Thanks to my four reviewers. I don't take offense easily so I will try and make the chapters longer. My problem is I don't have very much time these days to just sit and relax, or write. More will be explained about the Keiko and Yusuke thing in this chapter. Also, I have decided on the pairings. But they are not for sure, the story goes as it goes, chapter by chapter. But for now, Harry/ Hermione, Kurama/ Yukina, Kuwabara/ Boton, Ron will remain single, as will Yusuke. There will be an OC and she will be with Hiei ( Though she won't be a main part of the story, she will be in it). Any suggestions to changes will be considered, but don't take it personally if I don't use it. If I like, I use, if not, I don't.
I do not own, so please don't sue.
Boton POV
How can those boys be so cruel hearted. They saw Yusuke in pain and in bad shape and they don't even stop to consider Keiko. I do care and love Yusuke, but he just doesn't see why she did it. Neither do any of the guys. All they heard was Keiko had broke up with Yusuke and he had locked himself in his apartment because of it. They just assumed Keiko is a cold hearted bitch for doing this to him. They don't even go ask her why or how.
I understand the why. But I don't understand how she could have done it.
I side on Yusuke with this, but I don't hate Keiko because of it. Maybe because I am a girl and know that we do things for the guy's best interest, but boys think we do things for ourselves. That is so sexist of them to not even give her a chance to defend herself.
But I understand why they are acting like this. Yusuke is in bad shape.
How could he let himself get like this? He knows we care for him. Why does he want to punish himself? Hurt himself? Is friendship not good enough to save a person?
I guess we will find out at Hogwarts.
I am going to go find out how Keiko takes the news of Yusuke's condition before I head off to spirit world to get ready.
With Kurama: Normal POV
" Keiko! Wait up!"
" Kurama? What are you doing here? I thought you would hate me for what I did to Yusuke."
" I am not exactly here on my own accord." He replied, dancing around a direct answer.
" What do you mean?"
" Koenma asked me to come and let you know what is going on with Yusuke. Since you obviously don't care enough anymore to at least check on him, you don't know how bad the situation has become.
Personally I would have left it that way, but Koenma thought it best that you know, so you may put this all behind you and know that it will never be the same again."
" I don't understand what you are trying to say. How bad the situation has become? What do you mean?"
With a sigh, Kurama began the explanation.
" Since the day you broke up with Yusuke, he has shut himself inside the apartment with a barrier around it so nobody can get in to see him. Before he locked himself in, he stocked up on alcohol. With what he bought, and what his mother had, he has been having a steady supply. Enough to keep him drunk at all times, except when he was passed out. He has been alone since that day."
" If nobody can get in to see him, how do you know that he has been drinking? He hates alcohol due to his mother."
" Koenma has been monitoring him on the television screen in Spirit World. Not only has he been drinking but he hasn't taken a shower, he has barely eaten. He is in bad shape.
I hope you know that you are the cause in all this?"
With tears in her eyes, Keiko asked, " When will he get better? Do you know? He is not going to kill himself, is he?" The last part of the sentence she had to whisper.
" Koenma has gotten an old friend to do him a favor. The friend got past the barrier and convinced Yusuke to leave and head to London. In London, he will be teaching a defense class.
In fact, the entire gang is heading to London. He needs his friends right now."
" Is there anything I should do. Maybe I could talk with him? I can't let him live his life this way because of me! I thought I was doing the right thing!"
" No!" Kurama replied in a cold voice, " You are the cause of this. Seeing you will only upset him more. He is leaving because he can't get you out of his head. You must be cold hearted! Knowing how he is and trying to talk to him. It would only give him hope."
With this last statement, Kurama turned and walked away.
Keiko stood with tears running down her face at the news that she had just received. She turned and ran towards her home. She slammed the doors and stomped upstairs throwing herself on her bed. She cried, and cried, and cried. Finally, when the tears slowed down, she turned onto her back and rolled off the bed. Walking over to her dresser, she grabbed a book and sat down at the desk.
She opened the book and began to write. She wrote until she was tired and walked over to her bed where she promptly fell asleep.
Boton POV
That poor girl. She cried forever. I can't imagine the guilt I would feel if I knew I ruined someone's life. It would be hard. I wonder what she wrote.
Stop Boton! You know you can't read a girls diary.
But she would never know if I never told anybody.
A little peak wouldn't hurt.
Normal POV
Boton flew her ore down through Keiko's window and picked up the book. She opened it and started to read the last entry.
Keiko's Diary.
WHY? Why would Yusuke do this to himself? It's all my fault. I was doing the right thing. I know I was. He will get better. He HAS to get better. Can't he understand that I was doing the right thing for him.
I know that we can't both have him, the world and I. It would never work. I am way to selfish, I want more of him every time I see him, but with him saving the world, it just doesn't happen. But I knew he would not give me up. He would give up on the world before he gave me up. So I did it for him. The world need not suffer because I am selfish.
One day he is going to find somebody who is strong; somebody who will fight by his side, saving the world; somebody who will not be selfish and willing to share. It will be somebody he deserves, and loves more than he ever loved me. She will not slap him and be mad for missing a date because he was saving the world; she will not be critical to the point of mean when it comes to his schooling, she will not be me!
He will do what he loves to do best. Fight to save the world; fight for honor; fight for what he believes is right.
That is what I love most about him. He seems like a tough guy on the outside, but on the inside he is all soft and lovable. He is just a burnt marshmallow.
STOP IT KEIKO! Stop thinking like that about him, it just makes it harder to do the right thing.
He won't have me hindering him anymore. I refuse to be the weak link to bring him down.
This is just the way it has to be. Maybe someday the pain will go away. Maybe someday I will be relieved to think of him with somebody who makes him happier than I ever could. But for now, I feel jealousy when I think of him with somebody else. I feel pain when I think of him wanting to be with somebody else. I feel empty inside when I think of all the days I have to spend without him.
WHY? Why do I have to do the right thing? Why can't my conscious go away and let me be selfish and have what I want. Why can't the world be able to defend itself against monsters?
We are weak. Most of us don't train. We get fat, and lazy. When a monster attacks, all we do is freeze ourselves to that spot.
I am going to confess something that I haven't paid attention to. It is buried deep inside me where other than on this page, it will never be spoken again.
I want to be that strong lady, who will fight by his side. That way, I will have him, and yet he can still save the world.
I am going to train with weapons, and get my body in shape. Someday, when I am good enough, I will talk with him again.
If he hasn't already found somebody else.
I will sit him down and tell him the truth. I am going to keep this page as proof. But until that day comes, this will be the last entry and I am going to lock it in a safe place. It won't be opened again until I am worthy.
Tomorrow, I will search for a decent place to hide it.
End of Entry: Back to Boton POV
Wow! Well, I must say that was not exactly what I was expecting. But that is wonderful news. Keiko still wants to be with him. There is still hope. I wonder how long she plans to wait and train. Maybe a year? Two? I hope she doesn't take too long. The only thing is, I wonder if Yusuke will ever take her back. At this moment, he would. In a heartbeat. I know he would. But later on, after he has gotten over her, would he still want her? All he will remember is how much she had hurt him. I hope he will be strong enough to have the courage to trust her again. I must go back and get some sleep. Tomorrow I have to get ready and go help Yukina. I wonder if I should tell her about the diary entry. I know I shouldn't, but darn it, I never could keep a secret. Just her and that will be OK. I know she won't tell anybody if I tell her not to.
That same day, back with Yusuke and Dumbledore ( same time during the Keiko and Kurama scene)
Yusuke POV
As I took the shower, I realized how long it had been. It felt good. I took an hour, just scrubbing my body and washing my hair. I couldn't seem to get the filth off me. I even stayed in after it ran cool, just for one more rinse though. As I was getting dressed, I though about leaving the apartment. What if I run into Her? How do I feel, now that I am leaving. I feel all kinds of different. I'm not happy, at all actually. I feel more resigned than anything. I still feel like I can't take all this pain. Why can't it just LEAVE?
-Yusuke just punched the mirror as it shattered, he watched the pieces fall to the ground.-
I can do it one more time, maybe this time, just maybe, the pain will leave for good. At least I won't have to deal with so much. I now feel frustrated too. Why can't things be the way they used to be.
Because she isn't in the picture anymore. She doesn't want to be with me. She hates me.
With this last thought, Yusuke slashed his upper arms, just once on each side.
He did make a promise not to cut himself anymore, although it wasn't in effect, he did feel just a little guilty.
As the blood flowed out of his body, so did all the pain. Now all I feel is empty. It is better than anything else.
Normal POV
Yusuke came out of the bathroom, and walked into his room. He grabbed all his money that he had saved over the years.
" I am ready."
" Is that all you are taking with you?"
" Yes, I am going to buy all new things, I don't know how to do laundry and I don't have any clean clothes. All I got are the clothes on my back, and the money I have saved over the years."
" If it is what you wish. Come, we are going to need to hurry. The plane leaves in two hours, and it takes an hour and a half to get there."
" We are going by plane?"
" Yes, you do not know magic yet, so we have to go the muggle way."
" Whatever you say old man. But just so you know, I don't speak English."
" It is OK, I will give you a translation spell later, so you will understand and be able to speak."
With that said, Dumbledore opened the door and ushered Yusuke out of it.
" I called for transportation to the airport while you were in the shower. I think you muggles call it a cab."
" Fine, lets get going, I don't want to stand here all day."
The two climbed into the cab, and Dumbledore told him where to go. Yusuke just closed his eyes, and willed himself to sleep. He didn't want to see and remember anything. The pain was starting to return.
As the cab drove further and further, Yusuke began thinking more and more of the spots they were passing through. Even though he didn't have his eyes open, he knew exactly where they were. They were going to pass in front of the Yukimora household. Keiko's house.
Dumbledore glanced at Yusuke and saw silent tears streaming down his face. He did the boy a favor, and secretly cast a sleeping charm, making sure the driver was not looking.
When the cab arrived at the airport, with only fifteen minutes to spare, he undid the sleeping charm.
" Where are we?"
" We have arrived at the airport. You fell asleep."
" Oh."
The two silently got out and unpacked their luggage. Dumbledore handed Yusuke his ticket. They got through the airport easily enough and boarded the plane. No words were spoken between the two. Dumbledore knew Yusuke was dealing with some hard times. Yusuke was grateful there was silence. He did not feel like talking.
Yusuke leaned back in his seat and promptly fell asleep, without the help of Dumbledore. Dumbledore also took a little nap.
Neither awoke until the plane landed down. When it hit ground, the two awoke to a bumpy start. Grumbling, Yusuke got up and started down the aisle with Dumbeldore in tow.
" Where to from here old man?"
" Well, since it is night time, we are going to head toward the Leaky Cauldron and stay the night there. We will begin shopping first thing in the morning. We will take the bus for now."
" Sounds just peachy. Now that I just slept over half the day, I get to go and sleep some more. How fun!"
Yusuke was sore and irritable, and it showed.
I am going to end it here. I want to have an entire chapter for the shopping of all the characters. I would love to put in a lot of detail. Sorry this chapter had a lot more of Keiko in it. But I wanted to get some of her feelings across. This story is going to have some double sides. The boys all still blame her and think she is being selfish. She agrees with them, but she feels she is doing the right thing. If the idea of her goal is too farfetched, just let me know. I want to have an opening where I can take it either way. I don't want to tie any knots this early in the story.
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