You deserved it… And I'm not sorry

Eiri Yuki / Suguru Fujisaki pairing
Rated R

Summery: Suguru is abducted and raped by someone… He runs to the only person he thinks can help him… Eiri Yuki… But his problems aren't over, Suguru has killed his abductor and Eiri is having problems keeping his hormones in control while Shuichi is away…

Author Opening Notes: I don't really want to make this chapter's notes long so I'll be quick… Gravitation's not mine… Suguru and Eiri are not mine (though I wouldn't mind having Suguru)… The idea for the story is mine and I'm not being paid for writing this… This chapter contains a really badly written rape scene and a murder. I don't like graphic rape or murder in fics, so I don't write them in detail. Oh and Eiri is a bit out of character… deal with it… Again no Shuichi… I still haven't decided where he is… but I'm sure by the next chapter I'll have some idea… Since I have to put where is his in that chapter. Oh and my new eight word motto: Don't like... Don't read… Do like… Please review!

Chapter Two: And I'm not sorry!

When I woke up the next morning I could smell eggs, bacon, and toast cooking… I thought it was weird at first because I lived alone and since I was sleeping and no one else had a key to my apartment how could something be cooking… I rolled over and noticed that I wasn't in my bed; I took in the scent of cinnamon and vanilla and then opened my eyes and sat upright… The events of last night crashing back into my brain…

Suguru had just got out of a meeting with Hiro for what they were going to do about Bad Luck with Shuichi being gone. He had decided to take a short cut home, not realizing that he was being followed. When he turned the corner to enter the dark and damp ally he noticed the shadow on the wall following him, but before he could react or even call out, his mouth was covered and he blacked out…

He woke up in a dark room his hands tied to a pole that was imbedded into the side of the wall. He tried to struggle but that just made the binds cut into his skin. He then tried to call out for help but it came out muffled, his mouth had been gagged. He cursed mentally and looked around the room. There was nothing in the room but a single chair that was set just out of kicking range…

The door to the room was opened and a dark figure stepped inside. Suguru couldn't tell who it was in the dim light, but he knew who it was anyways. The figure slammed the door and walked right over to Suguru leaning down and undoing his mouth gag before crashing his lips to Suguru's. Suguru bit down on the tongue that tried to force it's way into his mouth and his captor pulled back holding a hand over his mouth. Suguru spit out a bit of blood that came from the captor's tongue right at his captor before trying to kick him. The captor laughed and took a seat in the chair watching Suguru struggle.

"You can try all you want little Fujisaki… But those handcuffs aren't going to break apart… If anything… You'll break those pretty wrists of yours… Can we say END OF CAREER?"

Suguru stopped struggling and hung his head; he knew the captor was right, if he broke his wrists even if there was half a hope of slipping out of the cuffs, there was an even slimmer chance that he would ever be able to move his wrists again.

Suguru looked up into his captor's dark black eyes; he growled and knew that his mental assumptions had been right…

"Why are you doing this Aizawa? I haven't done anything to you…" Suguru's voice came out almost as a whimper, even though he didn't mean it too. He was scared, and Taki knew this now. Suguru actually whimpered when Taki stood up and walked over to him placing his hands onto the boys bare hips, Suguru gasped realizing for the first time that he was hanging naked in the room.

"Well my dear sweet Fujisaki, you're right… you haven't done anything to me. But Tohma has… he ruined my life! And since I can't hurt Tohma directly… I'll hurt him threw the people he loves… You are his cousin… You're the closest thing to a son he has… So who better to torture?" Taki laughed as Suguru's eye got wide with shock. He was right, Suguru was the closest thing to a son Tohma had, and since Taki couldn't take Mika to get to Tohma because it would once again involve Eiri Yuki, Suguru was the only choice. Suguru whimpered slightly and started to struggle again when he felt Taki lick a line up his neck.

"What makes you think that Tohma even cares about me?" Suguru tried to sound like Taki wasn't getting it him, but his voice was still shaking with his fear. Taki pulled back and looked into Suguru's brown eyes, a smirk on his face as he traced a line down Suguru's chest with a finger, his nail digging into the soft skin.

"He put bought you that nice big apartment, makes sure you are taken care of, and placed you into a band that he knew was going to get big… Not to mention the soft smiles he saves just for you. It wasn't hard to tell… Trust me." Suguru opened his mouth to retort but before he could he felt Taki's lips back on his and the man's tongue in his mouth. He couldn't bite down his time and choice instead to have his body go completely limp. Taki didn't like that move and pulled back slapping the boy across the face before stepping back. "No more talking… and no more games… I brought you here to have my fun with you and I plan to." Suguru's eyes widened Taki stepped back and started to undo his pants. Suguru noticed a shinning metal object fall out of the man's pocket and blinked, it was a knife, a rather big knife. Suguru whimpered and started to struggle again, but was forced to stop when Taki came back and lifted his legs up forcing himself into Suguru. Suguru couldn't even scream because Taki had once again shoved his tongue into his mouth.

Suguru must have blacked out because when he awoke next he was laying in the same room on the ground on a ratty old blanket that scratched his skin. He sat up and leaned against the wall his lower back and ass stinging. He closed his eyes and felt tears falling down then, Taki had raped him… He had raped him and then left him naked, bruised, and aching in a stone cold room with nothing but an old dusty and ratty blanket to sit on. Suguru looked around the room and spotted the knife was still lying on the floor. Suguru then noticed that Taki was no where to be found and that there was light coming from under the door he had seen Taki come in before. Suguru got onto his knees and crawled across the wooden floor boards to where the knife lay. He picked it up and winced at how cold the metal felt in his hands. He looked back at the door and seen a shadow under the door before the door opened.

Taki was standing in the open door way with no shirt on and his pants still undone. Suguru moved back to the wall the knife held tightly to his chest. Taki stepped into the room and narrowed his eyes at Suguru.

"Plan to fight me then?" Taki stepped towards Suguru laughing softly. "Little boys shouldn't play with big boy things... Give me the knife Sugie…" Suguru shook his head and Taki frowned. Suguru held the knife with both hand facing it towards Taki. Taki lunged at Suguru for the knife, but stopped just short, his eyes wide and his mouth hanging open. Suguru had pushed the knife up when Taki had been lunging down and the knife had stabbed right threw his neck. Suguru's eyes were closed and Taki fell forward.

When Suguru finally opened his eyes he pulled his hands that were still holding onto the knife's handle back fast removing the knife with them. Blood started to shower over Suguru from the wound on Taki's neck and Suguru pushed Taki off of him and then stood up shaking, holding the wall for support. He looked one more time at Taki, who had his hands around resting at his side, his eyes were wide and blank. Suguru gasped and ran from the room dropping the knife on the floor. He looked around the small living room he had run into and found his clothing, or what was left of them. He pulled on his dark green long sleeved shirt that was missing a both sleeves and the had the bottom torn so much it only came to right above his belly button. He then slipped on his black slacks, that were wet and muddy and had both legs torn at the knee and one leg torn up in a v shape to the upper thigh. He then threw open the apartment door and ran out and down the stairs.

He ran threw the park and it started to snow hard. He stepped in a big mud puddle splashing muddy water all over him, making some of the blood run down his cheeks and his chest staining his clothing with both mud and blood. He then ran up the stairs of another apartment building, and started pounding on the door.

Eiri pulled him into the apartment, cleaned him up and set him in bed, watching him starting to fall asleep before he whispered, "You deserved it…"

Suguru gasped and held his head in his hands pulling his knees up to his chest letting the blankets pool around him. He remembered everything that had happened, and he felt dirty once more. He faintly heard someone approach the room but didn't bother to look up. His stomach growled as the smell of eggs, bacon, toast and fresh coffee reached his nose.

Eiri stepped into the room and set the tray of food on the side table before sitting on the bed and gently rubbing Suguru's back.

"You have to eat something or you're body will completely shut down…" His voice was soft and Suguru found himself leaning into Eiri's touches. He didn't feel dirty around Eiri, and he couldn't explain why. Suguru raised his head and looked up at Eiri. 'I don't feel dirty with him here because he went through the same thing I did…' Suguru thought to himself as Eiri moved back to get the tray off food. Suguru's stomach growled again and he moved back against the head board so Eiri could place the tray on his lap.

"Did you call…?" Suguru started but stopped when he seen Eiri shook his head.

"I haven't called anyone… I was more worried about if you would actually wake up then I was about calling anyone." Suguru nodded and started to eat the breakfast Eiri had made slowly. Eiri watched him for a few moments before moving to sit beside him with his back to the headboard. "You don't have to tell me what happened… But it would be better to talk about it…" Suguru nodded and took a sip of the orange juice that was on the tray. He looked up to Eiri who was staring at the opposite wall, his eyes unfocused, as if he was lost in memories.

"I killed him… But I didn't mean to… I just wanted to protect myself… And he dropped the knife in the first place, I just happened to be the one who found it first." Eiri snapped his head back to Suguru his eyes soft and a frown on his face; He moved the tray of finished food off of Suguru's lap and pulled the boy into his own lap letting Suguru wrap his arms around him and rest his head against his shoulder. "He had taken me right after my meeting with Hiro… I was walking down the ally I sometimes take to get to my apartment building when he placed this nasty smelling rag over my mouth, I must have blacked out cause the next thing I remember is hanging completely naked from a metal pole in this room. I tried to get my hands free but they were handcuffed to the pole. Then he came in… He told me that struggling would break my wrist and then I might not be able to play keyboard again. So I stopped fighting." Eiri ran his hands up and down Suguru's back in an attempt to calm the boy, who had started to shake with tears flowing down his pale cheeks. "He raped me, I know that, but I don't know how many times or how long or any of that… I blacked out after he first pushed in…" Suguru's face reddened and his buried it into Eiri's neck his tears wetting the silk fabric of Eiri's shirt.

"Are you hurting now?" Eiri asked softly getting a small shake of the head in response. Eiri wrapped his arms around Suguru's waist and kissed the boys head gently. Suguru pulled back and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand before continuing.

"When I woke up on I was this old smelling rusty dusty blanket. The knife… it had fallen out of his pants pocket before and he must have forgotten about it… I crawled over and picked it up and that's when he came in. He laughed and said that little boys should play with big boy things and I back up to the wall holding the knife outward in case he tried to come at me again. When he did… The knife… I moved my hands upwards and…" Eiri covered his mouth and hugged him close letting Suguru cry onto his shoulder once more. Eiri didn't need to hear what happened next. He could picture it in his head, even if he wasn't there.

When Suguru calmed down enough he looked up at Eiri, "He did it only to get back at Tohma… He used me to get to my cousin… But my cousin wouldn't care about something like this…" Eiri shook his head and moved Suguru so he was straddling his waist and he could look Eiri in the eyes.

"I assure you that Tohma, when he gets back from where ever the hell he ran off too, will be very upset that this happened to you and that he couldn't stop it… He'll probably blame himself… And probably will never stop bugging you about it." Suguru shook his head and rested it against Eiri's chest fisting the fabric of his shirt in his hands.

"Don't tell him okay… I don't want him to know… I don't want anyone to know…" Eiri nodded and hugged Suguru close kissing his forehead softly.

"If that's what you want…" Suguru nodded and nuzzled into Eiri's chest.

"That's what I want…" Eiri couldn't help but smile when Suguru yawned and rubbed his eyes, reminding Eiri of a three year old. Eiri laid him back down on the bed and covered him up with the blankets kissing his forehead.

"Try to get some more sleep. I have to make a few phone calls, but I'll be in calling distance if you need me." Suguru nodded and hug a pillow close to him taking in the scent of cinnamon and vanilla. Eiri walked towards the door and pulled it part way shut before he hurt Suguru mutter something in his sleep. Eiri shook his head and turned away from the door. He didn't have to be in hearing range to actually know what Suguru had said. He already knew.

"You deserved it… And I'm not sorry."