AN: Domo arigato for all your reviews. You really keep me going!
"..." is talking, '...' is thought, [...] is AN, (...) is extra info but part of the fic, ... means trailed off, -- means interrupted. "I will remember you" belongs to Sarah Mclachlan and associates.
I was going to switch to 3rd person in the future, but I decided that now would be a better time. Usagi doesn't remember this much because it's basically her subconsious talking to his conscious. Goku remembers, but he eventually convinces himself that it was a dream.
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I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for memories.
All was black darkness. Ever since those horrible ape instincts had taken over, Goku's mind was pushed to the back. He saw all the same things and heard the same things, but he just couldn't control his body.
And then there was her. He had no idea why she stood there and didn't run. She just stared up at him with those crystalline eyes.
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smiling' in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
He had to stop this monster. He pushed his mind forward and began the struggle. Before, he'd always lost immediately. But now he had something to cling to. He couldn't let the beast hurt Usagi.
The two minds pushed against each other, each wanting control. This was not the physical battle Goku was used to fighting, this was a true mental battle. It took so much energy, from both consciouses, to try to resist the other. One would seem to be winning and manage to move the body slightly, then the other would fight back with more. Both were exhausted. Eventually, simply because he had a reason, Goku was able to beat the monster inside him. But he couldn't turn himself back to a human (even if he had known how). His energy was spent. He was the victor, yet, from lack of energy both ape and boy mind seemed to be pushed into subconsciousness. Usagi continued to gaze at him as his human eyes stared back. She was unhurt.
I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
A soft glow penetrated the everlasting darkness. Goku found himself only a foot away from the creamy face of a girl clothed in white. Her gown was of gold and silver and pearls were strung in her familiar hair. A crescent moon sat on her forehead. A regal air seemed to surround her, but she seemed strangely familiar.
"Who are you?" he asked.
The girl smiled. "My name is Serenity-hime of the White Moon Kingdom. I lie dormant in Usagi as you currently lie dormant in this body."
Goku couldn't form his questions into words as he stared blankly.
"It is a difficult concept and not necessary for you to fully comprehend. Demo, I come here to thank you."
"Thank me?"
"Hai. Thank you- for not hurting Usagi. I know it took all your mind's strength to stop the animal from taking another step and injuring her. You have my complete gratitude. You must truly care for her."
Goku blushed but didn't respond.
"Domo arigato, Son Goku. I have a rare and wonderful gift for you. Rare because Lunarians have never before given Saiyins gifts, and wonderful because of the power it will offer you."
Goku looked up, with a mixed of eagerness and surprise on his face.
Serenity smiled. "No longer will you be forced to transform at the sight of my home, the Moon. No longer will instincts of destruction control your body. Iie, with the power of the Moon I give you a choice. You may choose when to transform, and when you do you will not lose yourself to the new body- you will be in control." [AN: I know they eventually learn to control the ape themselves, but Serenity basically just "taught" Goku early.]
Goku looked up sadly. "It's true, then. *I* am the monster that comes out during the full Moon. I'm the one that wrecks things. I'm the one that killed Grandpa."
Serenity nodded sadly.
"And now that will never happen again? I won't accidentally kill people or become a monster every 30 days?"
"Never again."
"Domo arigato gozaimasu, Serenity-hime."
Serenity held up her hand. "It's the least I can do."
Goku blinked; he seemed to be seeing two. One, the princess in a gown, and two, the girl he knew so well in an orange gi. "After all you have given me," said the two in unison, "this is my gift to you. So that you may remember me."
"Remember you?"
"I will be leaving shortly. But I just want you to know that I love you very much." Though the two girl were still fused as one, the regal voice was gone and only Usa's voice echoed in his ears.
"I love you with all my heart, in fact. I fear that my life will be empty without you, but the people need me. Only I can save their world, just as only you can save this world from countless monsters of the future. I will greatly miss you in the years to come."
Goku was speechless. The princess image had faded away and only Usagi remained in her gi. "Usa-chan?" was all he could manage.
"Tell Daddy I love him and I had to go; he won't understand. Tell Krillin I will miss him so much and to not be afraid to stand up for himself to bigger people. Tell Bulma, Yamcha, Oolong, and Puar thank you for so many friendships in such a short time. They will all always have a special place in my heart."
Goku nodded slowly.
"Domo arigato gozaimasu, Goku, for everything. My time is up; the fortnight is over." Her image was growing hazier.
"Promise me you won't be gone forever," he begged. "Promise me you'll come back. To me."
She smiled. "Hai. Though times will change and many years may pass, one day I will come back. I will find someway to return. Somehow..."
Her image was fading. She leaned up and kissed him lightly.
As she stepped back, Goku held a silver and white flower in his hand.
"Ai shiteru, Goku-chan. Remember me. Farewell."
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
She was gone. The Light was out. Goku slipped into unconsciousness as his body slipped back to regular size.
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Krillin watched as the ape shrank. He had no idea how Usa had survived being so close to stomped, but she had vanished too. He had not seen the tall, mysterious senshi that vanished simultaneously.
Rather worried, Krillin hopped into the ring to try to pull Goku out of the rubble. He was never able to explain how a delicate silver and white flower had come to be beside the former monster.
And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories
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AN: The end of the flashback. Next chapter is part two, the future. And I think now would be a good time to explain this: This fic will be in 3 parts: My Life, My Duty, and My Love. Cosmos will return to Earth in "My Duty" (aka Part II) and she will remeet Goku and Krillin. But there will be some... ah... obstacles, and it won't be until "My Love" that she will be reunited again with him and this time be happy. Hai, unfotunately both Parts I and II end rather sad. This makes Part III all the more sweeter. ^^;;
I'll try to get chapter 13 up ASAP, but as of now I'm very busy with life. Gomen nasi for any delay!!! If you'd like to be alerted via email (Callistostar786@hotmail.com) when I update, say so in a review and leave your email. Thanks!
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~Calli-chan