A/N: Hello my Degrassi people and fans. Here's my fourth chapter for you all.

Disclaimer: I do not own any characters to the show at all.

Minds Thoughts

Getting out the piece of notebook paper from earlier this day. Grabbing a pen on my desk bringing it down to the paper. The thoughts of my mind writing down realizing what this means. Looking out my window seeing snow falling to the ground peacefully.

I still remember the days when I was a young child. Always happy to be home nothing going wrong. My father having me smile whenever he's around. My mother never drinking whisky or any other alcohol's. Life was the best when I was young. At least it was till now.

She puts down her pencil reading what she has written. What would happen when I read this to everyone? Would Paige put me with Mrs.Sauve like she did last time? I don't want to go there but it just doesn't seem right. Looking down at the bands resting on my right wrist. Waiting for me to pop them instead of using the sharp razor blades. The small pop of pain should be alright for now. Then I look back down at the sheet of paper with writing on it here and there. Picking up the pencil just to write a bit more.

Life here at home today is not what you might be thinking. You must be thinking wow Ellie Nash living in a peaceful home where nothing could possibly go wrong at all. But if those are the exact thoughts then you're totally wrong. Here everything is wrong and never seems to go right. Words here on this sheet of paper are just words not fully explained. I guess no one believes me at all since anyone barely does.

She then sets down her pen reading over what she has written. Sighing wondering if things would be alright. I wish I could just change my life and have it the way it use to be. Always being me my self before my life deteriorated into non-existence. I guess this is just me and always will be. Popping rubber bands on my wrist just longing for blades to come back to me. Maybe writing this paper seems horrible. But would the whole class be surprised when they hear it if I ever have to read it? I don't want to even think about it.

I guess I'll just give it a break for right now. I get up off of my chair turning off my lamp, getting into bed. "Maybe tomorrow will be another depressing day" I hear my self say. Eyes closing for a new day to full fill it's self.

A/N: Hey sorry it has taken me for ever finish it! Well I hope you like it, although it might seem short. So please review and don't FLAME!