The Anniversary

How are you today?

I hope you haven't forgotten, love; today's our anniversary, and I've come to visit you as I always have. I've brought you your favorite flowers. They were lilies, weren't they? Trust me to always remember. They've always made you smile, I recall – I was hoping to see you smile today, love, but that's not possible, is it? Ah well, I'll just have to imagine it in my mind like I always do, won't I?

Would you like to know what I've been thinking of?

Of course it's always you I'm thinking about; it's just that today, I've been reliving those years when you were still here beside me. Just to let you know, I haven't gotten over it. You told me it was easy to do so, but based from my experience, it's harder than what you or I ever expected. It's difficult, getting up every single day since you've gone and realizing that I would face a whole day not seeing you once again – it's even harder to lie down at night, to look at the empty side of our bed and think that that space would never hold you anymore. It's painful to think that, neither tomorrow nor the day after it, I will never be able to see you face to face, or to hold you in my arms once again. All I can do for me to see you is either to look at your pictures, or to close my eyes and imagine you in my mind.

I wish I could completely erase you from my memory. That way, neither of us would be suffering now. I would never have to go through life alone, and you would never have to get sad, because you would know that there was a moment in my life that I loved you. I doubt any kind of magic would be able to accomplish that; after all, you're someone quite unforgettable… Strangely enough, you were the reason I live, and I'm pretty sure you still are.

The sun's shining quite brightly today, and oddly enough, it reminds me of the only day that you cried in front of me. Do you remember that? You brought your fingers to my face all of a sudden, and told me to close my eyes as you traced my features. I asked why you did so, and you replied that you wanted to remember how I looked, even if you would never be able to see me again. You told me that even if you wouldn't see me anymore, at least you could remember my face through your fingers. You said that before you'd go, you were going to practice memorizing how I looked. You're so good-looking, you muttered, and I smiled and took hold of your hands. I opened my eyes and saw you crying, and you smiled sadly, saying how much you'd miss touching my face and being able to see me.

Well, do you know what? I can always feel your gentle caress in the sunshine, warming my face just as your touch used to warm me.

I'm sure you think I'm angry at you for going away without me. I'm not, really, because I'm sure you'd be there anyway, waiting patiently for me to arrive to wherever you are. Don't worry again, love, because I will indeed be there in time. I have absolutely no regrets in meeting you, loving you and watching you leave.

Only…I wish that I had come with you. I wish you hadn't left me alone. That way, it wouldn't be so hard for me to go on with my life.

I miss you, love. So very much to the point that it still hurts. I know you'd tell me off, saying that I should just go on with the future and not dwell in the past too much. I should forget you, you'd say, but I can't do that now, can I, love?

You'd know why, of course.

It's because I love you, Hermione, and I will never forget you, love. You've been too important to me, and Ican assure you you still are.

Happy anniversary, love. I'll be back next year.

Author's note: Inspired by the Korean drama, Stairway to Heaven. It isn't as clear as you some of you might have noticed. I hope, though, that you've realized that this is Draco speaking, talking to Hermione who is obviously gone. :D Hope you review...