I have returned with the fourth chapter! wooooo! thank you all so much for the great reviews. oh and to say something...this fic is NOT going to be a lemon fic. i cannot write that. dreadfully sorry to everyone...but...please continue to read my fic:gets down on knees: PLEASE!
Yami: don't do it! do NOT continue to read this! if you do...i will send you to the Shadow Realm:laughs evilly:
BR:...ooh, scary...:eyes roll:
Yami:...oh shut your face...we all hate you...
BR: ya know Yami, I was gonna have a nice scene between you and Yugi but it seems that ain't gonna happen now
Yugi:comes from nowhere and smacks Yami:
Yami: hikari! what was that for!
Yugi: for being a dumbass!
Yami: V.V
BR:...heh..I love causing problems..Yami, do the disclaimers..now
Yami:sighs: BlackRose does not own Yu-Gi-Oh! or anything else that you might see in this fic. :sighs again, walks away:
BR:...poor guy...oh well! on with the fic!
lyrics
Ryou's journal entries
flash backs
Can You Feel The Love Tonight?
Chapter Four: Heartbreaker On The Job
Bakura's POV
"Ryou..." I said softly. Then, without knowing what I was doing, I pulled the slender boy into my arms and hugged him tightly. Oh, Ra, I've waited for this moment for too long, way too long. I felt him wrap his arms around me and return the hug, just as tightly as I had given it to him. He pulled away slowly, as if he didn't want to, and looked me straight in the eyes. His chocolate orbs bore into my own coffee colored ones.
"Bakura, we need to talk" he said, motioning for us to go inside. I nodded and let him go ahead me, then I closed the door and followed him into the living room. He took a seat on the cream colored couch and I sat on the arm of a nearby lounge chair.
"Why did you lie to me, Bakura" he asked after a moment's silence. I stared at him, confused. What was he talking about?
"When did I lie to you" I asked with a cold voice, colder than I had wanted it to be. He cringed slightly at my tone, but went on with what he needed to say.
"You told me that you were going out with Marik, but he's going out with Malik. You lied to me. Why" He looked me in the eyes again, awaiting a truthful answer. I sighed deeply. Should I tell him?
"Ryou...I...I'm sorry I lied to you but...it was the only way.." I trailed off, not knowing how to say the rest.
"Only way for what, Bakura" He sensed my hesitation, then added"you can tell me anything. I would never judge you." I took a deep breath. It was now or never.
"Ryou...I...I..I lo" I was cut off when the phone suddenly rang. Blasted technology. I reached for it, but Ryou had beat me to it.
He pulled the phone wire out of the wall, then turned back and faced me. "You were saying"
"Ryou...I lied to you because...because I...I was drunk, Ryou. I had gone out drinking that night while you were sleeping. I was out late and when you had woken up...I was still screwed up by all the beer I had drank." I sighed. Why did I lie to him? Why didn't I just tell him the truth? His eyes filled with different emotions. I probed his mind to read them. Sadness, anger, confusion, nervousness...they were all rushing through his head.
"Oh...okay then.." he sighed heavily. "Bakura..can I ask you something"
"Sure, Ryou, anything." I told him.
"Well...I work at this bar and...this one person I work with..well I...I like him...a lot..and..I think he likes me back...should I ask him out" My heart stopped beating in my chest. He likes someone else! No...this isn't happening..this can't happen. No..my chance is gone now..I'll never be able to have Ryou.
"I...I...I think you should go for it" I told him. I want him to be happy..and I guess...I'm just not the person for that job. I sighed heavily and rested my chin on the palm of my hand.
"Thanks. I think I will tonight at work." He smiled one of those innocent smiles that always used to drive me crazy..well..they still do.
"Good luck. I'm sure he'll say yes." I told him reassuringly. He nodded and smiled again.
"Well, I better get going. I need to get back to Yugi's and change into my work uniform." I nodded. Wait..I need to ask him where he works.
"Ryou, where do you work"
"Planet Bang. Why"
"Planet Bang" I asked. What a weird name.
"Yeah, it's a new night club that opened up about three weeks ago. It's a cool place. Why did you want to know" he asked again.
"Oh..just wondering. Maybe I'll stop by one of these days for a drink or something." He nodded.
"Well, I better run. Bye, Bakura." he quickly hugged me and then walked over to the door, opened it, and left. I sat on the couch as warm tears made their way down my cheeks. Why did it have to be this way?
Ryou's POV
I walked down the sidewalk, my hands in my pockets. Yes, it was true someone at work liked me..but I don't like him back. Why didn't I just tell Bakura my feelings for him? I could be in his arms right now, kissing him gently, telling him how much he means to me. I ruined it all when I lied and said I like Mark. Mark's cool..but..I love Bakura..I need him..he completes me. I sighed and trudged into the Kame Game Shop, then up the stairs to my bedroom. I still needed to get ready for work. I grabbed my uniform from my closet and then headed down the hall to the bathroom. A nice shower would help me clear my thoughts.
Bakura's POV
I was going to Planet Bang tonight. There's no way in hell that this guy Ryou likes is gonna get him. I'm gonna confess my feelings for him and that's final. I don't care if he likes someone else. I know he loves me and this other guy can fuck off and go to hell. I need my Ryou and tonight I'm going to get him. I'll send this other prick to the fucking Shadow Realm if I have to.
I changed into tight, black leather pants and a tight, black tank top. Then, putting my black trench coat on, I walked out to my black Aztec. Actually, it's Ryou's car but..oh well. Now...if I'm correct..I believe that Planet Bang is down the street from that Starbucks...yeah..two rights..a left..yeah yeah..
I backed out of the driveway and started down the street, deep in thought. All I have to do is tell him the truth. Just say"Ryou, I love you." That's all. Simple. Simple simple simple...yeah...if it's so fucking simple then why the hell am I so fucking nervous! Damn this all. I should've just fucking told him how I felt earlier today, but nooooo I had to get all fuckin' nervous and back out.
I turned the cd player on and stuck in my The Used cd. I quickly changed it to number two, my favorite song. As it started playing, I quietly sang along.
Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin
(I'm melting, I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now
Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
why cuts aren't healing
Learning how to love
I'm melting
It reminded me so much of Ryou, that two tears made their way down my cheeks. I couldn't help but cry. If I lost Ryou tonight..I would never be able to have him. That's why I need to tell him so badly. I will not lose the only thing I have that's worth living for!
I pulled into the parking lot of Planet Bang. Where the hell was I supposed to park! It's fucking packed! Sighing, I knew I could waste no time. I drove around until I found a spot behind the building. Turning the car off, I locked the doors and got out. I walked back around front and went to the front of the line. Using my mind controlling powers, I had the bouncer let me in without the long wait. Ah, shadow powers rock. Now..where was Ryou...
Ryou's POV
I sighed deeply. I can't believe I'm going to do this. Yet, it's the only way for me to get over Bakura once and for all. Yes, he has changed, but it's clear he doesn't love me. He may like me, but he doesn't return the feelings I want him to.
I walked over to Mark cautiously. He had his back turned, taking an order from someone across the bar. Once he was done, I lightly tapped him on the shoulder. He turned around, saw me, and smiled.
"Hey, Ryou. What's up"
"Um...Mark..can I talk to you" I asked timidly. Even though I didn't really like him, I was still nervous. I know, I know. It's wrong that I'm leading him on but, I'm sure that I'll learn to love Mark as much as I do Bakura...correction..as much as I did Bakura.
"Sure, Ryou. Let's go." He took my arm gently and led me into the back storage room. "So, what's on your mind"
"Well...Mark...I...I...you see...I really like you..and...and I..well..I was wondering...if maybe...maybe you'd like to...go out with me" I blushed slightly. This was embarrasing. His face lit up.
"I'd love to, Ryou" He hugged me gently and kissed me softly on the lips. I blinked and kissed him back. He pulled away and took my hand. "We better get back out there. The customers might start a riot." I chuckled. Loving him won't be that hard to do.
We went back out to the bar and started doing our regular shifts, occasionally shooting each other small smiles. I did it. I no longer love Bakura.
Bakura's POV
I pulled up a stool at the bar and waited patiently for someone to come and get my drink. That's when I saw him. Ryou was coming towards me, though he seemed to have a lot on his mind and didn't realize it was me.
"What can I get ya, sir" he asked, while looking around for a glass.
"Sprite with a few cherries." I answered him. He looked up, startled to hear my voice.
"Bakura! What are you doing here"
"Just stopped by to get a drink and check this place out."
"Oh..okay...cool..well..I'll be right back with your drink." He walked off to go fill the glass he was holding. I watched him intently. Then, some guy came up behind Ryou and wrapped his arms around my angel's slender waist. Ryou turned around and, when seeing who it was, kissed the man...on the lips. I stared, my mouth open with shock, my eyes reading hurt and betrayal. I can't believe it! He just kissed some other guy! I thought he loved me!
After he stopped lip locking, he poured my drink and came back over. "Here. Enjoy." He smiled sweetly. I just grunted and turned away, not wanting him to see the hurt in my eyes. "Is everything alright, Bakura" he asked me, concern coating his words.
"No, everything is not alright. You know why, Ryou? I'll tell you why. You are a fucking two timing whore! I thought you loved me, so I came here to tell you that I love you back and then I see you kiss some other guy. Well, fuck you, Ryou. Any feelings I had for you just fucking disappeared." I got up, knocking my stool over. Ryou looked shocked and his mouth was open slightly.
"You...you love me" he asked quietly.
"Loved, Ryou, loved. You broke my heart. Therefore, I can no longer love you." Without giving him a chance to say anything, I walked away and then out the door. Getting in my car, I slammed my fist on the steering wheel, hard. Why did I say that! Of course I still love him! Tears made their way down my cheeks for the third time that day. Love is a killer.
Ryou's POV
I stared after Bakura's retreating form. He loved me! And I threw that all away when I asked Mark out! What did I do! I just screwed up everything! I silently went into the bathroom and closed the door. I slid down the wall and began to cry. Why did life have to be this way? Why? What did I do to deserve this? I just want to die right now. It's not worth living anymore. It's just not worth it!
I wiped my tears and went back to work. I need to fix this. I just have to! I need to get the love of my life back!
TBC
BR:...okay, sorry if that was really short, but I couldn't think of anything else to put in that would make sense with this chapter. I hope you all liked it. Review please! I'm not updating till I get 40 reviews. Yeah, you heard me. 40, no more, no less.
Yami:wipes away tears: God..that was so fucking sad..
BR:...awww...:hugs Yami: it's okay, no need to cry...
Yami: will it all turn out good in the end?
BR: well...you can't exactly say that...but...anywho...review please!