Across the Times
By: Nightingale
Rating: PG13
Gin walked into Tibby's restaurant. She shook her head as she remembered Spot bring her here. The small diner must have been brand new back then. It was amazing how things could stand the passing of time. Gin punched in and tied her apron around her waist. Her boss stuck his head into the small room that contained the lockers.
"How did things go" he asked
"Worse than expected but I'll live."
When Gin looked into her employer's eyes she suddenly had the vision of the waiter who had waited on her and Spot. It couldn't be. She was imagining things again.right? Days passed quickly. Gin stuck with her job somehow managing getting up and serving others. Gin had just served another table when Rain stopped her.
"You're not yourself." She stated"You haven't smiled but once the whole day."
Gin just shrugged and went to check for her orders. Rain grabbed her arm stopping her. Gin turned to look at her friend getting annoyed by her constant meddling but let it go. Maybe it would do some good to hear the girl out.
"I think that librarian guy messed up your brain. You should sue.get twice the money."
"Rain.you don't know what you're saying."
"You're not the same person."
"I'm the exact same save the fact that I've been hurt again which guys tend to do to me. I'll survive like I did every other."
"This time wasn't like any other Gin. It's that librarian's fault too he shouldn't have sent you there. I stand by what I said."
"He gave me a blessing one that just ended too soon."
Rain gave up the fight. That was no way to cheer her rightfully depressed friend.
"Cheer up, you have another audition next week right" Gin just nodded her head.
"I wonder if it's worth it anymore" Gin muttered
"Of course it is and you'll do great."
"I've lost everything that matters."
"You haven't lost anything."
"When the lights go down. He'll be filling the pan with the broom in his hand in some diner across town. He'll be wiping the bar and mopping the floor, counting his tips and locking the door, wrestling the devil that telling him to poor another round."
"You're not making sense."
"Each dream has a down fall."
Rain shook her head. Gin used to be so positive but now everything had a negative out come.
"She'll calling up friends from her Mercedes Benz, but it's too late now. They were there for the fame, the flash and the trill. The drop the name and the parties appearance. As another star falls from the Hollywood hills without a sound. When the lights go down there's nothing left to be. When the lights go down the truth is all you see. When you feel that hole inside your soul and wonder what you're made of well we'll all find out."
"What are you talking about"
"The lights are off in my life. Jack turned them off and my life has been complete misery ever since."
"How about you go on break? I'll cover your tables for you till you get back."
Gin nodded and took off her apron as she walked to a back room. She sat down rather hard and leaned her head against the wall.
"At the end of the day when this game that I play has gone another round. As I lay there alone in that big empty bed with nothing but thoughts of you in my head. I think of the things that I wish I had said when you were still around. The lights went down there's nothing left for me. The lights went down and the truth is all I see. And I wonder if all my life's about some of my fears and all my doubt."
After ten minutes had passed Gin got up from her chair and went into the bathroom to check her appearance. Looking in the mirror she saw her red puffy eyes that still had tears and shook her head.
"There's nothing left for me. When the lights go down the truth is not worth the pain. I feel that hole inside my soul and wonder what I'm really made of."
Gin took a deep breath and retied her apron and walked out to deal with the customers.
"I was thinking." voiced Rain who had seen her appear
"What"
"I really think you should go talk to that librarian. Ask him to fix what he's done."
"I told you the machine was destroyed."
"Do you really think after all the work that man put into that machine that he would let it be destroyed so easily"
Gin looked into Rain's eyes utterly amazed. Gin decided that after her shift was over she would pay a visit to Arthur.