If the Rain says Cry….
If the rain says to cry I follow just short of depression. One step behind leading me into my pathetic future. Trying not to break but still on the brink of tears. The inevitable is what leads me here to a dark death. Lonely and alone, I live with fear of life. Not a fear of life really but of what sorrow and pain it brings. Those humans they have no reason to live and I don't see why they do. Humans are weak, disrespectful, rude, annoying, and painful. Tears fall like a silent waterfall spreading out around me and drowning me in their distrustful path they slowly ease around me. An innocent crimson never really tells the truth. I listen to you breath but still you don't remember. Do you? I can't dream it all away. I can't wish it all away. I can't will it all away. So I try to forget as you have done but I can't. And I try to whisper to you telling you secrets of the past. I whisper what I want and what you need but you can't hear me. Our love was without a sound. Maybe it was one-sided? Echoing heart beats in that hall. I return to it every day to see if you remember the accident or if you still remain in a silent coma. It's the hark that eats the moon alive and waits for an answer.
If I sing my sorrowful songs just for your kind, will it bring you happiness? Forced to vent sorrows. I echo as my heart hits the ground. There are many of us. You can never spot me out of the millions of us that surround you. If you listened closely you would be able to hear the one song that sounds different. We all sing our own tune and never get to see you or whomever it is we want to see for a long time. I wanted to tell you some much but being what I am now I can't ever see you and you forget me. The moon it calls me. I tell it that I will remain until you remember but you still don't even try. I see from their P.O.V only seconds before I hit the bottom. I am still the one stranded, forgotten, abandoned. I see you have gotten off the path you once followed and now have friends. How could you be so blind as not to see me there waiting. I see you stare at us and I get my hope up. (Maybe today) I think. These humans they don't realize that we are very much alive. But I think you know and convince yourself otherwise. We all grieve for the males we have lost.
I scream to you in your dreams and every year you become more responsive. Now today I will try again. The night falls. And I attempt what I have been trying for the past 100 years. Your friend listened but he had himself removed from our word. Now you are my only hope. I contact you again and you wake up after I show you the images screaming. Your friends come and you make them leave but the red-haired one the one that once belonged to our matrix stays. The both of you talk and tell what you saw. The next day I have many hopes because you are going to see the ruler of Spirit World. Maybe he will tell you. And yet my hopes are dashed yet again. You tell him that you don't want a screaming girl in your head and leave our Matrix just like your friend. I have failed you and you have failed me. And then I tell the red moon what needs to be done now. The cycle needs to continue. And I fall on the Red full Moon. My heart I let drop shattering with the rest of my being. Tears fell with the rest of me and I whisper to the wind one last time. Our secret. My feelings. Those three words that are so forbidden. I Love you. As I watch seconds before I hit the ground as I am singing my son you look up and sadness crosses your face. Maybe the song is what made you remember. Maybe it was my despair. And you stare watching my every movement as I fall towards what lies below me. The cold earth is my only sanctuary. Good-bye my love. Good-bye Dear Hiei.