So this is something I decided to try after rewatching some episodes. The focus is on the sisterly bonds, love and friendships come second in this story. I was really trying to get Meredith's character and the whole situation right with my writing style. Later chapters might be less monotone. Please tell me, how you like this story :)
I do not own Grey's Anatomy or the characters, otherwise Slexie and Merder would be endgame!
Sometimes unexpected things happen. For example, when it turned out, that I had a younger sister – Lexie. Or when our plane crashed. Or my other long-lost sister…
Well, maybe it would be best to start at the beginning. The last few years were both the best and the saddest: the losses we made, the experiences, the relationships we found. The best being my sister Lexie. At the time we met, I wasn't happy about meeting her and to this day, I regret the time we lost. Things started to be so great. Derek and I adopted our sweet baby girl, I passed my exams and Lexie almost got Mark back. There was this idea about moving to Boston. And then the horrible day came. Six of our doctors were flying to Boise to separate twins. But plans changed. Our plane crashed, and horrible things happened.
To this day, I am scared to get on a plane. Arizona lost her leg, Derek almost lost his ability to operate, Cristina's mental state was awful and I… well I don't really want to think about it. Mark and Lexie… they never had their happily ever after. And I may not be the fairy tale type of girl, but Lexie was, and I know that all she wanted was the fairy tale happy ever after. But she never got the chance. The moment I thought about Lexie, a wave of flashbacks hit me.
"I'm Lexie.
Great, move!
Lexie Grey. Your sister"
"You're not crazy, Lexie. You're a Grey."
"And I still love you. Whether you are capable of letting me – or not."
"No. No more using my sister like a database."
"I am a person who just doesn't want to know you."
"You're just as mean as he is."
I wanted to scream and to cry for the sister I lost, for the time we never had. But all I could cry for right now, was my dead husband. Derek's dead. And I am pregnant. And he will never meet our daughter. I will never see him again or touch him or be happy again. The love of my life is gone. He is gone forever. And I am all alone.
"You make out with patients now?"
"Now all my boys are here."
"Flaws are unacceptable to McDreamy!"
"I will never cheat on you."
"Goodbye. Uhh…
Derek."
"You're not alone, Meredith. We are here for you. We will always be." It was Maggie's voice, that got me back from my state. I didn't realize that I said it out loud, but when I looked at the worried faces of my sister and Amelia, I knew that I was a mess. Sitting at the bathroom floor, staring at the wall. I already put on my dress and the shoes. My hair was done and my makeup probably ruined by my tears. I couldn't get up. I just didn't have the energy.
"Mer, please…", it was my sister again, "You have to get up. The funeral is about to start." Sister… I thought about Lexie again. This was just another tragedy in my life that I would have to accept. And I would. Soon. I would be fine and just get even more into my work. Because I am Meredith Grey, and I am always fine. But not today. Today, I just don't have the energy. "I can't", my voice was raspy and barely there," I can't go there. Because attending the funeral will make it real."
"She's always fine. That's her problem."
"I'm always fine. Don't you know that?"
"Meredith. My brother just died and I'm not going to miss his funeral because you're not getting up from the floor", this time Amelia decided to speak. I could hear the sadness and the frustration in her voice. She didn't want to leave me, but at the same time, she was grieving just as much as I was. "Amelia, please go. Don't wait for me. I just can't go there", I begged her to accept my answer. Begged her, to just leave me alone, to let me grief my way. I could see on their faces, that they wanted to argue, but then someone knocked on the door and they left.
"Mer, you need to get up. Because you will regret not going to that funeral." A soft voice spoke to me. Such a needed voice. A loved one.
"Our dad chose you. So, I'm sure, you are a very nice girl, Lexie. But I hope, you can understand, you're not a girl I have ever wanted to get to know."
"She's your sister.
And?
And you're family.
I'm not understanding.
Lexie is your family."
"Lexie!"
Maggie didn't understand. Who was this woman? A woman that was able to do the impossible. It only took her about ten minutes to convince Meredith to get to the funeral. They arrived only a few minutes after her and Amelia. Maggie and her boyfriend stood next to Amelia, trying to comfort her. Meredith stood just a few feet away from them, with the woman's arms around her. Zola stood in front of them, holding her mother's hand, while Bailey was in Alex' arm, who stood on Meredith other side. It was a beautiful and painful ceremony, everyone was saying goodbye to their, friend, colleague, brother, husband, father. Derek Shepperd – forever loved.
At some point Amelia broke down completely, she wasn't able to hold it in anymore. Her brother was gone and she didn't have anyone left, who actually cared about her. She loved to believe, that Meredith saw her as a sister, as family. But in reality, she was just Derek's little sister. And Meredith just tried to accept family because of Derek. He always told her; how important family was.
But even Maggie, who was really her sister, didn't have a chance. Maggie probably didn't know about the only family, Meredith accepted into her life: Lexie Grey. Therefore, she didn't understand, that what she thought was a sisterly relationship, was just friendship. From what Amelia witnessed, Meredith was closer to Cristina Yang and Alex Karev than to them. And this knowledge hurt. A lot.
While Amelia tried to calm down, Maggie didn't know, who needed her more. Her sister or Amelia. Both were broken and they weren't ready to let people in.