Who in their right mind would fall in love with a guy who thinks that girls only last for a week? I guess I'm stupid because I did…

My name's Tiu Xiao You…

And this is my Untold Story…

The cold rain continued streaming through my already soaking body. Thousands of raindrops continued to prick my already numbed body as I started to shiver. My tears started flowing even before the first raindrop fell, and now they are entwined with the waters of nature.

How long have I been standing here? I don't know...

All I could remember was his last glance at me and the final words of "goodbye" as he walked away, leaving me standing alone in the cold drizzle.

How did I get ended up in this black hole of misery? All I ever did was love...

But I guess that was my fatal mistake...I fell in love with a guy who doesn't know how to...

I've known their group since I was a sophomore. Even though I don't attend their elite school, YingDe University, I've always heard stories about them. The rich and popular F4 composed of 4 guys coming from 4 powerful families. Their leader was the arrogant Dao Ming Si; there was the silent and mysterious HuaZe Lei, the cheerful and playful MeiZhou Ling and the playboy Ximen Zhong Er. No one dared to mess up with them until Shancai came.

I've always liked Shancai. I guess that's why she became my best friend. She's nice and hardworking but 1 thing I really admired about her was her courage.

Maybe, if I had a bit of that courage I would have fought for my feeling a long time ago and wouldn't have to burden this pain...

I've never been in love. At a time, I thought I was but I found out that he was a jerk and was just using me. Maybe, I should have thanked him because I found out whom I really want to be with.

Then. Maybe that was my first class ticket to my curse...

Who would have though that I would fall in love with him? Maybe I knew I just ignored all the red flashing signs. He was nice, a charmer, a total ladies' man...

He is Ximen Zhong Er.

When he punched my ex-boyfriend's face and claimed I was his girlfriend, I knew I was beginning fall for his charms.

He warned me, didn't he? He even told me that he doesn't want me to be hurt because he was capable of doing that. He refused me but that only made me long for him...I cant do anything...I already love him.

But then worst things happen. I found out that our family's migrating to Canada and there's no other choice but to leave Taiwan. I went to see Ximen the night before I had to leave...

As usual, he was at VS having a good time with Meizhou. He didn't look surprise to see me there; it was as if he was expecting me to come that night.

"Xiao You, come and sit with us." he greeted me.

Meizhou offered me a drink but I declined.

"Can I talk to you for a while?" I asked him.

"Sure..." he patted the chair beside him. I shook my head.

"Not here." I took his hand and urged him to go outside. Meizhou hooted and teased that I was cuter when I was persistent. I smiled at him and led Ximen outside the noisy pub.

We stood quietly for a couple of seconds before I finally spoke. "I'm leaving tomorrow...for good..."

He was still silent. I decided to repeat the statement for it seemed that he didn't hear me. "I'm leaving for Canada tomorrow morning." I said while waiting for his reaction.

"Take care..."

I felt tears suddenly forming in my eyes. I didn't expect that his reaction would be so casual. "Is that all you have to say?" I knew my voice squeaked but I couldn't care less.

Ximen nodded and gave me a smile. He leaned forward and kissed me on the forehead. "Take care Xiao You."

I knew that my heart was breaking up into pieces. I don't know where I got my courage but I slapped Ximen's face hard. Upon realizing what I did, I backed away from him. "This was a mistake...I shouldn't have come..." I told him then ran away as fast as I could. I didn't dare look back for I know he would see all the tears streaming down my anguished face.

I reached our house and closed the door of my room. I cried and cried for I've hit the most painful realization: Ximen don't love me and there was no way I could win his heart...

I was living in Canada for over 3 months now and I would still receive letters from ShanCai, telling me all about Taiwan and how things have been going on between Daoming Si and her. She would also occasionally tell me how Ximen has been asking about me but I knew that she was just trying to be polite. I know the truth...

I guess I was feeling better now until I saw him. With his long hair and posh get-up, I blurted out "Ximen!" I ran up to him and realized it was not he. His name was Andrew...

Andrew grew up in Canada but he was Asian. That chance meeting led into more and then we became friends. It was amazing to think how Andrew has much common with Ximen. Aside from his long hair and looks, Andrew was also rich and nice. Their only difference was that Andrew only had 1 girlfriend in his life whereas Ximen probably had a hundred.

Andrew was also my schoolmate so we usually spend time together. I really am getting to like Andrew. He and I became close. I've found the perfect guy in him, only that I was not attracted.

One time, he asked me out. I figured that it was one of our usual dinners together but I was surprised when he brought me to a very nice restaurant. It wasn't like the same fast foods we usually go to. It was almost like we were on a date or something...

"Are you sure this is where you want to eat?" I asked him.

He looked at me and smiled. "Yeah, Why? Is something wrong?"

"No. Its just that...it looks different..." I said while eyeing the candles and flowers adorning the place. A part of me wished that I was with Ximen instead of Andrew then I quickly mentally kicked myself for thinking ill of my friend.

I let Andrew order for me since he probably knows what were their specialties. While eating, I noticed that he was acting strangely.

When dessert came, I knew what was happening. Andrew placed his fork down and looked at me intently. "Xiao You, there's something I have to tell you."

I stopped eating and felt my heart beating fast.

"I really like you. Would you be my girlfriend? He asked. I knew he meant well and it would really kill me to hurt him but I have to say the truth.

"Andrew...you're a nice guy and I really like you too. But..."

"No.stop...i dont want to hear it..." Andrew interrupted me then gave me a smile." its ok with me...I just hope that we could still be friends."

I gently nodded. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you."

"Its fine with me...really." then he placed his hand on mine and gave me a squeeze.

"Ximen's a lucky guy. I just hope that he knew what he was giving up..." Andrew told me as he walked me up on our front steps...

Things really do happen when you least expect it. Who would ever thought that I would see Ximen here in Canada? I thought I was just hallucinating when I saw him standing in front of the bookshop I work part time for, but he was really there…

"Xiao You." He greeted me with his wonderful smile.

My first instinct was to run up to him and give him a hug but thinking back on how things ended up between us; I just walked primly up to him.

"Ximen, what are you doing here?" I asked him.

He grinned again. "I'm just vacationing and since you are here, I decided to give you a little visit." He said.

I felt all of my defenses crumble as my feelings for him resurfaces. "That's nice." I managed to say.

"Do you want to have some snacks? I'm quite hungry…" he gave me a wink.

"Sure." I led him to a nice little cafeteria near the bookshop. As usual Ximen ordered black coffee and some croissant. I asked for a lemon cake and some tea. He asked me about how I am and I answered politely upon his questions. After our snacks, he realized that he has forgotten something.

"Before I go, will you have dinner with me tonight?" he said.

I was taken aback by his question. How long have I been dreaming of this? I managed to say yes.

Ximen smiled "I'm bringing my girlfriend over so you could meet her so bring that boyfriend of yours that Shancai's been talking about…"

I don't know how I ended up saying yes to his offer of bring up my boyfriend since I don't have one. I don't want to use Andrew since I know how he feels about me.

I could kill Shancai for telling about my nonexistent boyfriend.

Luckily, Andrew understood. He even joked that if that was the only way he could claim me as his girlfriend; he would gladly accept the offer.

I felt even guiltier.

I knew before hand that night would be a disaster. I just didn't expect it to bombed out through my face. The uncomfortable evening started with my insecurity for the beautiful girl Ximen calls his girlfriend. Chen Fa looked like a model from a magazine, with her long black hair and chic black tube dress that perfectly hugged her curvaceous body. I secretly wished I could have dressed nicer than my own sleeveless yellow dress.

The evening went on with some chats then Andrew excused himself when his cell phone suddenly rang. Succeeding, Chen Fa went to the restroom. Ximen and I were left at the table looking at each other. Soft music was played at the restaurant and couples began dancing at the small dance floor. Ximen did the unthinkable.

"Want to dance?" he asked. I nodded and took his extended hand. He led me at the dance floor and placed his hand at the small of my back. I gently leaned and placed my head on his chest. It was a wonderful feeling how I could hear the steady beat of his heart.

"Andrew is nice." He told me.

I looked up to him and he was looking into space. Before I could back out I told him that I really don't like Chen fa. Ximen looked at me and laughed a little. "I know you would."

"What do you mean?" I asked. He just smiled and gently pushed my head back to his chest.

When the music stopped, the magic ended. We both went back to our table. Chen Fa didn't look pleased when we came back and she insisted that Ximen dance with her too. When he finally led her to the dance floor, Andrew took a look at me and knew I was hurt. He led me to the dance floor even though I was too drained to dance.

It hurts me to see Ximen dancing with another girl but Andrew held me that seemed to be saying I'm going to be ok. When I turned to look at Ximen and Chen Fa, he was looking at me at a very different manner then suddenly turned away. I was hurt again.

The dinner ended with us parting ways. Andrew drove me home.

"Why don't you just tell him you love him?" Andrew suddenly blurted out when we reached my house.

"Huh?" I was surprised with his question. I sighed. "I already did but he refused me."

"He loves you," he said. He looked at his hands. "I hurts me to admit this but Ximen looks like a nice guy… I think he does love you and he was hurt seeing us together.

I lay awake that night thinking about Andrew's words and Ximen. Maybe he's right…I have to see Ximen.

Early next morning, I called the hotel he was staying at and was surprised to find out that he has already checked out. The receptionist told me that Mr. Ximen left late last night. I don't know what happened to him but I have to talk to him. I decided that I have to go back to Taiwan.

I arrived late in the afternoon. I found Ximen at YingDe University, walking along with Meizhou. He looked surprised upon seeing me there. I greeted them and Meizhou was happy I was back.

"Can we talk?" I asked.

"I'm quite busy right now." He responded.

"Ok then. Meet me for dinner later. And no excuses." I smiled at him and turned away.

I waited for Ximen at Shang le Restaurant for nearly two hours then I realized that he wasn't coming. I decided to go to VS and I found him there sitting alone and drinking.

"Why do you keep on doing that?" I asked him when I was standing beside him.

He looked at he. "What?"

"Why do you keep on hurting me when you know deep inside you're hurting yourself in the process?" I asked again.

Ximen just kept on drinking.

"I love you Ximen Zhong Er!" I shouted with all my heart. All the people at the pub turned to look at us. Ximen suddenly stood up and took me outside. We continued walking at the streets then he finally stopped.

"Don't you understand that I don't feel the same." He said. He looked tired and lonely. I know he was lying.

"Tell me you don't love me…" I told him as the first sign of tears threatened to fall.

"Go home Xiao You…its late." He looked hard on me then turned away. "Good bye."

I felt the rush of warm tears fell from my eyes. I stood there unmoving as Ximen walked away slowly.

I don't know what to do…