A Resurrection?
"Good luck you know you better go and get it,
Cause love is never in the same place if you left it..."
I've made up my mind, I have to go back. I can't stand it any longer, I know I said that I wasn't strong enough, that he had to come for me, that my ties to this place I call my home were stronger than my love for him. But I was wrong and I need him, he's the only one I know that can help free me. What's ironic about all this though is that I thought I needed to be rid of him and everything in relation to Tree Hill to be free. But in reality I'm bound to this never ending need to be free and that chains me down. Keeps me from moving on, I need him to break these chains and let me loose. If he will do that I don't know, but it's all I have left, my hopes are riding on that... that and his love...
It's raining, but there's light out. It's a beautiful day really... my mother used to tell me that when the sun shines and it's raining at the same time a baby deer was being born. Maybe it's a sign, telling me that we can rebuild our love. A sign of resurrection... I feel, well I really don't know what I feel anymore. Don't think I ever did, but then again do anyone ever? I suppose I should be nervous, because I don't know how he's been or what he's up to or even if he's with someone. But I'm not; I can't help be feel calm. Like this weight has been lifted off my shoulders and it makes me lighter than I've ever been, I like that feeling...
It's Nathan, he is my saving grace. He is what takes the weight off of me and throws it away. Then he throws me up and lets me get a sense of what it's like to fly... but he's always there to catch me. So when I do come back down, I'm happy. Not disappointed that my flight ended but joyous because it's ended and I get to come back to him...
"Well I said you wouldn't understand,
This was long term love..."