Yay, this chapter is a little longer than my others, I told you I would make it up to you somewhere. Thank you missmcweir once again for your wonderful review. Just to warn people there is a lemon in this chapter. My apologies to those who don't like lemons, I know they're not to everyone's taste. I wrote this while I was listening to "Is This Real" by Lisa Hall, hence the chapter title. If anyone is interested in listening to it just email me and I can try and send it to you. One more thing, if I suck big time don't blame me. Rat (my muse) has escaped once again and I'm not too sure when to expect her back.
All human thinking is put in brackets. The wolf is put in double brackets.
Long Time Love.
Chapter 6.
"Oh my Gods," Kate exclaimed Friday morning as Remus stepped out of the fireplace. "You're hurt," she said noticing the 2 deep cuts that diagonally marked his face. She raised her hand to him but Remus winced and turned his face out of her reach. "I'm sorry," she said feeling unshed tears burn the back of her eyes. He didn't deserve this.
"You look exhausted," Kate told him.
"A little," he replied.
Putting an arm round his waist to support him Kate led him upstairs to the bedroom. Every one of his muscles ached as she helped him cross the room, out of his clothes and into bed. Almost instantly his eyes fluttered closed. Kate went to fetch her wand to perform a healing spell. Wounds such as these would scar no matter how good a healer she was but she had to do something. After all that was the reason she asked him to come to her house in the first place, so she could help him if he needed it.
Seeing him lying there made it all seem real. Not that it wasn't real, it's just that yesterday he was a man, a wizard. Today he was still those things but he was also a werewolf. Yes, her cousin was one, but she had never dated one before. She was pleasantly surprised to find that it didn't make any difference. In fact she loved him even more because of it. He had a quiet acceptance of himself that she was never aware of from any other witch or wizard. It was that acceptance that gave him the strength to face each and every full moon.
She felt her heart reach out to him as the reality of his life set in. She had never seen him directly after one of his transformations before, and whatever she was expecting she was sure it wasn't this. Usually he would hide away for a few days and she only recently found out why. She wasn't sure why he had accepted her offer to stay with her but she was glad he did. Smoothing his hair gently from his forehead she crept quietly from the room to allow him to rest.
The rest of the day went on pretty much as normal. Kate checked on him one more time and then went to take a shower. Feeling refreshed she made some tea then settled down in an armchair to read for a while. She couldn't have been sat for more than 20 minutes when a scream brought her out of her book-induced daze. Jumping out of the chair she ran upstairs to the bedroom and threw open the door.
There was Remus thrashing wildly in the bed muttering something that Kate couldn't understand. She lay down on the bed next to him and held him in her arms stilling his shaking body. Gently she stroked his hair back from his damp forehead. When she was convinced he was calm again Kate climbed off the bed trying not to wake him and slipped out of the room.
(Did this happen after every transformation?)She wondered. She couldn't bear to think that he went through this alone after the pain of transforming. Would his suffering ever end?
Deciding that she needed some air but not wanting to be too far from Remus in case he needed her again, Kate opened the back door and stepped out into the garden. The air was starting to get cooler now and she wrapped her arms around herself to keep the chill off. Satisfied that she was within earshot she walked over to the garden bench and sat down. Should she ask him about his nightmare when he wakes up? Maybe not. She wouldn't want to embarrass him. He seemed to be the kind of man that would be there to help anyone who needed him but could not accept the fact that sometimes he needed help himself. He was the strong one. The dependable one. The rock. He was the one that kept everyone together so he was damned if he was going to fall apart himself. Maybe that was another reason he wanted to be alone every full moon. He didn't want anyone to see him so vulnerable. Oh well, with any luck he won't remember the nightmare anyway.
The rest of the day passed without incident, which Kate was grateful for. She did keep going up to see him though just to make sure he was ok, and was relieved each time to see him sleeping peacefully.
When 10 o'clock came round she yawned and decided it was time she joined Remus in bed. She crept upstairs and into the bedroom. Slipping out of her clothes she stepped into a pair of pale blue pyjama bottoms and a white vest top and climbed into bed. Remus didn't move. Smiling, Kate closed her eyes and placed her hand lightly on his arm while she waited for sleep to claim her.
Kate was jolted awake sometime after it had gone dark by the feeling that someone was shaking her.
"Wake up, please wake up," she heard a desperate voice say. Opening her eyes she saw Remus knelt next to her. The moon shone in his tear filled eyes through a gap in the curtains making them look as though they were made of glass.
"Thank Merlin you're ok. I thought you were dead," Remus said sitting back on his heels and covering his eyes with his hands.
"Why would you think I was dead?" she asked him.
"I thought I had killed you," he replied. Seeing the blank look she gave him he continued. "The full moon, the wolf," he said as if it was the most obvious thing in the whole world.
"Remus," Kate said softly. "The last phase of the full moon was last night." Muttering the word lumos a low light filled the room. "Look in the mirror over there, there's no wolf tonight."
Looking over at the mirror he touched his light brown hair, traced around his hazel eyes and finally ran a finger over the scars that marked his face. Turning quickly he pulled Kate into his arms.
"Oh Gods Kate, I was so scared."
"Shh," she said placing kisses on his cheek and temple. "It's ok, I'm ok."
Pulling away slightly Remus looked into her eyes as if seeking proof that she wasn't hurt before taking her in his arms again. He was shaking uncontrollably both out of panic and relief. She stroked his hair and kissed his shoulder to try and calm the tremors.
Feeling her lips pressed against his skin he felt the first stirrings of his inner beast. He tried to concentrate to keep him at bay but it was getting increasingly difficult to do as her lips traced a path up his neck. He was still shaking but for a different reason now. The one thing that he was worried would happen now seemed imminent but he was damned if he was going to give up control without a fight.
"Just let go," she whispered.
"I can't," he replied closing his eyes, his breathing becoming heavier. "We have to stop. He's close; I can feel him. I can't do this"
"Yes you can," she replied softly. "If you don't trust the wolf, then trust me. Let go Moony."
At the sound of his nickname coming from her lips he could feel his own curl back, baring his teeth as he felt his resolve crumble.
Very slowly he leaned in to press his lips against hers. Kate moved her arms to circle his neck as she opened her mouth to deepen the kiss. She heard herself moan as she felt his tongue against hers. He moved his hands up and down her back before bringing one round to cup one of her breasts. (I shouldn't be doing this) he thought, but the wolf was too strong. Remus was too tired after the last few days to put up much of a fight. Moving her long hair out of the way he traced a line of kisses across her jaw then down to her neck. Slowly he brought his hand up to slip the strap of her top off her shoulder kissing the place where it had been. Every touch, every kiss was slow and deliberate.
She knew that he didn't want it to happen like this, that he wanted to be totally in control, but she also knew that he had to let the wolf out sometime. If he didn't do this tonight he never would. He had kissed her before but it had never felt like this. It was like having twin lovers. Both identical but each with completely different techniques. (I cant believe he has never done this before,) she thought briefly before all thought disappeared completely and all she could feel was his mouth against her skin as it travelled back up to claim hers. This wasn't Remus anymore, not really. She knew that and was relieved that he trusted her enough to surrender. He was there but he wasn't. He could see and feel and smell and taste but he had no real control over his actions.
Deciding he needed to see and feel more of her he started to peel her top off only breaking contact with her mouth at the very last moment. Pulling back slightly he drank her in with his eyes. Gods she was beautiful. Kate reached out and pulled him back onto the bed with her.
Silently urging his mouth towards her breasts she moaned as she felt his lips brush against one of the tight pink buds before taking it into his mouth. He circled his tongue around it as he sucked gently causing her to arch her back offering herself to him completely. The wolf was ecstatic. It had been 6 months since they first met and Remus had never let him close to her before. He'd never let him close to anyone before for that matter. Gods that man was stubborn. But he was here now and he was not going to pass this up for anything.
"Remus," she gasped as she felt him move lower kissing and licking across her stomach. Slowly he began to remove her pyjama bottoms exposing the dark triangle of hair where the tops of her thighs met.
"Oops, look what's happened," he said playfully with a cock of his head.
"Oh dear," Kate replied. "Why do you suppose that happened?"
"Very poor quality if you ask me," he said barely holing back a growl. "I would advise you not to buy any more if they just fall off like this."
"I will take that into consideration," she said breathlessly as Remus ran his tongue up her inner thigh. (Oh sweet Merlin why did he wait this long?) She thought closing her eyes.
He inhaled and almost lost control completely as her scent filled his nostrils. Although he had never been with anyone before he knew what arousal smelled like. He had caught it on a number of Sirius' admirers on their regular nights out, and he also thought he could smell it on Kate once or twice. And that was exactly what he could smell now. The air around him was heavy with it. Drugging him with its sweetness.
He watched his hands as they traced her body. The goosebumps that appeared as he ran a finger up her thigh. The way her stomach contracted at his feather light touch. He saw one of her nipples darken then felt it strain under his palm as he fought to feel as much of her as possible. At that moment he was thankful to have the wolf there to give him strength, for without him he didn't think he would be able to go on.
Relying on pure instinct he looked up at her face and began to crawl up her body. His breathing ragged by the time he reached her face. He pushed his fingers into her hair and pulled her head to the side to expose her neck. He ran the back of a finger down the side before lowering his head and closing his mouth over her. She gasped as she felt his teeth graze the tender flesh there, but then threw her head back to offer him more.
(She shouldn't be so willing,) he thought vaguely turning his attention to her collarbone. ((Oh but she is. Just look at her, sprawled under us, naked as the day she was born. She wants this. You know she does)).
Distracted for a moment by this internal conversation, Remus was taken by surprise when Kate placed her hands on his chest and pushed him off. Straddling him she bent her head and kissed, nibbled and licked her way down his chest and stomach.
"One of us seems to be a little over dressed," she said huskily, slipping a finger into the waistband of his boxer shorts and tugging slightly.
Remus grinned. "What do you think we should do about that?"
Kate didn't say anything but merely reached for her wand.
Remus grabbed her wrist. "And just what are you planning on doing with that?" He growled.
Once again Kate didn't reply but placed the tip of her wand against her stomach and muttered the contraceptus charm under her breath. "What did you think I was going to do with it?" She asked with a raise of her eyebrows.
It was Remus' turn to be silent as he took the wand out of her hand and threw it across the room. He then pulled her down to him in a searing kiss.
"Now," he said between kisses. "What was that you were saying about my boxers?"
Kate wriggled out of his grasp and once again made her way down to the object in question and started tugging on the waistband with her teeth. Hearing a low growl come from above her she grinned and with the help of nimble fingers continued on her mission to remove the confounded things. Slipping them over his feet she then copied his actions and crawled her way up his body kissing and licking.
From that moment on things became frenzied. Their hands were everywhere. Skin touched skin. Lips touched lips. Hearts raced as their breath came hard and fast. Kate threw her head back like a woman possessed. They rolled around on the bed, each one fighting for dominance. The quilt fell to the floor quickly followed by the two lovers who were too wrapped up in each other to notice. Remus never wanted this to end but he also didn't know how much more he could take. Every inch of his body ached. Slowly he pulled back to look at her with eyes as black as night, and what Kate saw in them was desire. Pure and unadulterated. No one had ever looked at her like that before. She reached up a hand and lightly touched his face with her fingertips before sliding it round the back of his head and pulling him down.
Wrapping a leg around his waist she silently urged him to take what was his and he didn't disappoint. He ran his fingers up the leg that was around his waist and placing his hand on her hip he slid into her. She gasped against his cheek as she felt him fill her completely. Gradually he began to move, the pace slow yet full of passion. He buried his face in her hair and let out a feral growl that refused to be held back. Kate brought her other leg up and crossed her ankles as they rocked together. She wrapped her arms around him as they gradually gained speed. He hooked an arm under one of her knees to raise her leg as his thrusts became more urgent. Feeling the familiar fire spread through her she threw her hands above her head in reckless abandon as she cried out. Remus wasn't far behind her. He brought his mouth down on her neck as he too felt the delicious release overpower him.
Sweat clinging to their bodies they lay gasping for breath. Finally he managed to ease himself to one side worrying that he was crushing her and lay on his back. Kate closed her eyes and smiled with satisfaction as she traced lazy patterns on his stomach with her fingertips.
"Are you ok?" she asked.
"More than you could imagine," he replied. "Are you? I mean, I didn't hurt you did I?"
"No," she said as he pulled her to him. "You didn't hurt me".
No other words were needed, and curling her hair around his fingers they lay for some time in silence before they both drifted off into the world of contentment that only lovers share.
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To be continued…