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Chapter 20: The Message Through Music
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It was safe to enter into his bedroom. Jazz was the only one home, so she wouldn't care. He transformed back into a human, tossed the CD rack on his bed, and set Hoshi on the floor.
"Stay" he tried to command the dog. Hoshi just stared at him. "Dogs" Danny muttered under his breath. He walked down the stairs, unaware that Hoshi was following him.
"Jazz?" Danny called. Jazz, who was sitting on the couch, jumped when he called her name.
"Where'd you- never mind. Aw, how cute!" Jazz said to behind him. Danny whirled around to see Hoshi sitting at his foot.
"Where'd you find him?" Jazz asked.
"Ri's house" Danny muttered.
"You went to her house?! After what happened?" Jazz asked.
"Yes, but only because Toyo said I should" Danny said in his defense.
"Well, I guess that was a good thing. He's all skin and bones."
"Yeah, well, do we have anything he could eat?" Danny asked. "He's starting to eat my shoe." It was true. The two of them didn't notice Hoshi knowing on Danny's convers.
"I think we do" Jazz said, getting up from her seat and walking into the kitchen. She peered into the fridge and pulled out some leftovers. "Do dogs eat Alfredo?"
"I don't know, but he doesn't care" Danny answered, looking down at the dog, eyeing the dish.
"We'll, might as well give it to him. He's eyeing that pretty good."
Jazz set it on the floor and the dog attacked it, devouring the whole thing in what seemed like thirty seconds.
"Boy, he was hungry" Jazz said in amazement. "But what do we do about mom and dad?"
"Dunno" Danny muttered. "I guess we can always ask them if he could stay. I mean, if we tell them that some service came and gave him to us because Ri requested it. I wouldn't be lying technically. They came by while I was there." Danny realized he said that out loud.
"You went in her house while people were there?!" Jazz said fearfully.
"No, they went in after I went in. They didn't see me. So don't worry. I got out of there, no one saw me."
Jazz eyed him suspiciously. "Fine." Jazz crouched down and pet the dog. "What's his name?"
"His tag says Hoshi. Very odd name, but I won't ask."
"Hoshi is very odd. I'm sure it's Japanese for something, but what?"
"How should I know? -Sigh- I'm going up to my room." Danny turned and dragged his feet upstairs. Danny didn't notice, nor did he care that Hoshi was following him. Danny closed his door, walked to his bed and plopped down.
"Ow!" Danny shot up and looked at what he lied on. He forgot that the CD rack was on his bed. He picked it up and wondered if he should put one in.
He owned the Most of the Linkin Park CDs, so listening to Meteora was a no. He listened to Sam's Evanescence CD. He owned System of the Down and Disturbed, so they were a no too. V-6, Boa, Dream, and Every Little Thing were in Japanese, so he'd listen to that later. That left him with Vanessa Carlton, Barlow Girls and Switchfoot. He popped in Barlow Girls, assuming that it would calm his nerves, since it looked like some alternative rock group. To his surprise, the CD was pretty good. The first song, which was called 'On My Own', was pretty good. He thought the next song, 'Pedestal', was so true by experience, but the next song, 'Never Alone', really spoke to him:
I waited for you today
But You didn't show
No, no, no
I needed You today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life
We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
Memories of Ri flooded his mind. But these songs made him happier than he had felt in a long time. The next two songs, 'Harder than the First Time' and 'You Led Me' were more songs people could relate to. But looking at the words, the next song had been highlighted:
Mirror, mirror on the wall, Have I got it?
'Cause Mirror you've always told me who I am
I'm finding it's not easy to be perfect
So sorry you won't define me
Sorry you don't own me
Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To a list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try
Mirror I am seeing a new reflection
I'm looking into the eyes of He who made me
And to Him, I have beauty beyond compare
I know he defines me
Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To a list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try
Who are you to tell me
That I'm less than what I should be?
Who are you? Who are you?
I don't need to listen
To a list of things I should do
I won't try, I won't try
Danny listened to the next song, called 'Superstar'. Danny laughed at what had started song number eight
"Otto!"
"Yeah?"
"Come on you got 5 seconds young man, you better push record!"
"Alright, "
"Aughh!"
Song 8, which was called 'Clothes', reminded him of Sam. That reminded him of that night he had first seen Ri when she had disappeared. Danny became hot of embarrassment. He remembered what she had said about Sam, and that reminded him that he had to talk to her.
Not really thinking, he popped Vanessa Carlton into his walkman. He scanned through the songs, not really listening to any of them. But his hand stopped on number seven. It sounded a little sad, but he didn't change it. But when the words came on, he wished he could have:
Once upon a year gone by
She saw herself give in
Every time she closed her eyes
She saw what could have been
Well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds
When covers tucked in tight
Funny when the bottom drops
How she forgets to fight... to fight
And it's one more day in paradise
One more day in paradise
As darkness quickly steals the light
That shined within her eyes
She slowly swallows all her fears
And soothes her mind with lies
Well all she wants and all she needs
Are reasons to survive
A day in which the sun will take
Her artificial light… her light
And it's one more day in paradise
One more day in paradise
It's one more day in paradise
One last chance to feel alright… alright
Don't pretend to hold it in just let it out
Don't pretend to hold it in just push it out
Don't you try to hold it in just let it out and
Don't you try to hold it in you hold it in
And it's one more day in paradise
One more day in paradise
It's one more day in paradise
One last chance to feel alright… alright
Once upon a year gone by
She saw herself give in
Every time she closed her eyes
She saw what could have been
Danny's mind was racing. That was the song Ri had sung when she told him she was going to die. And she was right. Danny skipped through the next two songs. He stopped on the last song, only because it sounded as if the CD was malfunctioning.
Cccfcocrcccycocu…
It sounded to Danny that someone, or something was trying to say something. It sounded like… for you?
I was stained with a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life, you showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew what was right; I just didn't know that I might
Peel away, and choose to see with such a different sight
And I will never see the sky the same way,
And I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
And I will never cease to fly if held down,
And I will always reach too high cause I've seen,
Cause I've seen, twilight
Never cared never wanted
Never sought to see what flaunted
So on purpose so in my face couldn't see beyond my own place
It was so easy not to behold what I could hold
But you taught me I could change
Whatever came within these shallow days
And I will never see the sky the same way,
And I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
And I will never cease to fly if held down,
And I will always reach too high cause I've seen,
Cause I've seen, twilight
As the sun shines through it pushes away
And pushes ahead
It fills the warmth of blue
And leaves a chill instead and
I didn't know that I could be
So blind to all that is so real
But as illusion dies
I see there is so much to be revealed
And I will never see the sky the same way,
And I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
And I will never cease to fly if held down,
And I will always reach too high cause I've seen,
Cause I've seen, twilight
I was stained with a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life, you showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew what was right; I just didn't know that I might
Peel away, and choose to see with such a different sight
And I will never see the sky the same way,
And I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday
And I will never cease to fly if held down,
And I will always reach too high cause I've seen,
Cause I've seen, twilight…
Danny stopped the CD, put it back into its case, and threw it as far across the room. That CD frightened him and he fought ghost. That voice. Who was it? At that moment, Danny didn't want to find out.
"-Sigh- tomorrow won't be easy." Hoshi groaned as if he knew what he was talking about.
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They're saying, let's ask why, don't read what she says, don't want to read her fic, they can't leave anyway, that kind of action will fade with the day. That is part of the song that describes Sam. That chapter was filled with only songs, but good news anyone! The story end next chapter, so you don't have to read it anymore. Not that you were reading it in the first place. Signing Off!