By: Nightingale
Rating: PG13
Part 20Alison left after their brief talk. Though it was more of a begging from Gin that she leave her husband, but Alison...she needed the money. She had lost her family long ago and her husband was her only way of survival.
"You know how I feel about you there" pleaded Gin as Alison left her bedroom
"I can't survive without his money." Ansshe'll hold her ground and I hold my tongue, ever the diplomat. I'd like to think that I would be stronger than that."
"I never knew"
"Where's her head? Where's her nerve? Does part of her think this is all she deserves? I would be stronger. I would not stay one minute longer. I will be stronger than that" Gin said it more to herself as she walked to the window of her room.
"I know Heptson will treat me the same." Gin spoke as she faced the window
"But he treats you so well."
Gs not a good time to go. And it isn't my place to say leave him and run. No money's worth all the damage he's done but if she'll hold her ground and I hold my tongue, ever the diplomat. I'd like to think that I would be stronger than that."
"I never knew"
"Where's her head? Where's her nerve? Does part of her think this is all she deserves? I would be stronger. I would not stay one minute longer. I will be stronger than that" Gin said it more to herself as she walked to the window of her room.
"I know Heptson will treat me the same." Gin spoke as she faced the window
"But he treats you so well."
Gin spun around to face Sneaks.
"It was the same with Alison. It started out good. They usually do. Then one day it's taken for granted. Till words become weapons and love turns to pain. Why is she still holding on? She says living without him is too hard to face."
"Try to imagine yourself in her place."
"But with well chosen words and well placed tears she forgives him in two seconds flat. I'd like to think that I would be stronger than that."
Sneaks just shook her head.
"It's different for you"
"I know what you're thinking and I know what you'll say, that my life and her life are like night and like day. She says her love is the love that will save him. Brave words but I don't believe them.
"I can't answer those questions but I think you're talking about things that will never happen. If you're doomed into this marriage look at the bright side of things. I know that whatever happened between you and Jack"
"He's going back to Sarah"
"Oh. Well then at least you won't have to live with that."
"I refuse to live with that mole Heptson" Gin stated as she turned back to her window
"What are you going to do"
Gin was calm when she turned and looked back at Sneaks.
"I'm going shopping tomorrow, and I'm taking a gun with me on my wedding day. If I'm forced to marry him I'll shoot myself first."
"Seriously you don't want to do that."
"Yes I do. I don't care about the money. I tried to show them that but they came after me. I love someone who doesn't care, and I'm forced into a marriage to save my mother's high society integrity. I won't marry that man and I told my mother as much."
Sneaks shook her head and left the room.
Soon after she saw the lights go out in Gin's room is when she left. She ran all the way to the Manhattan lodging house. All was silent in the house but Sneaks knew where she was going even in the dark. She climbed the stairs and opened the door to the bunkroom. Here is where it took the most of her time she had no clue where Jack's bunk was. She went over the room twice but never found him. She did find one top bunk empty though and took that as his bed.
"Where the hell is he" she whispered to herself.