Autheress's Notes: I am so sorry for the long wait! I really am! I've just been really busy with all my other fics, and I just got a brand new fic out, called… well, actually I forget the name, since it's in German, but yeah. I've just been very, very busy!
Oh, but, on the bright side, we finally moved! Yes! I have my own room! Finally! Lol. Next step: getting my own computer, with internet access!
Song Details: This song is by Rammstein a wonderful German band. I chose this song because I thought it was just so pretty. It's a very dark song, and the lyrics were originally in German, but I translated them so you all would understand. The german version, however, is posted after the fic.
Disclaimer: Dude, Rammstein lives in Germany; how could I possibly own them!
Reading Key:
Lyrics (bold and slanted)
Thoughts, flashbacks, dreams
"Speaking"
(Time difference; location change)
The Purity Of White
Chapter Four:
"Engel"
Timeline for this chapter: Non-flashback: Neji, 12, Hinata, 11. Flashback No. 1: Three weeks prior to grave scene. Flashback No. 2: Neji, 4 (pre-Hizashi death), Hinata, three. Flashback No. 3: same as Flashback No. 2
Neji looked down at the old, carved gravestone with the oh-so-familiar name on it. He had come alone today, just because he wanted to be alone with the spirit of his father. Somewhere in the back round, a bird sang sweetly.
Live in virtue, no desire
Chichi-ue… He knelt down, setting the small bouquet of white gardenias he had bought earlier that day before the grave.
In the grave an angel's choir
He knelt down, folding his hands before his face. Chichi-ue… Hana-ue and I are both alright…
You look to heaven and wonder why
Except that… lately, Hana-ue has been feeling sick… she says it's nothing, so no one bothers her about it… but…
No one can see them in the sky
Neji stepped away as the wooden dummy he'd been working over fell to pieces from the pressure of his charka. Taking a deep, soothing breath, he turned around. "Hana-ue…" he said curiously when he saw his mother standing at the edge of the clearing.
Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
She smiled at him, holding out a towel and a bottle of water. "I thought you'd be thirsty, Neji-kun."
"Arigatou." He went over to her and took the water bottle and unscrewed it while she gently mopped his forehead and face with the towel, speaking gently as she did.
"You're working so hard, Neji-kun," she said gently, wiping the sweat off him while he drank the water. "Your father would be very proud."
Angels can be seen in heaven's keep
"That was the idea, Hana-ue," he said calmly, sipping the water. His eyes widened as she suddenly started coughing violently. "Hana-ue?" He patted her on the back. When she didn't stop, he began to panic. "Hana-ue! What's wrong?"
Alone in fear they question why
When she finally stopped coughing, she quickly wiped her mouth off with the towel before he could see it. "I'm fine, Neji-kun," she said with a smile. "Just a bug. Be sure to work hard, alright?" She handed him the towel and disappeared out of the clearing.
Neji frowned, unfolded the towel, wondering what she had been hiding.
Goddamn, be not an angel when I die
Blood.
I'm worried about her, Chichi-ue, Neji continued, pushing the memory back. I don't want her to be sick that much that she has to cough up blood.
Angels live, they never die
There's no one I can even tell these things to, except you… There's no way I's tell Gai-sensei, and I won't tell Hiashi-oji-sama… he wouldn't even care, probably…
Apart from us, behind the sky
Neji closed his eyes. I'm scared, Chichi-ue… I don't want anyone else to die…
They're fading souls who've turned to ice
"N-Neji-nii-san?"
Neji turned. Hinata blushed slightly, looking down at the bouquet of gardenias she'd brought. "Are those for Tousan?"
So ashen white in paradise
She nodded slightly. "I-I w-wanted to—"
Neji stood up and walked past her, a silent form of utter hatred for the stuttering girl. I can't even pray to my own father without being disrupted.
Just as the clouds have gone to sleep
"Neji-nii-chan! Neji-nii-chan!"
Neji turned, grinning as he caught his little cousin just as she threw herself at him, causing both of them to topple over. "Hinata-sama!"
Angels can be seen in heaven's keep
Hinata grinned up at him, showing him the gardenias she had in one hand. "Come on, let's go see Hana-ue's grave together!"
Neji's grin widened. "Sure, Hinata-sama, but I don't have any flowers for her."
"You can share some of mine!"
Alone in fear they question why
Gardenias… Neji thought, thinking of the separate bouquets both cousins had brought. We decided gardenias would be the flowers we brought to the family graves…
Goddamn, be not an angel when I die
I didn't think you would remember, too, Hinata-sama…
Goddamn an angel when I die
"We'll always be friends, Hinata-sama! Because we can't be anything else but friends!"
Heaven must be hell in the sky
"Engel" (Original German)
Wer zu Lebzeit gut auf Erden
wird nach dem Tod ein Engel werden
den Blick gen Himmel fragst du dann
warum man sie nicht sehen kann
Erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein
Sie leben hinterm Sonnenschein
getrennt von uns unendlich weit
sie mussen sich an Sterne krallen (ganz fest)
damit sie nicht vom Himmel fallen
Erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein
Erst wenn die Wolken schlafengehn
kann man uns am Himmel sehn
wir haben Angst und sind allein
Gott weiss ich will kein Engel sein