Chapter 5
Disclaimer: I'm just borrowing Naruto temporarily; you'll get him back once school starts up again, except for Saturday mornings.
((Sakura's POV))
Ino and I were gonna' have fun today! First we'd go shopping, get a new outfit, try on some clothes and make up, make up our futures with Sasuke, and laugh about them because we knew they'd never come true. But it was still fun to dream. After shopping, we'd get lunch at Auntie Anne's pretzels. We'd get a massage, facial, and our nails done. After wards we'd probably go to a park and talk, like we used to. I had been saving up lots of money for this day. Our traditional end of summer shopping spree. The one day Ino and I threw down our rivalry and became friends again.
I turned into the door of the flower shop, because I agreed to help her get everything done so we could leave earlier.
I looked at everyone who'd been inside the flower shop. Ino was clinging onto Naruto's shirt, crying. Naruto was wiping tears away from his eyes with his wrist, and Neji... Neji was standing there, letting the tears fall freely, as if he'd given up trying to hold them in.
"I-Ino chan? Naruto? Neji san?... what's wrong, guys?" I asked. If Neji of all people were crying it had to be pretty bad. Ino looked up at me, and tried to clear her throat to speak, but in the end just buried her face into Naruto's shirt again.
"... W-what's wrong?"
"Hina...ta slit her wrist in the bath tub," Neji said, after clearing his breath. I stayed silent for a few minutes, I was getting dizzy. It was then I had realized I'd been holding my breath. I clutched my head, and the image of Hinata's dead body came to my mind. Imagining it was enough for me... I could imagine her white eyes shedding tears as she whispered goodbye to the world, dragging the kunai across her pale skin, and watching the blood taint it. I could imagine her wincing in pain as she watched the blood seep into the water of the tub...
I had been holding my breath again; it had just been caught in my throat. The lump that came when the tears would not clogged up my mouth and I couldn't breathe. I fainted.
((Shino's POV))
I walked with Kiba; his silence was soothing and unsettling at the same time. My head was buzzing... I never ever got the chance to tell her that I felt something for her. I glared at Kiba, although he couldn't see it. If he could, I'm sure he wouldn't care. As far as he could tell I was feeling no remorse. As far as anyone could tell I wasn't even remotely sad that my best friend and the person I cared for was dead.
Maybe she was happier? Perhaps if someone had stopped her... would she be able to live with herself? I know it sounds cruel, but I'd rather have her be dead and happy than alive and miserable. Burdened down with the guilt and shame, still depressed because of whatever caused her to do it in the first place.
I wished for once Kiba would complain about something, anything... just to get my mind back to normal. But would things ever be normal?
"Kiba! Shino! Practice canceled," Kurenai said.
"...?" I asked.
"I got a message from Hinata's father, and it's in my deepest regret to inform you both..."
"We know, sensei, Neji told us about her s-suicide," Kiba said. I assumed he said it so he could keep himself from re-living the experience from being told.
"Suicide? Hiashi Sama said nothing about suicide... he just said... t-that she..."
"..." Maybe Kiba shouldn't have told her.
"I'm going to go talk to him!" she said angrily, "He should've told me!"
So we watched our sensei storm off, leaving Kiba and I to stand there in an uncomfortable silence. Why'd she have to cancel training? Kiba and I would've dueled and vented out our anger and sadness onto each other. When I was fighting, it was the only time I could really think straight. I glance over to Kiba, who was subconsciously petting Akamaru. His lips moved a bit, as if he were whispering.
'...' I thought to myself, and I started to walk back to my house. Half way there, I realized my lips had started moving too, I was whispering to myself, reliving conversations, saying the things I never could say... I was talking to her as if she were right next to me.
"...I loved you," I whispered. I could almost see her lips pull into a shy smile. But of course, she wasn't there. And she never would be there. Ever again.
You guys rule! I decided to stop being so lazy and answer reviews, starting from chapter 4. If I missed your review, sorry.
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