Author's Note: Slowly but surely, I'm getting there. Reviews are, of course, always welcome!

The Kama Whatsa

The amusement in Z's voice turned to concern. "I seem to be hitting a sore spot here. Aren't you a bit young to swear off of relationships?"

"There's doesn't seem to be a whole lot in it for me. I have friends that I can hang with and get support from so I don't need a boyfriend for that. As for ... the act, it's not worth my time. The guys get all enjoyment out of it." Josie was glad of the dim light. Her face must be as red as Marshall's was when he was neon. However she felt she should continue. Z usually had some good suggestions when she had personal problems. Discussing things while hiding behind a table seemed natural in a strange sort of way for them. "They seem to think that since they can, uh, go from 0 to 60 in a matter seconds, that I can. I either have to tell them to stop pushing me or endure something painful. It seems to get worse every time."

Z shook his head sadly. "It's a sad cruelty of biology that when boys need self-restraint the most, they have it the least.. Though I can't imagine you being shy about telling a boy what they are doing wrong."

"No problem with telling them what is going wrong ... just how to do it right." Could this be any more embarrassing, she thought. She shifted so that she was sitting with her knees bent up.

"I hadn't realized you were having problems like this," Z said sincerely, "I'm sorry you've been missing out on the pleasure. I couldn't go into too many details back then but there are many books and tapes with information about making it pleasurable for both partners."

"Like you couldn't tell us that during class." Josie was tempted to hit him.

Z sighed in exasperation, "I could barely talk about birth control. The Board wouldn't exactly approve if I have handed out reading assignments from the Kama Sutra."

"The Kama Whatsa?"

The Kama Sutra, It's a sex book that was written over 2 thousand years ago. I'd thought you'd run into it in college. It was practically unofficial required reading at MIT."

"Well you shouldn't have to research stuff like that. You're supposed just know it."

"It sometimes isn't that easy." Z replied.

"Isn't it all supposed to be instinctive?"

"The basics yes, but the refinements take a little additional knowledge and practice. Women, usually, they need a bit more time as well at least a level of trust and comfort with their partners than men do."

"And I was head in the class in trust and comfort level."

A partner you trusted. Hmm. Josie thought. She rested her head on her bent knees. She did a mental scroll through of the people she had dated and the ones she met recently. In all honesty, while she cared for them, she couldn't say she trusted them deep down. Not like, Z for example.

She looked up as she felt his hand on her shoulder. He said, obviously trying to cheer her up, "Don't worry, now I can give you a list of resources you might find useful."

She didn't want a list of resources. She wanted ... him.