There were so many people here. And now there were demons too. Demons… they were still looking for her. Since she was still alive, she still had the power of Nightmare. They couldn't replace her if the power was still in her. Now with Yusuke and Hiei, she had to watch herself. She couldn't show them the slightest amount of breaking.

'All this thinking, it's going to drive me mad soon,' She sighs and closes her eyes for a second.

'So what are you saying that you aren't crazy already?' She sits up straight.

'Get out of my head?'

'Why should I, you're in mine.'

'No, I'm not the Nightmare, I just make it.'

'I see no difference,' Hiei laughs in her head.

'Leave me alone or I'll let another one go in you're head.' Hiei smiles but his presence fades.

'Damn him.' She shudders at the thought that he had seen too much. 'What if he knows… about the Saints.' She bites her lip and looks out at the yard. She sighs as the bell rings and she stands up walking out of the room and to her motorcycle. Yusuke walks out of the school and stops as he sees her. She looks from him to her motorcycle and then searches the air. Hiei was near. She jumps on the bike and starts the engine taking off down the road to home, or the hell that she now confided in too much.

The walls had to be the most learned things in the house. She pulls into the driveway and gets off all to quaint with the scent that was still around her. She walks into the house and into the kitchen. Their scents were faded, they hadn't been here for a while. There was a note on the counter.

'Aunt Cheroot has taken sick. We've gone to tend to her. Take care of yourself Kidkivan. Be back in a few days.' She growls and throws the paper in the trash. She walks over to the couch and sits down burying her face in her hands. She lets go and the Nightmare covers the room in seconds. She sighs and lays down on the couch her hands still over her face and soon she was asleep.

When you're lost in darkness, it's so very easy to loose yourself. You can become something you never wanted to be because it hurts to be what you were. And as you look back you don't know what was worse, what you are or what you had been. You loose something that you could have been and in the process you over look the one thing that can make you better. You're dreams are filled with fear and pain that you have never experienced. Pain you saw so many in because of what you did.

Someone screams and you can't make them stop, no matter what you do they scream more and more and louder and louder. They want to be hole and you just want to rest your tired head. But the screaming is so much that you have to stay awake, to help the crying and get to sleep sooner.

She sits up and Yusuke looks down at her. "You ok?" She looks at him. She nods after a second and looks behind the couch to where Hiei stands in the darkness with the door open behind him the rain falling passed it.

"I would ask how you got in but that's obvious, So why are you here?" She looks at Yusuke.

"Well…" He looks around the room and then back at her carefully. She looks around and sees the Nightmare hiding in the corners of the room.

"Oh," She says calling back the Nightmare and marveling at how far some of it got, "Sorry." Yusuke nods and looks around the now Nightmare free room.

"None of that got in my head did it?" Kivan looks at him and shrugs.

"How long have you be in it?"

"I don't know, ten minutes." Kivan stands up off the couch and walks back to her room opening her closet and pushing the clothes aside and looking across the back shelf. She grabs two bottles off the blue serum and a third bottle of a green color with pills in it. She walks back to the living room and throws a blue bottle to both of them and they look at it. Hiei gets a disgusted look on his face saying that he had drunk the other bottle she had given him.

"You can live it with taste. The Nightmare itself could drive you mad though. Hiei shrugs and Yusuke takes the cork off and downs the bottle.

"I'm outta here," He looks at Sugian, "See ya." He walks passed Hiei and out the door into the rain. Hiei looks at the wet outside and the darkness. Kivan almost smiles.

"You can stay here," Hiei looks at her, "As opposed to out there." He looks at the outside again and nods.

"Sure." Kivan walks over to the counter getting down a bowl from the cabinet she sets the green bottle next to it and them walks over toe the fridge and get out a bottle of whisky. She puts two pills in the bowl and smashes them before pouring a little whisky in the bowl and then grabbing a knife pricks her palm and lets the blood run into the bowl. Hiei watches her with a little too much interest. He walks over to her and looks at the bowl. "That looks disgusting." Kivan nods.

"I get that a lot." He looks up at her as she was watching the amount of blood in the bowl. She turns her hand over and stops the blood. She grabs a paper towel and a crystal cup. She mixes up the concoction and pours it into the cup before handing it to Hiei.

"What do you want me to do with it?"

"Drink it." He looks at her like she was crazy. "It kills the Nightmare." He looks at the substance and then looks at Kivan.

"That's disgusting," He says before drinking the substance.

"Now don't throw up." He swallows.

"That's asking a lot." She nods with a smirk and puts the bowl and cup in the sink.

"Close the door, will you?" Hiei looks at it and kicks it shut still fighting the urge to vomit.

"This is impossible," he says through clenched teeth. Kivan nods slightly.

"Nearly. I've only known one person that can do it. But mind you that was on the eight time she took it." He looks daggers at her.

"And you tell me this why?"

"Because you should see your face right now." He nods.

"That's a stupid reason." She nods.

"But it is pretty comical." She sneers at him and he almost laughs at her.

"Do you just ever flat out smile?"

"I haven't smiled since the day my father died." He looks up at her and she smirks. "That's the truth, too."

"You are deranged," Hiei says and then blows chunks.

"Now that's disgusting." Hiei nods.

"Yeah, it is." She walks around the counter and helping him up from where he had fallen to the ground puts him on the couch.

"Get some sleep." She then takes the green bottle and walks back to her room to do the same.