N/A I have been so horrible for neglecting my writing… and yet out of all seven of my fan fictions I pick this one to update…So on with the show…excuse my atrocious spelling, and construction of sentences. It is because of my English being so rusty. I've barely written in over a year and I blame the drugs I'm taking so enjoy.

Beautiful Nightmare

Chapter 3- "Premonition"

Dashing to meet the call she quickly pulled on her leather pants and her lace top, running out of the room. She ranso fast that there was nothing but the bar railing outside her room that was able to stop her. May was anguished over the truth, looking down below there hewas, Ryan; his face had shown age weighing upon it. She could barely tell it was him, with his brown dreadlocked hair. May saw it as peculiar and almost believeable that he did look somewhat bareable. She was not sure how she felt of the new Ryan. He looked a lot stronger, and not like some follower, he looked to be a leader now. When May ran this through her head it absolutely terrified her.

"Damn this can't be good." Sighing she tapped her fingers on the railing. Searching around the Mallrats grouped around Ryan all she could see was fancy feathers and braids, she could not find Salene "Well at least I won't have to consume both our frustrations…" She replied to herself. Ridden with anxiety throughout her entire body she somehow managed to urge her zombie body downstairs to make an appearance.

"Where have you been Ryan?"

"What were the mines like?

"Did you get scanned?"

Muffled voices and images were the only thing that crossed May's senses. Although body and soul of May's were present to the Mallrats, May's imagination had taken her on a long journey. A long time from now, where no suffering occurred, no distasteful gestures crossed her way in this world, it was her ultimate Utopia.

There was a family, and Salene was in it. She smiled and waved at May; on her lap bouncing was a pudgy little toddler. The toddler had reminiscent feature she remembered of her father and of herself. Crossing behind Salene was a man that May presumed was the father. However when some of the mist cleared and she had a good look it was her old friend from long ago. He was not dead, but alive, and gleaming with joy from the suffering she had so long ago witnessed. So enthralled with this world tears streamed quickly out of her face.

"This is the ultimate paradise." She thought to herself while the happy dream continued. Salene then passed the over-excited toddler to his father. Standing up she motioned For May to come over.

"May come here…"Salene mouthed the words. May heard the wind blowing and birds chirping. Suddenly all the sounds stopped, the sun blocked out and it turned deathly cold. The toddler and his father withered away, from the snows that use to fall black ashes had taken its place.

"May!" the dreamed Salene pulled out her arm. May did the same, but it was too late. The black ashes had now swarmed Salene's body into a cloud and she disappeared. May now could only hear the shrilling cries of her name being called.

"May?

"May?"

"MAY?" Amber slapped and May shook to see all these eyes fixated on her.

Depressingly she did not welcome herself back to this horrible state and slumped onto the bench and pouted. "What?"

Rolling her eyes Amber rested her hand on her waist. "Where were you just now we asked you a question and you didn't even answer? It's bad enough you don't do anything around here except for betray…"

Before Amber could finish Ellie nudged her not to bring up something like that. Amber sighed and put her hand on her forehead, pressed her fingers into her eyelids to relieve stress and look back to the sulking May.

"Alright, anyways Gel says you were the last to see Salene last night; do you know where she has gone?" Ryan shyly hiding cocks his head upwards at the talk of Salene. His eyes clouded over with joy and hopefulness that once was never there and now returned.

"Sal…Salene is still here?" Ryan softly asked. Amber sympathetically nodded her head. With that pain seared into May, and Ryan let out a big sigh that sounded as if pressure was released from his shoulders. "And…um and our child, is he here?"

When Ryan asked this, no one was able to look him in the eye or was willing to tell him the truth. May having no friendship or relationship towards Ryan felt no need to worry about what she had to say to him; all May could think about was the deep surge of jealousy that ran through her veins. "Ryan the baby didn't make it. Six months in, she fell down the stairs, and the baby was born too soon." May then proceeded to fold her arms, while Ryan suddenly drooped next to her and covered his face with his hands. Everybody but Ryan looked to her with a despised look. Finally Ellie was able to get Ryan onto his feet.

"Come on Ryan let's take you to Salene's room, you can rest there for now." Ellie dragged the traumatized Ryan up to the second level, whilst Jack followed along. Gel took Baby Bray and left Amber and May alone. Amber bared only the sight of little happiness when she smiled to her son, but when she looked back towards May all it could be was a loathing that Amber had.

"Why did you do that?" Amber folded her arms and began to tap her foot.

"Well somebody should have told him. I don't think Salene should have to go through that much emotion having to tell her long lost husband something that happened two years ago!"

"How can you say that? You're the last person I'd know who should know what is good for people's relationships!" Amber had now put her hands to her waist and the veins in her forehead pulsated. May knew this was the time to bow out. Out of all people she wanted to know her little secret she so much wanted to blurt it out most to Amber. Sighing and softly laughing sarcastically she stood up and met face-to-face with Amber.

"You're right I am the least of all people to know Amber. Just remember through Ryan's homecoming I'm sure Bray is out there too and on his way home." May turned to the stairs, "Oh and tell Jay I say hi." Amber so baffled and disgusted walked off while May climbed up the stair to her room to wait for her true love to return.

To be continued…